Tattoos, piercings, and pitch-black outfits dominate my social scene. My “southern goth” community in Raleigh, NC, is integral to who I am. While I find shared identity through alternative style, I am also deeply connected to my community as a queer person.
My journey toward alternative identity began in 2020, when I became a photographer for Black Lives Matter protests. While documenting demonstrations advocating for equity, I listened as peers described the pressure to conform and the stereotypes imposed on people of color. These conversations pushed me to reflect on my upbringing as an Asian-American raised by Indian immigrants who taught me to present myself “respectfully” and avoid standing out.
I began to deconstruct gender and self-presentation, realizing I had been socialized to “perform” femininity in ways that prioritized others’ comfort. The protest dialogue shifted my mindset: suppressing individuality not only stunted my growth, but also hindered social progress. I began to prioritize authenticity, belonging, and community alongside academic success.
When I entered UNC-Chapel Hill, I embraced this shift. I got piercings and tattoos and wore my curly hair naturally instead of straightening it. While I found a community, I realized how rare it was to see someone like me pursuing medicine. Among Indian-American pre-med students, few were openly queer or visibly alternative; within alternative spaces, few aimed for clinical careers.
In both spaces, I often felt out of place. Comments like, “Do you know those tattoos are permanent?” or “Why did you bleach your eyebrows? You were so pretty!” made me question whether deviating from expectations would limit my opportunities.
My commitment to authenticity was tested more recently, when I competed in a highly publicized, queer “fight night” boxing event rooted in heavy metal and goth culture. As the only brown competitor, I worried that photos or associations could follow me into medical school admissions and be misunderstood.
Despite that, I chose to participate. It was a space built on community, self-expression, and joy: values I was no longer willing to suppress. Showing up fully, especially as a South Asian person in NC, felt important for myself and others who may not see themselves represented in queer and alternative spaces.
Alongside authenticity, a calling to build trust and connection shaped my path into medicine. During my freshman year, I helped build my campus EMS agency, starting by administering COVID-19 vaccines. In a time of uncertainty, I became a trusted peer. Some students chose to be vaccinated only if I was the one administering their shot, and staff later recognized me, expressing how comfortable I had made them feel. That trust continued to build as I worked as a technician at Duke University Hospital after graduating. I communicated with many patients who only spoke Spanish, and saw them relax when they realized I spoke their language.
My clinical experiences showed how connected we are by human experience. Pain, fear, and vulnerability are universal, and effective care depends on meeting patients where they are. My alternative identity has made me more attuned to those who feel marginalized or unseen in clinical care.
After medical school, I plan to work in harm reduction in Latin America, designing human-centered strategies for addiction care. I am particularly drawn to grassroots work: mobile clinics, community education, and overdose prevention.
Representing alternative identities in STEM matters to me. By showing there is no single way to exist as a physician, I hope to expand what is seen as possible. In every space, I aim to create an environment where patients and peers feel supported in their individuality, helping build a more inclusive future for medicine.