My experience with mental health has deeply shaped my goals, relationships, and understanding of the world. As an African American young woman on the autism spectrum, I have faced bullying, stereotyping, and even assault in public, private, and religious school environments. Over time, these experiences took a serious toll on my mental health, leading to severe depression and a period in my life where I struggled with suicidal thoughts. At one point, I was admitted into a residential mental health facility to receive the care and support I needed.
That season of my life was one of the most difficult, but it was also one of the most transformative. In the middle of pain, confusion, and emotional exhaustion, I began to lean on my faith in a deeper way. I did not always understand why I was going through what I was facing, but I held on to the belief that God had a purpose for my life, even when I could not see it clearly myself. My faith became an anchor, reminding me that my life had value, even when my circumstances made me feel otherwise.
Through therapy, support, and spiritual growth, I began to rebuild. I had to learn how to manage my emotions, challenge negative thoughts, and give myself grace. I also had to rediscover who I was outside of the pain and the labels others placed on me. Homeschooling gave me the space to heal, grow, and focus on my future in a healthier environment.
My experiences have significantly shaped my relationships. I value trust, honesty, and emotional safety in a deeper way because I know what it feels like to be misunderstood and hurt. I am more compassionate toward others who are struggling, especially those dealing with mental health challenges. Rather than judging, I try to listen and support, because I understand how important it is to feel seen and heard.
These challenges have also shaped my goals. I am determined to build a life where I can live independently, pursue a meaningful career, and continue growing into the person God created me to be. I have developed an interest in areas like graphic design, digital art, and technology, and I plan to use these skills to create opportunities for myself. More importantly, I want my life to reflect resilience and purpose. I want to show others, especially young people who feel overlooked or broken, that their story does not end in their struggle.
My understanding of the world has become more complex and compassionate. I recognize that not everyone will understand my experiences, and that bias and misunderstanding still exist. However, I also understand that challenges can produce strength, and that healing is possible with the right support, mindset, and faith. I no longer see my mental health journey as something to hide, but as part of my testimony.
While I would never choose to relive the pain I experienced, I can say that it has strengthened my faith, deepened my character, and clarified my purpose. I am committed to continuing my healing journey, growing in my faith, and building a future that reflects hope, strength, and perseverance. I believe that God has carried me through my darkest moments, and I trust that He will continue to guide me toward a life filled with purpose and impact.