Question 3.
On September 6th, 2021, my mother unexpectedly took her own life in our home a few hours after I had left for my junior year of college, and unfortunately, she did not leave a note, and I did not say goodbye that day.
My mother was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis when I was a baby. However, for many years, the only symptom she had was extreme fatigue. Therefore, although she could not work, she still was an incredible mother. However, beginning in high school, Multiple Sclerosis began slowly taking a toll on her psychological reasoning. My mother became mentally and emotionally abusive to me. Although I did not know what was happening at the time, her deteriorating mental health was the cause of this abusive treatment.
During my freshman year of college, she had a psychotic episode and was rushed to the emergency room. For the next two years, she was in and out of mental hospitals, and I witnessed my father having to call 911 multiple times due to the episodes. She was prescribed a variety of different medications, but unfortunately, they did not help, and although we often forced her to take the medication, many times she did not. Her mental disorders were causing her to believe that she had nothing wrong with her, and instead, she believed that my father and I were forcing her unjustly to take medications and go to mental hospitals. In addition, my father was in the middle of his own health journey when my mom’s health was at its worst, as he had been (and continues to be) battling cancer. This situation added more pain and stress to the already devastating circumstances.
I have never felt more helpless and frightened than I did at the end of my mom’s life; she was already gone before she physically passed, which is an indescribable pain. I kept telling myself that one day the medicine would work, the incidents would stop, and she would be my mother again, and it pains me every day that I was not able to make that happen.
I know my journey of grief is not over, and I will continue to struggle with it for the rest of my life. However, I want to focus on what gives me joy, which is improving education for those facing hardships.
Before my mom’s worsening health took over, she instilled in me the importance of education. Despite the financial hardships we faced, it was her goal to set me on a journey that would lead me to college, and therefore, she had me attend an enrichment academy for three summers that would ultimately lead me to attend Taft School, a private high school, on a scholarship. Taft set me on a trajectory of higher education, and I would not have gotten where I am today without my mom’s push and support. Throughout high school, I taught at that same enrichment program, and the last year, I was Assistant Director. My mom imprinted the power of education on me, and after attending and working at that program, I was certain that I wanted a career where I would support students in their academic pursuits, especially those who were facing challenges.
I am graduating with a double major in political science and education with a minor in Spanish this May from Tufts University, and I was accepted to the University of Pennsylvania to earn a Master’s degree in Education Policy. Throughout the last four years, I have been actively involved in jobs and opportunities associated with the field. I am in student government, where I have served on the Executive Board, Allocations Board, and the Education Committee with a focus on creating initiatives to support low-income students, and I am a student representative on the Tufts Education Policy Faculty Committee. I am also a devoted teacher, and have taught at Westover School and tutored through Tufts Literacy Corps. Furthermore, I was chosen to create/teach a new course here at Tufts on the effects of gender stereotyping. Lastly, in terms of research, I am completing a senior thesis discussing strategies Cambridge Public Schools can take to more efficiently utilize their resources to better support disadvantaged students in their district, and am doing a project on public opinion regarding mental health education.
Education has always been more than what I was learning in the classroom. It has served as a support system when I had no other, and as a tool that I could use to reach opportunities. I want to work toward ensuring educational institutions are able to give that type of support to all students.
Receiving financial support for my degree would be life-changing as money has always been a struggle for me and my family. Thank you in advance for your consideration.