In my educational journey, I am currently a senior in college for my undergraduate. When I first started college, COVID was still taking the world by storm. I not only had to deal with losing my senior year of high school, I had to attempt to navigate college and the requirements I needed to achieve. On top of that, I was taking prerequisites for nursing school.
I thought life could not get any tougher than that, I believed that if I could go through that as a freshman in college, I could handle nursing school no problem. Safe to say I laugh at my past self still. I am officially in my nursing program, and close to being done with it, but it was not easier than before. I have worked hard to get where I am now, and it is safe to say that I am proud of the person I have become. From the long studying nights to trying to balance a social life with work and school. In the beginning, it was difficult, but I eventually developed a good way that worked for me. I have been able to come this far, and I have good beliefs that I can stay strong and finish positively.
When thinking about my "aha" moment, I believe it was after I was done going through chemotherapy. During my months of chemo, I believed that I wanted to do nuclear medicine. I believed that I wanted to help the children who needed it, and I wanted to make a difference. However, I believed that I could not work closely with the children who had cancer. I knew as a nurse, I would form a bond with the children that were in my care, and if something were to happen to them, I was not sure how I would be able to handle it. Nonetheless, when I was ringing my bell, to signify that I was done with chemotherapy, I realized that I could be close and help them as I was helped. I realized that running away from what scared me was not going to make me stronger, being able to make a change for the children that needed it, to be able to compare our experiences and show them that I understand them was the best thing that I could do.
So at that moment, I decided it was time to not only face my fear of doing one of the hardest professions out there but also to do one of the most mentally challenging professions. After graduation, the end goal is to work with children who have cancer, and though I know it will be a difficult path, I am ready to take it.