As a survivor of online and in person bullying, I found myself in court as a "victim". It was stressful to see those that had done so much damage in front of me. Only one of the three conveyed any type of apology or emotion. The prosecutor even called one defendant a sociopath for lack of empathy, sympathy and an emotion during the whole hearing. The other he claimed was just a self absorbed teenager. This has stuck with me; I never got an explanation as to why I was targeted by people who had been my best friends for a few years. This ate at me I couldn't understand why they couldn't just tell me why. The Magistrate was kind told me I may never know because even the defendants don't know why they did it. Respectfully, I did not quite care for than answer. My goal is to become a Criminal Psychologist to dive deeper into the mind of the juvenile criminal. I want to find answers, I want to work with those who are starting to show these sociopathic tendencies to better themselves and become contributing members of society. Most importantly to keep them from ending up in court not able to answer why they chose to commit a crime. Thank you for your consideration.

I was always a happy, outgoing, friendly, an all-around accepting person. In eighth grade as people changed and were growing finding themselves, I began getting bullied by kids for my looks, red hair and not the thinnest girl in class it was then I started to struggle with my mental health and began cutting. My mom saw my struggles and immediately got me into therapy and a psychiatrist. Through therapy, I have learned to accept the fact that the world won't always be the happiest place. But if I keep pushing and looking forward then I believe, I will succeed in life. Not to mention I hadn't cut in 3 years. Who knew the worst year was yet to come? The years 2020 and 2021 were not the best years for many people. The pandemic arrived we began to start learning virtually, then hybrid, then back to all virtual. My grades slipped as teachers would just dump work onto the students but had yet to even teach us what we were supposed to turn in. It was hard for everyone. We are now all in person, it's my senior year, it has been very tough. During the pandemic I had gotten cyberbullied by people I used to call friends. It seemed easier for people to cyberbully because for a year everything was computer based. It was brutal and caused me to spiral a bit mentally changing medications and adding more therapy when we were working to decrease it. I had a situation where I just wanted to give up on life itself. I never thought anything could ever happen to me. Friends of mine had taken part in sending graphic pictures of me when I was 14 years old to other students and on social media. I was 17 and had no idea until I was threatened by them to expose me, it was hard. I felt like there was a 1000 lb. weight on my chest. I went to my mom who supported me tremendously, then to the school. With the help our resource officer the three individuals were caught. I ended up in court not once but three times for each individual defendant. I had to face them all it took everything in me to speak, I was shaking and choking down tears these three people were once my best friends. I did it. I faced my tormentor's and they saw the consequences to their actions which should have given me some relief, but I still had questions. None would tell me why they did this to me, I didn't do anything to them hadn't even seen or spoke to any of them for months, I just needed to know why and to this day I never will know. That day in court one of the three stuck out, while her parents cried and spoke, she had absolutely no emotion, no empathy, not at all apologetics, the prosecutor called her a sociopath. I must deal with two of the three at school and around town. I can not say that I don’t struggle daily although the help of my family especially my mom who has been through all of this with me and struggles as well. But I work daily to better myself and try to help those that need it. My goal is to become a Criminal Psychologist to dive deeper into the psyche of the juvenile criminal. I want to find answers, I want to work with minors who are starting to show these sociopathic tendencies to better themselves and become contributing members of society.

