The following is a section of my final clinical review before gradating form my ADN program: "The last patient that allowed me to care for them was in the thoughts of transitioning to palliative and/or hospice care related to their fast progression of multiple myeloma with metastasis to the spine and brain. He shared with me that he was an ICU nurse for the past 23 years, and was in the middle of his NP program when he was diagnosed. This patient, this nurse, understood his prognosis and expected care regimen. It was beautiful to see how involved he was in his care. He was patient and took the time ,without being prompted to, to teach me about his situation as a nurse and as a patient. I found myself wanting to comfort him, but not knowing entirely how. He, in those moments had much more knowledge and experience than I do as nurse. For many years and maybe even my whole career, he will still have had more knowledge and experience form both a nurse and patient perspective. Regardless, he needed support. I decided to not focus on his diagnosis and focus more on things he seemed to pride his life around. This being his children, his career, and the small stories he liked to share. He seemed to find comfort in the two of us exchanging life stories and in me treating him the same as if he was not in his hospital bed. I know If I were him, I would have wanted my nurse to do the same thing for me. I don't know if this was the right way to go about it, but it felt right. I don’t want to go too far into detail as to not break confidentiality, but there was something deeply rewarding in sharing our stories together. I know it is something that I will do many times again until it is myself in that hospital bed." There is a lot left unsaid in the above statements. The relationship I developed with this patient is something I don't talk about often, but is something I think about daily as I explore further into my nursing practice. Though I only spent a few days with him, my view; my thoughts on life and death and the ability for one to be able to choose their own death is something I hold dear. This patient taught me what it truly means to be a nurse, and for the first time in my life I felt secure and safe in who I wanted to be for myself and others. Because of him, I've decided I want to further myself in my nursing journey in either emergency medicine or nursing forensics to better the outcomes of the people we pass by on a daily basis, and hopefully contribute towards a world where diseases like multiple myeloma are not what takes away a person's right for a comfortable death, or to continue living a beautiful life.