In March of 2020, the world stopped. Bars and restaurants closed, schools used virtual learning, and families were no longer allowed to see one another. Fear swept over our country; as we all locked our doors and waited. Now, looking back at the whirlwind year of 2020, I can say it was the best and most challenging year of my life that I would never change.
When the pandemic hit, I was a junior in college while my little sister, Grace, was a fourth-grader. As our schools moved online only, we would do our homework together at the kitchen table, attended zoom lectures, and went outside to play when we couldn’t read another page. Both of my parents were essential workers, forcing me to become both a student and a teacher. I was responsible for making sure Grace attended her classes and finished assignments. We were a team with a set schedule to ensure we were both on task throughout the day. I learned a tremendous amount of patience, time management, and organizational skills during this time. I had to remember my sister was only 9-years-old, and concepts overly familiar to me were complex for her. I had to make schedules for both of us to use our time wisely. If I was in a zoom lecture, I ensured she had a task that she could complete independently and save more complicated worksheets for when I would be available to answer questions. Now, I can translate these skills into my school work and future career in the nursing field.
As summer approached and no end of COVID-19 was in sight, our family had more time together. Our dinners became a focal point in our days because family dinners together before COVID-19 were seldom due to busy schedules. 2020 allowed my family to truly be with each other while cooking meals and eating around the same table. We played board games that were collecting dust in closets and watched movies that had been stacked away in drawers. Yet, we missed other family members. 2020 hindered seeing grandparents, extended family, and even my older brother, Justin. My brother worked on a COVID-19 ICU floor. We face-timed him often but it was not the same. Summer made me appreciate my family more. During typical summers, I would have worked and spent free time with friends. I realized how important family truly is to me, and how fortunate I was to have months of family dinners, game nights, and movie nights. If you ask Grace, 2020 was the best year, because we got to spend quality time together. In that regard, she couldn’t be more accurate.
The fall turned out to be the hardest for my family. In September, my maternal grandfather’s health started to rapidly decline as his body was failing. Only a few weeks passed until Justin and I received a text message from my dad, “The doctors aren’t sure if grandpa will make it through the night. Your mom is on her way there now.” Tears filled my eyes as I felt my heart slowly breaking, and couldn’t help but think about how my mother was doing. My mom called a few hours later. She was composed and strong, and I was shocked. We talked about our memories with grandpa and laughed together. She knew he wasn’t doing well and had accepted fate. It wasn’t until she saw the hospital sign when she started to cry. Two days later my grandfather passed away. Masks and social distance were not ideal when all you want is a hug from your family members. Yet, we sat dressed in black only near individuals of our households. Less than a week after the funeral, I received a call saying a family member had just tested positive for COVID-19. I walked to the COVID-19 testing site on a cold Friday morning and left with tears in my eyes as the nasal swab stung my nose. Wednesday morning I received the news, I was positive for COVID-19. Those next two weeks of isolation were the hardest. However, I learned how strong I was during this time. I learned how to cope with grief and composed myself just as my mother had done before reaching the hospital. I learned how to be strong, yet most importantly I learned that it was okay to break down and cry and release all the fears, anger, and sadness we often hold inside. Those two weeks allowed me to self-reflect as I craved homework time with my sister and a family meal on a warm summer night. 2020 emphasized that the intangible things in life are most important and irreplaceable, and that is something I will always remember and take with me as we move forward into 2021.