Before my eighth-grade year I was always a happy, outgoing, friendly, an all-around accepting person. In eighth grade as people changed and were growing finding themselves, I began getting bullied by kids for my looks, red hair and not the thinnest girl in class it was then I started to struggle with my mental health and began cutting. My mom saw my struggles and immediately got me into therapy and a psychiatrist. Through therapy, I have learned to accept the fact that the world won't always be the happiest place. But if I keep pushing and looking forward then I believe, I will succeed in life. Not to mention I hadn't cut in 3 years. Who knew the worst year was yet to come? The years 2020 and 2021 were not the best years for many people. The pandemic arrived we began to start learning virtually, then hybrid, then back to all virtual. My grades slipped as teachers would just dump work onto the students but had yet to even teach us what we were supposed to turn in. It was hard for everyone. We are now all in person, it's my senior year, it has been very tough. During the pandemic I had gotten cyberbullied by people I used to call friends. It seemed easier for people to cyberbully because for a year everything was computer based. It was brutal and caused me to spiral a bit mentally changing medications and adding more therapy when we were working to decrease it. I had a situation where I just wanted to give up on life itself. I never thought that such a horrible situation could ever happen to me. Friends of mine had taken part in sending graphic pictures of me when I was 14 years old to other students and on social media. I was 17 and had no idea until I was threatened by them to expose me, it was hard. I felt like there was a 1000 lb. weight on my chest. I went to my mom who supported me tremendously, then to the school. With the help our resource officer the three individuals were caught. I ended up in court not once but three times for each individual defendant. I had to face them all it took everything in me to speak, I was shaking and choking down tears these three people were once my best friends. I did it. I faced my tormentor's and they saw the consequences to their actions which should have given me some relief, but I still had questions. None of these individuals would tell me why they did this to me, I didn't do anything to them hadn't even seen or spoke to any of them for months, I just needed to know why and to this day I never will know. That day in court one of the three stuck out, while her parents cried and spoke, she had absolutely no emotion, no empathy, not at all apologetics, the prosecutor called her a sociopath. I must deal with two of the three at school and around town. I can not say that I don’t struggle daily although the help of my family especially my mom who has been through all of this with me and struggles as well. But I work daily to better myself and try to help those that need it. My goal is to become a Criminal Psychologist to dive deeper into the psyche of the juvenile criminal. I want to find answers, I want to work with minors who are starting to show these sociopathic tendencies to better themselves and become contributing members of society. Thank you for your consideration.

Before my eighth-grade year I was always a happy, outgoing, friendly, an all-around accepting person. In eighth grade as people changed and were growing finding themselves, I began getting bullied by kids for my looks, red hair and not the thinnest girl in class it was then I started to struggle with my mental health and began cutting. My mom saw my struggles and immediately got me into therapy and a psychiatrist. Through therapy, I have learned to accept the fact that the world won't always be the happiest place. But if I keep pushing and looking forward then I believe, I will succeed in life. Not to mention I hadn't cut in 3 years. Who knew the worst year was yet to come? The years 2020 and 2021 were not the best years for many people. The pandemic arrived we began to start learning virtually, then hybrid, then back to all virtual. My grades slipped as teachers would just dump work onto the students but had yet to even teach us what we were supposed to turn in. It was hard for everyone. We are now all in person, it's my senior year, it has been very tough. During the pandemic I had gotten cyberbullied by people I used to call friends. It seemed easier for people to cyberbully because for a year everything was computer based. It was brutal and caused me to spiral a bit mentally changing medications and adding more therapy when we were working to decrease it. I had a situation where I just wanted to give up on life itself. I never thought that such a horrible situation could ever happen to me. Friends of mine had taken part in sending graphic pictures of me when I was 14 years old to other students and on social media. I was 17 and had no idea until I was threatened by them to expose me, it was hard. I felt like there was a 1000 lb. weight on my chest. I went to my Mom who supported me tremendously, then to the school. With the help our resource officer the three individuals were caught. I ended up in court not once but three times for each individual. I had to face them all it took everything in me to speak, I was shaking and choking down tears these three people were once my best friends. I did it. I faced my tormentor's and they saw the consequences to their actions which should have given me some relief, but I still had questions. None of these individuals would tell me why they did this to me, I didn't do anything to them hadn't even seen or spoke to any of them for months, I just needed to know why and to this day I never will know. That day in court one of the three stuck out, while her parents cried and spoke, she had absolutely no emotion, no empathy, not at all apologetics, the prosecutor called her a sociopath. I must deal with two of the three at school and around town. I can not say that I do not struggle daily , I do, but I chose to help others and myself but talking about it, not hiding from it. My goal is to become a Criminal Psychologist to dive deeper into the psyche of the juvenile criminal. I want to find answers, I want to work with minors who are starting to show these sociopathic tendencies to better themselves and become contributing members of society. Thank you for your consideration.

