Did I wear the correct uniform? Did I bring my ID card? Is my hair well-presented?
The sound of heels clicking drew closer. My legs had started cramping, but as the teacher got near, she made strong eye contact with me. I met her gaze. Her eyeballs slowly went down, then up, and she said, “okay.” The deep breath I was holding in escaped me after hearing just that one word. I was relieved knowing that I didn't have to go back home or get scolded by a teacher. I waited quietly until my line could head to our first class of the day. It was another day of school in Nepal. I was 8 years old.
Later in class, I accidentally pulled my friend's braided hair. As I was done with all my work, I helped her re-braid her hair. The dean walked in and saw me braiding instead of working. He walked across the room, and slapped me across the face. My ears rang as I slowly sat back down. My tears wet the workbook and smudged the writing on the pages.
Going to school in Nepal, I got to experience the strict academic environment and the ruthless society there. Everything changed when I moved to America in 4th grade: the food, dress codes, teachers and their behaviors, and especially the "punishments."
In America, I never had bruised hands from getting hit in my palms when I got an answer wrong. In fact, the teacher explained it to me 3 times until I understood. Scars that I carried from Nepal had faded here.
I frequently draw parallels between my life here and in Nepal. There are so many differences that I hadn't anticipated or even considered. Here I could wear whatever I wanted. I could do my hair however I wanted. I could paint my nails or even put one of those temporary tattoos, if I wanted. Here I'd have the chance to prioritize my education rather than my looks and "disciplines." I once used to dream of doing these things, but the fact that I was able to now was astonishing for me.
That braiding anecdote runs through my thoughts every time I'm asked if I prefer schools here or back home. My response is always, “I think I prefer it here.” The freedom I've been given here offers me along with many opportunities. Here, you don't get hurt for being wrong, you are built up to become better.
Now, every night, pages flip in my journal as I write to thank God for the chances and the choices I have received knowing that I wouldn’t have it in Nepal. This not only allowed me to better acknowledge the opportunities I now have in front of me, but it also opened my eyes toward the value of education. I could now take the experiences from the past, and move on toward a more gratitude-filled future.
With this gratitude, I'm happy that I have the opportunity to further continue my education. My parents have given up everything merely for the benefit of my better future and education. I currently have a 4.5 weighted GPA, am a part of the top 10% of my class, am the Vice President of tutoring services and taking college level classes in high school. I have done everything that I, as a student, could possibly do in the past 4 years to make my parents proud and that will continue to be my main motivation to chase after success in college as well.
To me, getting a college education means exploring and learning further into your interest. I think it's an amazing opportunity (also an expensive one) to grow into adulthood while gaining more knowledge in one's interested area. Prior to starting college there are countless steps you are required to take as well: application essays, financial aid, college visits, etc. As a first generation going to college, I didn't receive as much help from family as I would have wanted, however, it was adventurous journey and I'm proud of having earned the ability to help my brother with numerous steps henceforth. This has mainly led me to realize the stronger independent woman I'm forming into.
I'm extremely grateful for the opportunity to further continue my education, however affordability is my biggest worry at the moment. Therefore, other than excessively searching and applying for scholarships, my typical day after-school consists of tutoring students from all grade-levels. I’m the Vice-President of the EHK tutoring fundraiser where we select qualified high-school students to tutor other students from grades K-12 in any subject. I've been involved since my freshman year and it has been such an honor to be able to give back to our community. All the collected money is donated to a variety of causes: fundraisers for Afghanistan refugees, covid relief, families in need, bus driver appreciation, food for the homeless, and gifts/school supplies for kids who need it. Through EHK I have felt the warmth and fulfillness after giving to others and encourages me to continue these acts.
Throughout my years of high-school, I have always been curious student. Well, that's kind of a lie. I haven't always had a curious mind. I have, however, wanted to be more curious about things and am working toward it. I like the mental process that I go through when a question appears in my thoughts and I've to go outside of my comfort zone to answer that question, such as asking a stranger, or spending hours researching something. I have realized, through several mentors from YouTube, that curiosity opens doors to new ideas, inventions, and knowledge. Therefore, in my junior/senior year I've willfully spent more time searching for educational content on social media, since that is where I spent most of my time. I started watching videos about investing in stocks and real estates during the time we had online school because my parents often brought the topic and I wanted to learn as well.