Sometimes, it takes acknowledgment from another to realize my self-worth. Not to say that I do not know myself, but by living true to my character, I started becoming unconscious of the potential impact I have on others. During my junior year of high school, I made myself well-known around the school. More people knew who I was since I participated in theatre, band, and student council. If someone were to question my character, they would see only positive attributes projected by me wherever I went. I try my best to keep up appearances and to be there for others, but sometimes that leads to me trying too hard and realizing that I do not have anyone close enough to rest my shoulder on. Being good acquaintances with others is one thing, but finding and keeping real friends has always been a challenge.
However, I had a friend named Korie, who slowly became my closest companion. He was a senior; I was a junior, but even though we were in separate grades it never got in the way of our friendship. It was something I cherished as I struggled to maintain strong friendships. Whenever I needed him, he was there for me, but I could tell he also had his guard up. He lost his last best friend tragically and struggled to get close to me in fear of getting hurt, and that guard didn’t until one fateful that we both talk about to this day.
It was late evening, and I was getting ready for bed when Korie called me. At first, I wasn’t going to answer as I thought it wasn’t that important, and I had to do some things before heading to bed, but something made me answer the phone, and when I did, I was bewildered by what I saw. It was Korie crying frantically, which he never did, at least not in front of me. He asked me if he could stay the night in my house, which surprised me because he had never asked me that before. As I tried to ask him why and what was wrong, it was as if his tears were drowning his words, so it first came out in mumbles, but he gathered his words to explain the situation. He and his father got into a big altercation that led to him being beaten and put out of the house. After he told me that, I told my family the situation and drove as fast as I could to his home, which was right up the block from mine. I finally get there to see him and his mother arguing over what just happened. I tried to calm the situation, but it was almost impossible; he was angry.
He was angry, sad, confused, and over the nonsense he was dealing with in his household. At first, his mother decided he could come with me, and I was eager to take him away from the toxicity forming around that house for the night, but after more time passed, his mother changed her mind and persisted that he went back in. She told me to leave and that he would be fine, but I wouldn't until I knew he was okay. It wasn’t until he gave me the confirmation to retreat that I hesitantly drove back home.
After that night, it took him some time to adjust, but he eventually found his way back to his old self, which was almost perfect timing since graduation was approaching and he was about to walk the stage. A few weeks before his graduation, he told me he was the one chosen to give the graduation speech, and I was overjoyed to hear the accomplishment. I was already attending as I was a part of the band performing for graduation, so it was nice to get the opportunity to hear my best friend tell his story and set sail to adulthood with him having the final word.
As I sat down to watch him give the graduation speech, he talked about every person who added value to his life that caused him to be better and to believe that there was more to life than just wasting away. He started with his family, then his teachers, and all while giving this speech, I wondered if he would mention me. I knew I meant a lot to him, but I didn’t know if he found it appropriate. Some of me wish he would, but another part understood if he didn’t.
I didn't expect him to say my name since it was a graduation speech, but before the thought could leave, he mentioned my name as the best friend who had been there through everything and helped make his last year the best. At that moment, I was overwhelmed with emotions that hit me all at once. I was overwhelmed with happiness over the fact that I was able to be one of the people who could majorly impact his life.
I try to be there for people, but I never thought anyone cared to see that side of me.
The speech meant more to me than anyone could understand, and it's not only because I was acknowledged by my friend but also because I had found someone who cared for me as much as I cared for them. All of my worries about our beautiful friendship were for nothing. He helped me realize that by overthinking the negatives of life, I will never be able to understand its beauty, and for that, I will forever be grateful.