I believe that prospering with a purpose and a passion embodies one of my eight attributes of Black Excellence. From my perspective, which is rooted in my encounters with failure and rejection, paired with the realities of being a Black woman, the philosophy of counseling is mending the broken pieces of ourselves through the support of a professional counselor or activity that serves as a form of healing. I aspire to be a counselor who allows others to be unique without judgment or fear. I aspire to reach this milestone by receiving my master's degree in clinical and mental health counseling at the graduate level. Through counseling, we can slowly pick up the broken pieces of our lives and put them back together to create our whole again. Different forms of counseling, such as art, music, creative writing, or dance, can also aid in softening the soul of an individual. Access to counseling and therapy services is critical for the development and growth of our youth. Their emotional, mental, social, and psychological well-being must be nurtured and cared for, protected, and uplifted by counselors. It is up to our lawmakers and agencies to provide access to mental health resources within Black and brown communities that are affordable and of quality care. Having these resources at a young age can completely change the course and trajectory of one's life in a positive light.
A form of counseling that became my source of healing was dance and movement, specifically after the devastating passing of my grandmother, leaving me filled with confusion, anger, and sadness toward myself, my family, and the world. While attempting to navigate my grief, movement slowly began to put the broken pieces of my life back together. By allowing myself to dance what I could not verbalize, I found how dance permits us to express the emotions that bubble inside our chest and spirit. Three years later, I have found harmony in knowing my grandmother lives inside of me, and I have chosen dance as my tool for honoring and remembering her life. I aspire to be a counselor who allows others to be unique without judgment or fear.
For most of my upbringing, I have been all too familiar with self-doubt, imposter syndrome, and general anxiety. These parasites lived with me; I wore them every day like they were my skin. At every corner, I was pummeled by rejection, failure, and hearing that I was not good enough inside classrooms, auditions, and even within my household. As a result, negative thinking and feelings of inadequacy became home for me. They have had a stronghold on my life to the point where I could not operate without them. I had felt knocked down by my circumstances and did not plan on getting up any time soon. When the world paused in 2020, I finally decided it was time to get up and find the light in life again. Somehow, the art form that was generating much of my feelings of inadequacy was the art form that saved my life. Again, I utilized dance as a healing practice to experience life as I once did as a little girl.
This period taught me how movement, journaling, prayer, and meditation could be my remedy and medicine for life's joy. I had felt comfortable being afraid, stressed, and constantly worried about the next minute of my day until those minutes transferred into hours and eventually turned into years. I learned to give life another chance through my therapist's guidance and personal remedies. Every morning, I am given a chance to resort to my old ways of thinking, believing in the negative self-talk and self-doubt that constantly swirled in my mind or choosing to have faith in the life ahead of me. Because I can stand again, I am devoted to helping others give life a second chance through movement, storytelling, and other forms of creative expression in spaces designed for them. Moving forward, I would like to continue taking calculated risks throughout my future to help build confidence and self-esteem and overcome fears of hearing "no."
Over the Summer, I received the opportunity to organize and facilitate group outreach courses rooted in the foundations of dance and movement therapy. We told stories about ourselves, our emotions, and past experiences through movements that could only be communicated through the body. I was mesmerized by the stories we established using our most intricate tools, the human body and spirit. This tool is the magic of being a dance and movement therapist. There is magic in supporting, guiding, and holding space for others who are on a journey of self-exploration. Their smiles, lit-up faces, willingness to be vulnerable and unique storytelling moved my spirit to become a dance and movement therapist.