Chutes and ladders. It’s a classic children’s game that I always hated growing up. As soon as I would reach spot number 97, so close to finishing, it seemed as though I always landed on a slide and slid back down to spot number 10. It was a gruesome challenge; one I felt related a lot to my life.
In the beginning of fifth grade, I felt like I was on top of the world. I was doing well in school; I had a great group of friends and was excited to start middle school the following year. I felt like nothing could bring me down; I was at spot 96 on my game board. However, that year, my mother was diagnosed with stage 4 metastatic breast cancer. It was like a rolled a one on the die, landed on spot 97, and slid all the way back to the beginning of the game. We didn’t know how long my mom had left or if she would respond to treatment. All I knew was that she was in a lifelong battle. As my mother went through chemotherapy, had multiple surgeries and endured radiation, I noticed the kindness and care exerted by the nurses taking care of my mom. Whether it was bringing a warm blanket and a smile, taking a few minutes to listen and sympathize, or even crying with my mom when she got back an unfavorable test result, the nurses have helped my mom through the rigorous chronic treatment over the last nine years and helped relieve the relentless pressures that accompany it. Throughout her treatment, I watched my mom gradually climb a few steps up her ladder every week, with many nurses helping her along the way. I developed an appreciation for the nurses and decided I wanted to devote my life to helping others climb their ladders.
I didn’t think I would be able to help others climb their ladder until I finished school and became a registered nurse, but I was quickly proven wrong. In eighth grade my friend confided in me that her mother was diagnosed with breast cancer, and I immediately knew I could help her. I became the guiding hand that I wish I had when my mother was diagnosed, helping her navigate what lay ahead and the many difficult milestones her mom would face. I helped take her mind off the stress of her mom’s treatments and was the listening ear when it all became too much. Day by day I helped her climb her ladder. Eventually, her mother completed her treatment and got to ring the bell. I celebrated with her as her mother was cancer free. My friend thanked me for everything I did for her. I was so rewarding watching her climb the ladder. While my mom will never be done with treatment, my friend also helped me climb up my ladder. She may not have realized it, but the sense of fulfillment I gained from helping her made me realize that I wanted to spend my life helping others. More specifically, it made me realize I wanted to be a nurse.
Throughout high school, I worked in a local nursing home in the dining services department. I have helped serve food, carry trays, and clean up the dining area for residents. During my time there, I developed relationships with many of the residents. I would talk to them about my aspirations of becoming a nurse, and they would tell me about their lives. One day, I came into work and learned that one of the residents I spoke to regularly with had passed away. I saw him every day at dinner in the dining hall. Following his death, I noticed his wife at the dining hall less and less. She hadn’t come down to eat with the other residents for several days after his death. When she finally returned to the dining hall for dinner, I approached her. Normally I tried to brighten a resident’s day with a quick “hello” or “how are you doing,” but I felt this situation required more. I sat down with the resident and told her how sorry I was to hear about her husband. I expressed how much I enjoyed talking with him and seeing him in the dining hall. We sat and funny stories about him and when I got up to leave, she placed her hand on my wrist said, “Thank you for helping me remember all of the good times I had with my husband.” She thanked me for letting him live on in her memories, and she gave me a hug. After that encounter, I saw light in her eyes. She had remembered the good times she had with her husband had and didn’t let the sadness of his death dim the light. I watched her slowly climb her ladder. She found support in other widows who lived in the assisted living nursing home. Through helping her, I once again noticed myself slowly climbing up my ladder.
I want to combine my experience with cancer and an interest in pediatrics, ultimately leading to a career in pediatric oncology. I want to help children facing health challenges and their struggling families climb their ladders. I am currently a sophomore at the University of Tennessee, but I return to work at the nursing home during school breaks and over the summer. I returned to work this month during winter break. I was happy to reconnect with all of the residents, especially the widow. Her light is shining brightly, and she is a reminder to me of the impact you can have on others’ lives.
While I’m sure I will experience many more slides in my future, knowing that in two short years I will become a licensed registered nurse who helps families climb up their ladders in terrible situations makes me feel like I have already won the game.