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Connor Rothman

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Bio

“Despite everything, it’s still you.” I played the game Undertale when I was eleven years old, and to this day, that one line of text always begets potent feelings of self-reflection within me. The line comes near the end of the game, after traversing the underground world and facing countless monsters–ones that, despite having the option of violent slaughter, you can all befriend through kindness and compassion. The mirror’s text appears only on this pacifistic route, and is a line that, like many who played it, has stuck with me long after beating the game. As I’ve grown, my adoration for video games expanded to encompass various aspects of their development, including art, music, and coding. This passion initially manifested through creating fanmade music and concept art for projects I followed, with one leading to my acceptance into a group of game-modding teens self-titled “Team ShatterDisk” in 2022. Over my years with the group, I've developed the artistic skills and knowledge of tools to create mods fully on my own, including making a full-game mod of Undertale. The vision of creating a game has been a burning desire ever since my younger self read that one line of text, having only evolved since its conception, with one greater purpose in mind: I wish to complete the circle, to provide that character, scene, or story which others can connect with on a deeper, personal level. I want to make my own special text that someone can stick with them and help them to grow into the best version of themselves too; not unlike that young girl all those years ago.

Education

Portola High School

High School
2022 - 2026

Miscellaneous

  • Desired degree level:

    Bachelor's degree program

  • Majors of interest:

    • Computer Science
    • Human Computer Interaction
    • Mathematics and Computer Science
    • Computer Programming
    • Computer Software and Media Applications
    • Computer Engineering
    • Applied Mathematics
  • Not planning to go to medical school
  • Career

    • Dream career field:

      Computer Games

    • Dream career goals:

