Hardships seem like a word or an occurrence of an event that I am just wired to try to ignore. However, that is not something that could be done, as life is hard, and reality will hit no matter what. One hardship that I faced in my life was during quarantine, while I had my online classes, where all of my sports stopped, and I lost my determination to succeed.
When quarantine started, my school told us it was going to just be two weeks of vacation. A couple of months later, I started my junior year of high school online. In the summer before my junior year of high school, I was slacking off on everything. Where I had practice and school every day before, I was left with nothing but Netflix and my phone. During that school year, my focus was elsewhere, having to have the class in my room, with many distractions that I did not make any effort to avoid. Additionally, I did not try to work out to stay in shape for swimming. By the time quarantine ended, one of the things it drained from me was my ambition. Before, I was a very competitive person, and I would do anything to try to be the best version of myself and compete to win. I was a sporty person, but also, I studied hard. When I went back to society, those qualities decreased tremendously.
It took me a long time to get back into regular lifestyle. In my senior year of high school, I constantly felt the urge to be lazy and even though I got good grades in school, I felt that something was missing still. It was not until my freshman year of college, that I heard from a friend of mine on the swim team, whose story gave me a shock back to real reality. He mentioned how, taking swim as an example, the world record has been broken multiple times as soon as we came out of the pandemic. And I thought it was simply amazing; that determination, the drive, was what I lost, and what I wanted back. I realized that my swimming has not been its best shape, my studies have been barely mediocre, and I have been lazy when I told myself that I did not. So, I took the first step forward, better late than never, as I tell myself. With four STEM classes, I am also doing two club sports including another intramural one, with additional outdoor activities and a project-based engineering club. From what I've known, I have always been busy, and this would be the first step towards stopping laziness.
This rollercoaster of uncertainty has given me new lens to view the world around me, and I realize that I can take control of my life and drive it towards success. I needed to work hard if I wanted back what I was before: ambitious, determined, and my motivation towards success.