Before my eighth-grade year I was always a happy, outgoing, friendly, an all-around accepting person. In eighth grade as people changed and were growing finding themselves, I began getting bullied by kids for my looks, red hair and not the thinnest girl in class it was then I started to struggle with my mental health and began cutting. My mom saw my struggles and immediately got me into therapy and a psychiatrist. Through therapy, I have learned to accept the fact that the world won't always be the happiest place. But if I keep pushing and looking forward then I believe, I will succeed in life. Not to mention I hadn't cut in 3 years. Who knew the worst year was yet to come? The years 2020 and 2021 were not the best years for many people. The pandemic arrived we began to start learning virtually, then hybrid, then back to all virtual. My grades slipped as teachers would just dump work onto the students but had yet to even teach us what we were supposed to turn in. It was hard for everyone. We are now all in person, it's my senior year, it has been very tough. During the pandemic I had gotten cyberbullied by people I used to call friends. It seemed easier for people to cyberbully because for a year everything was computer based. It was brutal and caused me to spiral a bit mentally changing medications and adding more therapy when we were working to decrease it. I had a situation where I just wanted to give up on life itself. I never thought that such a horrible situation could ever happen to me. Friends of mine had taken part in sending graphic pictures of me when I was 14 years old to other students and on social media. I was 17 and had no idea until I was threatened by them to expose me, it was hard. I felt like there was a 1000 lb. weight on my chest. I went to my Mom who supported me tremendously, then to the school. With the help our resource officer the three individuals were caught. I ended up in court not once but three times for each individual. I had to face them all it took everything in me to speak, I was shaking and choking down tears these three people were once my best friends. I did it. I faced my tormentor's and they saw the consequences to their actions which should have given me some relief, but I still had questions. None of these individuals would tell me why they did this to me, I didn't do anything to them hadn't even seen or spoke to any of them for months, I just needed to know why and to this day I never will know. That day in court one of the three stuck out, while her parents cried and spoke, she had absolutely no emotion, no empathy, not at all apologetics, the prosecutor called her a sociopath. I must deal with two of the three at school and around town. I can't say that I do not struggle daily I do, with the help of my family, especially my mom who has been there every step of the way and herself lived through it, I am growing and determined to better myself and help others. My goal is to become a Criminal Psychologist to dive deeper into the psyche of the juvenile criminal. I want to find answers, I want to work with minors who are starting to show these sociopathic tendencies to better themselves and become contributing members of society. Thank you for your consideration.

Before my eighth-grade year I was always a happy, outgoing, friendly, an all-around accepting person. In eighth grade as people changed and were growing finding themselves, I began getting bullied by kids for my looks, red hair and not the thinnest girl in class it was then I started to struggle with my mental health and began cutting. My mom saw my struggles and immediately got me into therapy and a psychiatrist. Through therapy, I have learned to accept the fact that the world won't always be the happiest place. But if I keep pushing and looking forward then I believe, I will succeed in life. Not to mention I hadn't cut in 3 years. Who knew the worst year was yet to come? The years 2020 and 2021 were not the best years for many people. The pandemic arrived we began to start learning virtually, then hybrid, then back to all virtual. My grades slipped as teachers would just dump work onto the students but had yet to even teach us what we were supposed to turn in. It was hard for everyone. We are now all in person, it's my senior year, it has been very tough. During the pandemic I had gotten cyberbullied by people I used to call friends. It seemed easier for people to cyberbully because for a year everything was computer based. It was brutal and caused me to spiral a bit mentally changing medications and adding more therapy when we were working to decrease it. I had a situation where I just wanted to give up on life itself. I never thought that such a horrible situation could ever happen to me. Friends of mine had taken part in sending graphic pictures of me when I was 14 years old to other students and on social media. I was 17 and had no idea until I was threatened by them to expose me, it was hard. I felt like there was a 1000 lb. weight on my chest. I went to my Mom who supported me tremendously, then to the school. With the help our resource officer the three individuals were caught. I ended up in court not once but three times for each individual. I had to face them all it took everything in me to speak, I was shaking and choking down tears these three people were once my best friends. I did it. I faced my tormentor's and they saw the consequences to their actions which should have given me some relief, but I still had questions. None of these individuals would tell me why they did this to me, I didn't do anything to them hadn't even seen or spoke to any of them for months, I just needed to know why and to this day I never will know. That day in court one of the three stuck out, while her parents cried and spoke, she had absolutely no emotion, no empathy, not at all apologetics, the prosecutor called her a sociopath. I must deal with two of the three at school and around town. My goal is to become a Criminal Psychologist to dive deeper into the psyche of the juvenile criminal. I want to find answers, I want to work with minors who are starting to show these sociopathic tendencies to better themselves and become contributing members of society. Thank you for your consideration.

