Grief and loss have shaped my life from an early age, but they have also taught me resilience, self-awareness, and strength. When my family moved back to Pittsburgh, my dad was parenting on his own, caring for my younger sister, my older brother, and me. Over time, we slowly watched his alcohol use increase. His drinking began to affect our daily lives, our sense of safety, our mental health, and our overall well-being. As a child, I didn’t have the language to fully explain what I was experiencing, but I knew I needed a way to cope.
That was when I began journaling. At first, I wrote simply to document my days, especially during times when life felt unpredictable and we didn’t consistently attend school. Writing became a safe space where I could be honest about my fears, confusion, and sadness. As I watched alcohol slowly take my dad away from us, journaling helped me process emotions that felt too heavy to say out loud. It gave me control during a time when so much felt out of my hands.
I still journal to this day. I write about my present life, my goals, and the person I am becoming. When I look back at my earlier journal entries, I’m reminded of how much growth has come from hardship. Those pages tell the story of survival, healing, and perseverance. Journaling taught me emotional discipline, reflection, and the importance of mental health—lessons that continue to guide me as I move forward.
Faith has also been an important part of my healing. When I reflect on my past, I’m amazed by the work God has done in my life. The challenges I faced did not break me; instead, they shaped my character and strengthened my purpose. My past has become a source of motivation rather than pain, reminding me that growth is possible even in the hardest circumstances.
Through loss, responsibility, and self-reflection, I learned how to be resilient and compassionate. These experiences are the foundation of my desire to continue my education and pursue a meaningful career in healthcare. I want to support others through difficult moments, just as I learned to support myself. College represents an opportunity to break cycles, create stability, and turn my experiences into a way to help others feel seen, safe, and supported.
Everything I have endured has prepared me for the future I am working toward. I carry my past with strength, faith, and gratitude, knowing it has shaped me into someone capable of growth, leadership, and purpose.