Computers have always been a mystery to me, ever since I was small I have been fascinated by the inner workings of technology. Growing up I only really had my mother, seeing my father on monitored visits or short weekends. My dad had been scared off by the commitment of a child and ran off, only to be dragged back by the threats of court 7 years later. One of the first things I remember bonding with him over, after finally meeting him, was him handing me a robotics kit to build together. We ended up building five different robot toys during our time together, and to this day is the only clear memory I have of my time with him in monitored visits.
Once our visits didn't need to be monitored anymore, I don't remember ever truly bonding with him again. I typically hung out with whoever he was married to at the time or whatever family he was living with. As I grew, I finally got to learn about all of the court cases he had been involved with. As bizarre as it all was, I remember the gut-wrenching feeling of seeing my father's disdain for me and my mother spelled out in clear print. His actions had put us in an awkward spot financially that we're still recovering from to this day.
Despite everything, I held the technology he showed me very dearly, wanting to master whatever magic controlled this modern world. Originally, I started out joining math clubs and competitions until finally in high school, I could dabble in real computer science. That year I truly came out of my shell, I never knew how excited and talkative I could be but there I was, ranting to teachers and newfound friends constantly about functions and parameters whenever I got the chance. Every day made me even more curious, I was so eager to hear each lesson. Most days, when I got done with the assignment due for that day, I'd spend my time researching new ways to code and improving my old projects.
My computer science teacher was extremely supportive, insisting I try to get into the top engineering school in Colorado, Colorado School of Mines. I doubted I was going to get in, I had grown up never expecting much so I was more than ready to be rejected and move on. Miraculously, I was somehow accepted. I couldn't stop reading the acceptance letter, it felt surreal. I would be able to work in my dream career in one of the best schools for computer science and engineering in the US. I'm honored to have the chance to major in computer science and work in cybersecurity in the future, but there's one last obstacle.
Alongside being one of the best computer science and engineering colleges, it's also one of the most expensive in Colorado. With my family's awkward financial situation, it's becoming difficult to imagine how we'll cover the tuition, and I hope to help keep myself and my family away from as much debt as possible. However, I'm determined to figure out how to keep this dream alive.