I was raised in a Christian household, but I never understood the magnitude of God. That was true until a few years ago, after my parent's divorce.
The split of my parents rendered me as angry and emotional, and I became the "problem child" to my elementary teachers. I had trouble making friends and avoided
sports in middle school, because I was afraid of judgment. Eventually, I ended up spending my time with a group of people who picked on me because I was Christian. I didn't know anyone else, so I stayed with this clique. For a while, I lived in a lukewarm version of Christianity, which worsened when my church was shutdown due to Covid.
However, when I started freshman year of high school, I felt a strange "pull" to leave my friend group. At first, I shrugged it off, not wanting to take the risk of having no friends. But as l hit my second semester, it was difficult to ignore. I realized this was a message from God to move on and start a new chapter with different people. So I finally started distancing myself from the group, and was soon free of it. I started making friends that truly cared about me, and I knew that God was calling me back to trust in him, and not my own solutions.
Sophomore year, cheerleading caught my eye. After trying out, I received word I had gotten into junior varsity, and I loved the sport. But I still felt isolated from the other cheerleaders, and lots of drama was being passed around, to the point where my coach had to switch some of the girls in our stunt groups. The tension in the team took a toll on my enjoyment of the sport, and I began to dread going to practice. The winter season ended around February, and I felt the weight lift off my shoulders. I turned to Christ frequently throughout cheer because of the social stress. It was another trial to make me dependent on the Lord, rather than attempting to work through something difficult on my own.
With junior year came another season of cheer, and I was excited to try out. Again, I had the urge to only try for varsity, not including junior varsity, in case I didn't make the prior. I originally planned to try out for both, but I decided to follow my gut and only apply for varsity. I was heartbroken to find I didn't make it. Upset and angry, I prayed constantly, asking for a mistake to be found in my score or a change in my coach's mind. After some time, I heard that the drama was worse, and the team was suffering, because most varsity members left due to the the poor attitude in the group. God's rejection of my own plan saved me from more stress later on.
The trials of my parent's divorce, friends, cheerleading, and rejection proved that God was in control of my life, and that I shouldn't rely on my own plan. Today, I apply this faith to my own life, trusting in Him despite fear of new situations. Because of my newfound trust, I have the courage to enter new opportunities and seize my future.
I want to become a chemist to understand God's world and utilize it for humanity. I'm applying to colleges, and I know that whichever one God points me to will take me down the right path. In my career, I'm confident God will secure it and allow me to better the world through science.