I received my first death threat at the age of fifteen, after a conservative media outlet reported, “American Idol Contestant Advances to Next Round After Singing Song Celebrating Abortions,” characterizing my song as an anthem for women to willfully get pregnant and kill babies. The only factual elements of the story were that I was fifteen and a contestant on the iconic show, performing “My Body, My Choice.” I wrote the controversial song in 2019 as a message to the women in Alabama confronting a near-total ban on abortion, an assault on their constitutional right to choose. I wrote the song on a plane after reading an article in The New York Times about the approval of the legislation banning abortion. The lyrics conveyed every emotion raging through my body. I immediately began performing the song at Planned Parenthood benefits, open-mic nights, and eventually for Katy Perry, Lionel Richie, and Luke Bryan during my American Idol audition. Writing music with meaning and intention is a driving force and a passion that I have pursued intensely since childhood. I felt an obligation to leverage my voice to answer the moment.
The death threat that followed my audition wasn't the first time my life was at risk.
My music career kicked off during my residence in the neonatal intensive care unit. I was never supposed to live, let alone sing. With paralyzed vocal cords, I only fit into the palm of my mother’s hand. Somehow, I survived, making my very first sound at six months old.
Knowing I had little chance of surviving, let alone thriving, drives a responsibility inside me to make a difference. When fires and a deadly mudslide devastated my town and killed a mother and father of two close friends in 2018, I teamed up with a group of fellow youth musicians, creating a benefit concert, Teen Sing, raising over $75,000 for survivors of the mudslide. In tragedy, I was able to use my voice to help my town heal, and I felt no greater purpose.
I have discovered that music is magical, and it helps to restore a deep sense of self and connection for people struggling with loss. I became fascinated with music and memory after losing my grandmother to Alzheimer’s and seeing, "Alive Inside,” spotlighting the transformation of people with Alzheimer's revitalized by music. I began to volunteer at The Friendship Center for adults with memory loss, singing a range of old songs. I was astonished at the impact of music on an environment typified by isolation. In loss, there is life, and each week if I am lucky, I just might help someone with Alzheimer’s remember a moment in their life- a trip, a kiss, even their wedding dance.
While my music may not harness the power to overturn abortion legislation, stop natural disasters or slow memory loss, these experiences have broadened my perspective on music and the extraordinary role it plays in connection and closeness. Music is the social elastic that can change how we think and feel.
As I have grown as a songwriter, embracing my identity, and tackling bold topics with a serious message has become my true passion. What excites me about college is the opportunity to study topics that I am passionate about, including gender and sexuality studies, while leveraging my music to bring change to groups facing discrimination. I want to transform the music industry, where only 2% of producers in the industry are female, and 98% are men. I long to push for progress, and to build initiatives that develop women into positions of power and leadership.