20/21 to the present has been a rollercoaster. Covid-19 hit and we had to start learning online, then hybrid, then back to all virtual. We are now all in person my senior year but it has been so tough. Growing up I was always a happy, outgoing, kind, just accepting person. I have always struggled growing up. I had been getting bullied by kids for my weight and my hair color and struggling with mental health. I have learned to accept the fact that the world won't always be the happiest place. But if I keep pushing and looking forward then I believe I will succeed in my accomplishments. My turning point: early 2021, my world crashed around me. I had a situation where I just wanted to give up on life itself. I never thought that such a horrible situation could ever happen to me. Friends of mine had taken part in sending graphic pictures of me when I was 14 to other students and on social media. I was 17 and had no idea until I was threatened by them to expose me, it was really hard. I felt like there was a 1000 lb weight on my chest. I went to my Mom who supported me then to the school. We all ended up in court I had to face them all. It took everything I had in me to even complete a victim's statement with all I had in me I did it. I faced my tormentor's and they saw the consequences to their actions. I want to become a Criminal Psychologist. I would like to talk to children and teenagers to understand the crimes they have committed, why they did it while figuring out if it is trauma related or neurological.

20/21 to the present has been a rollercoaster. Covid-19 hit and we had to start learning online, then hybrid, then back to all virtual. We are now all in person my senior year but it has been so tough. Growing up I was always a happy, outgoing, kind, just accepting person. I have always struggled growing up. I had been getting bullied by kids for my weight and my hair color and struggling with mental health. I have learned to accept the fact that the world won't always be the happiest place. But if I keep pushing and looking forward then I believe I will succeed in my accomplishments. My turning point: early 2021, my world crashed around me. I had a situation where I just wanted to give up on life itself. I never thought that such a horrible situation could ever happen to me. Friends of mine had taken part in sending graphic pictures of me when I was 14 to other students and on social media. I was 17 and had no idea until I was threatened by them to expose me, it was really hard. I felt like there was a 1000 lb weight on my chest. I went to my Mom who supported me then to the school. We all ended up in court I had to face them all. It took everything I had in me to even complete a victim's statement with all I had in me I did it. I faced my tormentor's and they saw the consequences to their actions. I want to become a Criminal Psychologist. I would like to talk to children and teenagers to understand the crimes they have committed, why they did it while figuring out if it is trauma related or neurological.

2020 to the present has been a rollercoaster. Covid-19 hit and we had to start learning online, then hybrid, then back to all virtual. We are now all in person my senior year but it has been so tough. Growing up I was always a happy, outgoing, kind, just accepting person. I have always struggled growing up. My parents divorced when I was 10, from a very young age I had been getting bullied by kids for my weight and my hair color and struggling with mental health. I have learned to accept the fact that the world won't always be the happiest place. But if I keep pushing and looking forward then I believe I will succeed in my accomplishments. High School has never been easy for me. Every year for some reason, someone always has to find a way to make life a little more difficult for me. Yes, it does bother me and I fall into my depression, But I always push through with therapy feeling stronger in the end. I feel like highschool was more than just a book learning experience for me, it was a life learning experience. I have struggled, gone through and just experienced a tremendous amount. I believe that I could help relate to others who go through the same. I plan on finishing high school and attending college to do just that. I want to study Criminology and Psychology. I want to become a Criminal Psychologist for children and teenagers. I would like to talk to the kids and help them through the crimes they have committed, why they did it while figuring out if it is trauma related or neurological.