Almost eight years ago, my family packed up our life in Albuquerque, New Mexico, and moved to Farmington. It is only a four-hour drive north that felt like I was entering another world. The move wasn’t for a promotion or better weather. See, Dad had accepted the Lord, studied religion, and been ordained. When Kirtland Baptist Church called him to “audition” and then voted him in as pastor, we prayed as a family, and the door opened. Dad believed God had laid this path on his heart, so we followed.
At ten years old, the move shattered my world. In Albuquerque, I’d only known private schools. These schools were places of privilege where everyone dressed similarly, came from like backgrounds, and followed the same unspoken rules. Suddenly, I was in public school with kids from every ethnic group, economic reality, and (in my young, judgmental eyes) different moral attitudes. The classrooms looked different, hallways felt stark and cold. I was no longer special. I was just another kid and I was miserable. Homework suffered, I withdrew, and I started blaming Mom and Dad for “ruining” my life. Why couldn’t we stay where things were familiar and easy?
It all spilled out in a heated talk with Mom. She listened, then gently but firmly reminded me: Dad wasn’t chasing his dreams; he was following God’s call. As a family, we support each other—even when it’s hard. Her words stung, but they stuck. Around then, I joined the church’s youth group. At first, it was tough. These teens seemed “rough”. Many parents worked long oil-and-gas shifts. The kids dressed and talked differently. I felt so out of place.
But slowly, I saw their realness. They shared openly about life’s highs and lows, without "airs". Those differences that once scared me became strengths. The group became my friends—people who showed up just as they were.
Then pancreatic cancer took Dad suddenly. My homework coach, best friend, and biggest cheerleader—the one who hugged me and said, “You’ve got this, Princess”—was gone. Grief left me in a thick fog. School felt empty and my grades tanked. My future seemed ruined. For the first time, Dad wasn’t there to help with math or advice. When I finally checked my transcript, I cried.
Thankfully, counselors and teachers refused to let me give up. They helped create recovery plans. I stayed after school for extra help, studied late through exhaustion and tears, and fought back. Today, I have a 3.0921/unweighted GPA and 3.4021/weighted. These numbers may seem average to some, but to me, they’re proof of dedication in my darkest time. For every grade point, I pictured Dad smiling down on me and cheering me on.
A year later, Mom’s near-fatal pulmonary embolism shattered my fragile outlook on life. Watching her fight, then become our sole provider, showed unbreakable strength. Losing Dad taught me life doesn’t promise forever, but Mom’s survival drove it home. Now, I make sure loved ones know their importance—today, not later.
The Farmington community proved its "realness" after Dad’s death. The “rough crowd” I once judged cut our grass, fixed things in our home, and most generously, the church voted to pay Dad’s salary through year’s end. In Albuquerque, support might have been polite and distant; here, it was real and meaningful.
Education gave me direction during my loss. Dual enrollment at San Juan College sparked early college credits and purpose. Hospice nurses during Dad’s final days explained things clearly, held space for our grief, and ensured we didn’t feel alone. Their compassion showed why nursing matters.
I’m pursuing the BSN through SJC’s NMNEC program with UNM. I will earn my ADN for RN licensure midway, then full bachelor’s—all while living at home. This lets me serve Four Corners families: those working oil fields, raising kids through boom-and-bust cycles, holding each other up in hard times. I want to be the presence they need—overlooked but deserving of clear explanations, comfort, and care.
This scholarship would ease Mom’s quiet worries about college costs, letting me focus fully. More than anything, it honors Dad by becoming the nurse he believed “his princess” would be. I want to carry his lessons of strength, gratitude, and service to others.
Cancer stole precious time, but it uncovered a hidden purpose. Education turned pain into direction, growth from discomfort, perspective beyond my old ideas of “acceptable,” and home in the people who stay by your side. I don’t want to be anywhere else. I carry Dad in every hand I’ll hold one day, every family I’ll help through their dark times. Thank you for the lessons, the hugs, the belief. I’m ready to give back.