There are two things that have stuck with me almost all my life: anxiety and ambition. I have always been an anxious person, doing simple tasks sometimes felt like life or death, so one can only imagine what it is was like trying to make big decisions that could drastically alter the fate of life as a whole. It was hard, and it is still hard, but there’s always another factor that comes to play as well, and that is my ambition. I am someone who dreams big and although I have more anxiety than the average person could ever deal with, I also have just as much ambition to match. It is not often for my nerves to get the best of me, and I have had more than a fair share of cracking under stress from anything, but I keep going. Maybe not immediately afterward; I have to know when to rest, but I will still keep pushing myself.
One could argue that constantly having your dreams and fears clashing with each other as if in an unbeatable war would make me want to just quit any and everything- and I would be lying if I said I didn’t consider it every now and again- but that is not who I am. I have learned to adapt to new and ever-changing situations and shape them to my advantage one way or another. If there is one thing I would like for someone to know about me when considering my reception for this scholarship, it would be that despite my obstacles and challenges- mentally or otherwise- I am still willing to put in the dedicated work to make my dreams a reality.
I have been drawing since I was a kid, but my passion for art really took flight when I started high school. I create my own characters and add stories to make them more interesting as well. I believe I still have a long way to go to reach my full potential as an artist, but if anything, that has only encouraged me to continue practicing my skills to get me closer to my goal of being a professional animator. I will carry on with my personal hobby of drawing, both traditionally and digitally in order to improve in general, but I am hoping that by attending a well-established and accredited school, I will be able to learn new, creative ways to go about my craft as well as teach others who may want to learn from me.
For as long as I can remember, I have had this unshakable fascination with not only seeing drawings come to life but the idea of being able to possess the power to bring them to life myself. To me, that in itself just sounds like a great reason to be an animator, but I am still fully aware that the job is not for everyone. That said, I know it is the job for me. To me, being an animator means I get to be a creator. I get to be a creator, not just of art, but a creator of life as well. I get to take part in building new worlds, new possibilities, anything I can think of, and even more than that for there are virtually no bounds to what can be created, let alone imagined to create. It is because of this limitless range of creativity that is nothing less than awe-inspiring that I can not help but want to be a part of it.
When I earn my degree, I expect to gain a more detailed understanding of this field as a whole, but I expect to gain a better opportunity to use my role in society to help uplift my community to reach its greatest potential as well. I see myself fitting into society and community by creating art that not only speaks for my passions and beliefs but also showcases the interests of those around me. If life is a giant machine, I am a gear that will not only be an integral part to starting a movement, but one that helps push forward whatever movement I am in. if life is a giant painting, then I am the base coat of paint in that whatever I do now may not seem that great or important, but it will bring together whatever the picture ends up being, and wouldn’t be finished without. I hope that with a degree, I can gain a greater platform to not only entertain my audience but educate and advocate for them as well.
For the time being, however, I will use the skills I have now to better not only myself but those around me. My ability to be open-minded and willing to compromise while also sticking to my beliefs and personal goals make me a great person to discuss new ideas with and critique them as needed. As I learn more about the outside world, and even myself, I try my best to implement those lessons into the art I create. I keep my creations, specifically my characters, diverse and do my part in making sure marginalized groups such as POC and the LGBTQ+ community are given proper representation, even if I don’t have that big of a platform to share. It is because of this that the work I share with my audience tends to carry a message of enlightenment whether it be a simple character design or a bigger piece that bluntly states my stance on a current controversial topic.
To summarize, I hope to achieve my goal of getting a Bachelor’s Degree in animation, but I also hope to broaden my horizon of life along the way. There is no one way to prepare for the goals I have set for myself, but I know that by continuing to practice my technical skills as well as keeping an open mind to what may come, I will accomplish whatever I set off to achieve.