Throughout elementary school and middle school, it was unknown to everyone that I have ADHD, and because of this, I struggled a lot. I absolutely hated school, simply because I wasn’t good at it. I had a habit of comparing myself to my classmates, who were all very competitive, fast-paced learners, so naturally, I couldn’t keep up with them. Every day after school I would cry in the car on the way home because I felt inarticulate. I knew I was intelligent, but I could never express it. It felt as if my classmates were sailing away and I was left on the dock. As I watched my friends make honor roll and principal's list, I would always sit in the crowd and ask myself, “what is wrong with you?”.
. My teachers often treated me as if I were below average, and it embarrassed me in class. For instance, I was publicly praised for receiving grades over 75 percent. I became extremely depressed. Thankfully, my parents recognized that there was a chance I had a learning difference, so they got me tested. I was diagnosed with ADHD at age thirteen and was prescribed medicine. Days after I started my medication, my grades instantly improved. I was switched to advanced courses and began receiving academic awards. At eighth-grade graduation, I went home with academic awards and certificates. Since my diagnosis, I learned that there is nothing wrong with having ADHD. At first, I was embarrassed to tell my friends and teachers, but now I have learned to embrace it. It is a part of me, but it does not define who I am. At first, I thought medicine was making me more intelligent, but as I grew older, I learned that it aids me in bringing out my intelligence.
Once I receive my degree in biology, I plan to continue to medical school. My overall goal is to become a practicing physician. As I am becoming a young woman, I am starting to gain an understanding of who I truly am. I have a natural passion for helping others. Whether the gesture is small or large, it is reassuring to know that you can offer a helping hand to those in need.
Though I have ADHD, I have learned that it does not define who I am and the person I want to become. Ever since I embraced my ADHD I have had more confidence in myself which has guided me closer to achieving my goals. I began working in a pediatric office as a medical record intern at the age of fifteen. Now, at the age of seventeen, I am a licensed Certified Nursing Assistant in the state of Georgia.
Too often people with ADHD and other learning disabilities are looked past. There have been many instances where I wasn’t given opportunities due to my diagnosis. Many people don’t realize that we are capable of the same things as everyone else, and I want to help prove that we are more than a learning disability. Especially as a young black woman I want to be and influence other black girls around the world. There is a lack of black representation in medicine and I want to help fill that gap. Through this scholarship, I can pay for my education and follow my dreams. I want to become a physician so I can help others just like me feel comfortable in their shoes.