    • Concessions Worker

      Wild Rivers
      2025 – 2025

    Public services

    • Volunteering

      VIVID (Validating & Including Voice in Diversity) — Contribute to group poster creations, conceptualize activities & theming for events, set up Queer Prom event, forge community among queer youth.
      2025 – Present
    Aserina Hill Memorial Scholarship
    To know how to love all of oneself is one of the most important things a person could learn. That is the message I have obtained throughout the past three years of discovering my identity as a transgender woman. This journey arose from the game Celeste, a game centered around a woman named Madeline combating a hostile part of herself given form as she climbs a magical mountain. As they clash, Madeline is intent on abandoning this part of her, believing she does not need to keep a part of herself that is sabotaging her own progress. However, she comes to understand that this part of her is simply scared and trying to protect her, and that embracing her—all of her—is the only true way to move forward from her climb and the struggles of the past. Madeline’s experiences with internal battles and self-love are ones that resonated with me very potently as a young transgender woman. Her story pushed me to view myself differently, and to treat the parts of me I felt disdain towards with gentle reassurance, rather than sharp aggression like Madeline and I once did. This shift in perspective would extend beyond more than just towards myself, though: At school, I joined the Gay-Straight Alliance and Trans-Nonbinary clubs, student-led organizations that provide a comfortable space for students to discuss their identities and discover themselves among peers. These groups are small and tight-knit, allowing for more personal conversations and bonds to flourish. Conversely, I am also a member of the VIVID organization outside of school. Short for “Validating and Including Voices In Diversity,” the group focuses on arranging events to uplift our local queer communities. These events, such as Queer Prom, are larger spaces for members of the LGBTQ+ community to gather and express themselves in a safe and supportive environment. While the school clubs provide individual support, events hosted by VIVID offer external advocacy that can unite the broader community as a whole. My involvement in these groups across multiple years has showcased the importance of both forms of support, and I intend to continue upholding their levels of advocacy as I transition into college. Being able to watch both myself and many of my queer friends learn to understand and love ourselves fully has been eye-opening. Witnessing self-expression flourish in others makes the world feel that little bit brighter; it is as if weights drop off of their shoulders and let them relax for the first time in years. Forming a charity that focuses on promoting expression and exploration in others is a wonderful way to share that experience with even more people beyond local communities. Similar to many of VIVID’s events, it would house gender-affirming haircuts, an expansive wardrobe of clothes to explore style, and ways to communicate with peers who were in their same positions not long ago. Whether individuals are transgender like me, or simply aiming to uncover another aspect of themselves, actualizing the truest version of oneself is a feat that can be universally freeing. The journey of self-expression can be much like climbing our own mountains; sometimes you just need the right tools, and a little push, to reach the gorgeous view at the summit.
    Big Picture Scholarship
    One short scene was all it took to completely shift my view of my own identity. The walls turned from orange to green as she stepped out from the doorframe. “I was trying so hard to wear this thing the way you would want. And I didn’t.” The details blurred from sharp lines forming a room to strokes of paint. She felt wronged by the world, confined into a role she had never asked for. She tried so hard to fit the mold that was given. She didn’t want to make waves, she didn’t want to hurt people. But she was dealt a hand in a game she never wished to play, a division she never wanted. “...They can only know half of who I am.” The paint melted to watercolor, devolved into abstract shapes. She felt fragmented in her own mind. One part high schooler, one part superhero, both parts incompatible. She was lonely. And I saw myself in her inability to understand her own selfhood. Spider-Man: Across the Spider-Verse is one of the few movies I wish I could have watched again for the first time. Gwen Stacy, like many other Spider-Men, had faced the realization that no one can know who she is under the mask, no matter how close. A part of her has to be locked away from the world to protect herself. Gwen’s father, however, learns of her superhero identity after the death of her world’s Peter Parker. Even in revealing herself, it's clear why she was so reluctant to show her identity—she was held at gunpoint, accused of murdering Peter, by her own father. She was reclusive, not out of a lack of love, but out of fear that was proven to be true. Later in the movie, though, Gwen confronts her father again, echoing her earlier sentiments with a confession: She doesn’t know what to do. There is no right decision to make, not in a world where she can’t just be Gwen without these fractures partitioning who she is into two equally false selves. When I watched Across the Spider-Verse, I had known I was a transgender woman for around one full year. I had opened up to close friends, found my new name, and began privately exploring who I was behind my own mask I hadn’t realized I was wearing for so long. Despite it all, I had yet to tell my parents about this reality, and the justification was identical to Gwen’s: fear of disapproval and loneliness, even when I knew I would be accepted. But unlike the reaction many transgender children unfortunately receive, Gwen was met with reassurance from her father. “My job, being captain, this whole…thing doesn’t matter anymore. You’re the best thing I’ve ever done.” Gwen’s struggles of weighing the different personas she must project to safeguard herself resonated starkly with my own, and through that, the scene instilled me with the same hope Gwen received from her father. It gave me faith, as I watched the room fade back into detail from pure whites and pinks, that I could be seen in the same way she was. It helped me believe that acceptance and understanding weren’t as daunting as I feared. I almost came out to my parents that same night; a part of me chose to wait for a better time than a Thursday evening to announce it. But Gwen’s speech persisted in the back of my mind until the day I finally did, giving me that simple reminder of hope—for myself, for her, and for our truest selves.
    Stewart Family Legacy Scholarship
    Exploring the impacts of science on our lives every day feels like watching a massive spider web of all the activities we do and devices we use: Everything is connected with each other. I have always viewed science and engineering as the dynamic duo of humanity’s technological advancements. No matter what you are interacting with, or what task you’re performing, there will be a link leading back to at least one of them. Many of these are more obvious; advancements in medical technologies are driven by discoveries in biology and chemistry, and shifts to renewable energy are predicated on information provided by environmental sciences such as ecology. However, the connections run deeper into daily life than I believe most people recognize. One prime example of this is the vehicles we use to travel every day. The production and optimization of fuels such as gasoline and diesel are influenced by chemistry, and the field can even be involved in protective paints for vehicles as well. Additionally, physics pairs with engineering to design aerodynamic structures for vehicles while still ensuring their safety. The same can be said for many other appliances, crafted with the science of their function in mind. Even devices as ordinary as a microwave use humanity’s understanding of physics and electricity to be designed to heat food of different types and qualities properly. Without the findings of countless researchers and scientists, much of the technology we utilize today would not exist—even the ones we perceive to be more mundane. These discoveries and inventions were spearheaded by scientists in the top of their field, and their leadership in directing projects and working to foster innovation allowed them to be utilized to the fullest. Science is one of the most prominent promoters of human-wide advancement, from technology and health to exploration and protection of our planet. Progression in technologies hinge greatly on the work that teams of professionals produce, and these leaders throughout the vast fields of science have the responsibility to lead their fields forward to new discoveries. Their revelations, and the changes they bring, will continue to create ripples that affect the way we interact with the world around us, and with each other.