Throughout my life, I’ve experienced a lot of loss. Loss of family members, loss of friends, loss of motivation, etc. When you experience loss, you become someone who makes having more than what you’ve lost a big goal of yours, at least in my case. A big moment in my life that created my strong desire to be more was when I was in middle school, and I experienced the death of my aunt. I was very close to her and valued her wisdom a lot as a child. I watched how my family crumbled under her passing. Her children became unrecognizable as they spiraled into a process of self-destruction. My grandparents were riddled with grief to the point they rarely left their rooms and if they did, they looked exhausted. Even my mother could barely function. She couldn’t talk about the situation without crying and took care of herself less. I wasn’t taking the news any better than the rest. However, during this time I was also being bullied at school which only made my depression worse. Almost every day my classmates would pick at or tease me about my height, my weight, my luck or lack of, my clothes which weren’t name brand, etc. My self-esteem was the worst it could have ever been, my mental health was basically nonexistent and worst of all I couldn’t figure out why. I couldn’t understand why I couldn’t be enough, why no matter what I went through, it just wasn’t enough for me to finally reach the end goal. If you met a person who’s hit rock bottom before, they’d tell you exactly what I would: it changes you. Through my depression and hardship, the only glimpse of hope I could gather was thinking about my future, praying that all that I’ve experienced at the moment would amount to something more.
To me, being more means being greater than who you were before. Being a means of wisdom, friendship, or guidance for someone else, but also means being someone that you are proud of. In my life, I’ve faced adversity in terms of my skin color, trauma, and demographic, but it only pushed me to make myself better and make connections to all my “flaws in society” as my strengths. I’ve worked diligently on my small business: creating business plans, participating in competitions, traveling throughout my high school through the guise of a pop-up shop and selling in person to other students, etc. Additionally, during my time as a student, I have taken many risks by taking honors courses, pursuing higher education at the famed University of Alabama, participating in extracurricular activities concerning my community, etc. I’ve received recognition for the work that I’ve done in my academic career including being named as a National African American Scholar by College Board. I’ve continued to feed into my academic progress more and more striving to become the best student I can. In the present day, I am now adjusting to my new life as a UA college student and am looking to participate in clubs, community events, business-lead initiatives, etc. My passion does not stop at my business or my academic career, it continues in the people I help and interact with. I will never stop striving to be more because there will never be a limit on how much more you can improve or become.
I've found great passion in being involved in mental health outreach. I previously designed and presented my invention of a Fashion Novel App that recognizes the effect of "enclothed cognition" which is the ability of the mind to make emotional connotations based on clothing, colors, aesthetics, etc. My idea was to create an app that utilized official mental health survey questions to determine the user's most likely mental health concern and generate a list of colors, types of clothing and others that could possibly mend their mental health and make it easier for them to get through the day by day. It has about the same use of suggesting products like a blue weighted blanket to someone with anxiety, or a green light jacket to someone with depression. The purpose of my project was to create a bridge between fashion and mental health because it has been proven that the types of clothes you wear can affect your mental state whether you have anxiety, depression, or even autism. I used a school-distributed app-building program known as code.org. I used the website to program and build the basis of my app despite the many limitations of its program. The results of my science project are that I completed the majority of my engineering goal and I also learned of the extensive work needed for coding and the limitations that certain coding programs have. If further research were to be implemented, then my project could be completed or even improved upon. Overall, the project was difficult but educational about the extensive work needed for coding and the limitations that are in certain coding programs.
I hope that once I gather the necessary knowledge I can revisit the idea and work to create a new and creative idea to help those who have suffered in the same way many, including myself, have for a long time.