I love pink! Pink is more than just my favorite color, rather it is a symbol of my femininity, identity, and the rediscovery of my voice. My upbringing in Levittown, Pennsylvania, was the start of my journey. As a child, everything I owned was pink; however as I grew up I started to lose myself, changing my favorite color to blue. In Levittown, a ‘woman’s role’ is to stay home and ignore your dreams; however, I have never been interested in this. As I sat in my childhood bedroom with hot pink walls and Barbie dolls covering the floor I wondered, “If women are not meant to have a career, then why do I want one so badly?” I was perplexed with how it was possible to love traditionally feminine things, but not want to live a traditionally feminine life. This fueled my curiosity about the world beyond Levittown furthering my love of pink, and my desire to redefine the boundaries of my femininity.
As a young girl I was fueled by challenges, differing opinions, and speaking my mind, allowing my love of pink to prosper. However, as a teenager in the middle of my parents’ divorce, my father was determined to win the war he created. My father used the legal system to make me collateral damage in his emotional, mental, and financial warfare. I felt alone and unheard, making it hard to advocate for myself. I lost myself, I stopped speaking up, and I finally understood what it was like to be a Levittown woman. Suddenly the pink obsessed girl I used to be, began to like blue. As my love for blue prospered, my mother’s divorce attorney demonstrated that women are capable of speaking up too. I was impressed when I saw how she navigated difficult situations and resolved conflict in the way that I wanted to, but could not seem to figure out. She was a reminder of who I was when I liked pink, I missed it. Although my walls were painted blue, her vibrancy inspired me to ask questions about my parent’s divorce process, what different aspects meant, and how it impacted me. From that point forward, I knew I was going to be an attorney because that would give me the opportunity to be a voice for others who could not find their own. The law was the first step to rediscovering my passion for pink and power that is inside me.
My environmental advocacy work in college taught me to see my femininity as a source of empowerment and to love pink again. My first job at the University of Pittsburgh as an EcoRep, working to advance sustainability in Pitt’s residence halls, was where I rediscovered myself. This role required me to make myself heard and engage in constructive challenge; allowing me to emerge as an influential advocate at Pitt. This was the first time I felt like myself and started to like pink again. As I continued to pursue sustainability advocacy, I found myself getting more comfortable speaking up, just as I did as a young girl. Sustainability helped me reconnect with my authentic self, who loves pink and loves to speak her mind. Now as the Managing Director of the Student Office of Sustainability, I continue to provide a platform for student concerns. I am a key factor in the creation of new policies alongside influential university leadership; amplifying students’ voices when they are usually not included. Environmentalism reconnected me with the young girl with hot pink walls, and has created my mission to foster accessible and inclusive spaces for people to be heard, because I understand how it feels to not be.
I will continue this mission as an attorney, making the law and the systems that construct our lives more accessible. The ability to interpret the law is an immense power and privilege, one that can be easily used to others’ detriment. The world needs people-centered lawyers who are not afraid to speak up, when change needs to happen. My experiences and struggles have taught me that I need to be the change that I want to see in the world. I have reconnected my younger self, I am asking questions, speaking up, and love pink!