I can easily say that tackling nursing school with two young toddlers, and a deployed spouse has been far from easy. Most days I find myself wondering how I am going to overcome this. Every time I look at my children, I remember my why. I think about their future. I want to be able to give them the world. I want to show them that no matter what life throws at you, continue to pick yourself up and strive for your dreams. In 2016, I began my prerequisites for the nursing program and was successful in my courses. I had moved away from my family to be with my husband who is active duty military. After my second semester of college, and after receiving acceptance into a local community college nursing program, I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. I was only nineteen years old and knew that now my hopes and dreams were going to get put on the back burner for my child. In that moment, I had to trust that I was being called to be a mom first, not a nurse. I managed to finish my degree and graduated with my associate's in arts in 2018. She was my motivation through it all. After looking into nursing schools again, making a relocation to California because of the military, and getting pregnant again with my second child, I knew nursing school was off the table again. I felt defeated and could feel the disappointment from my family. I never gave up on myself and knew I would be where I am today. Now I am working towards my bachelor's in nursing while being a full-time mom. It is hard. There are so many nights where I want to stop studying to play with them more, but I do not have the choice. The hardest part is the guilt of leaving them to go to class or clinical. I pray they know I do it for them and for their future. I want to provide financial security, I want to pay for them to go to college one day, or pay for them to have a beautiful wedding and lots of vacations. I want to give them a life full of happy memories. I will continue to show up for them, even if it's hard.