I have a youtube channel where I speak a lot about social issues that pertain to me - most notably, racism (although that isn't the only thing I talk about, it's the majority of what I talk about). Because I'm black and I talk about racism, a lot of black people subscribe to me and feel like my page is a safe space.
There's an issue, though - like a lot of ethnicities, black people tend to be extremely homophobic, transphobic, and anti LGBTQ in general.
Even though I'm cisgender and heterosexual and my youtube channel is mostly about things I experience (racism, misogyny, colorism, etc), I do want my channel to be a space where ALL black people feel welcome. I understand what it feels like to not really feel like you belong in what SHOULD be your own community (for example, sometimes I feel alienated from the black community because of the fact that colorism is a huge issue within our community). Because of that, I make sure to make it clear that my channel is inclusive to ALL black people regardless of sexual orientation, gender identity, etc.
I make videos about LGBTQ+ issues on a semi regular basis and the most recent example of this was my pride video for the month of June - I spoke about how a lot of black people have intersecting identities and because of that, we don't feel 100% comfortable within the black community. The black community is only a safe space from racism - it's still rife with colorism, misogyny, homophobia, transphobia, etc.
The video got about the same reaction as most of my videos - it was about a 50/50 split. Half of the comments were supporting it (because some of my subscribers are LGBTQ black people who know I'll defend them) and half of the comments were bigoted.
As for how it impacted me, it's hurtful to see how my community treats people who we should view as our brothers and sisters like dirt. It's hurtful to know that a lot of people don't feel safe even in a space that should be a safe space for all black people.
It also makes me worry. How are we ever going to dismantle white supremacy if we can't come together and love everyone within our own communities? United we stand, divided we fall, right?
And then it makes me think... what happens if we DO ever dismantle white supremacy?
The fact of the matter is, most people only want to dismantle the oppressive systems that don't benefit them. So all black people can agree that we need to dismantle racism but a lot of black people are cool with leaving colorism, homophobia, etc in place.
So a lot of people don't want to end oppression... they just want to become the new oppressor. And this makes me wonder what will happen after white supremacy has been dismantled? Do some black people expect to take the throne as the new oppressor and use things like homophobia and transphobia to oppress other black people? At what point are we going to acknowledge that issue because if all we have waiting for us at the end of white supremacy is more oppression based on other things then what's even the point?