I am engulfed in a sea of energetic freshmen. To be a senior and the most nervous person in the room feels wrong. I watch Mr. Brown begin the class by asking everyone how they felt about last night’s reading: the short story “Why I Learned To Cook.” As the responses flood in, my mind runs wild with thoughts about what’s to come in the following minutes. How do I grab the attention of 23 kids? Where’s the best place to stand? Will my lesson about schema entice them? Will I slip up?
I begin to recover as a sense of belonging returns. I remember my junior year when I applied to the SILC (Senior Instructional Leadership Corps) program, I knew that I wanted to work alongside Mr. Brown, my freshman English teacher, whose calm demeanor and humorous attitude inspired me to pursue a career in education. I didn’t expect challenges to come with the position, considering I had been a teacher all my life. Whether it be teaching my elementary school peers about new words, teaching my siblings how to do their math homework, or training new employees at Domino’s, my role as mentor stayed constant through the years. What I loved more than anything was teaching stories. The world of fiction had always captivated me, and I was fascinated by its endlessly diverse characters.
In first grade, I picked up The Lightning Thief and was amazed by the adventures, vast mythology, and the hero Percy Jackson. I looked up to him throughout all of elementary school. I was a mixed-race 6-year-old who needed to make Mom proud and who needed to pack his plastic grocery bags biweekly with two days’ worth of clothes to have something at Dad’s. Percy always saved his friends and made his mom proud, all at a young age. He was practically mixed-race as a demigod with Poseidon as his father, a man he rarely saw.
As I return to reality, I hope that the kids connected with the reading from last night as I did with Percy Jackson all those years ago. In preparing for my lesson today, I had asked myself how I could tap into the freshmen’s schema, connecting their background knowledge with the new story. “Why I Learned To Cook,” a short story about an Iranian-American girl who introduces her girlfriend to her grandma for the first time, has several points of personal connection for students, from learning more about their cultural background to navigating romantic relationships. As my eyes wander across the room, the glaring individuality of each freshman strikes me.
I stand up from my desk with a smile and trembling hands and walk over to the front of the room where Mr. Brown stands. He pats me on the back and leaves me to the sharks.
“Alright, let’s get started!” I begin, “Today we’ll talk about schema and how it influences how we understand stories. Firstly, what’s the word that comes to mind when we think about the protagonist, Yasaman?”
I look over the array of silent freshmen and notice a single hand raised high, then another, and another! A smile grows on my face as I realize the ball is rolling. With a fresh blue Expo marker in hand, I write each word on the whiteboard, trying to keep up with the ceaseless responses to my question. The heat in my chest and the aimless thoughts subside when I see my students’ eyes light up as they grasp the concept. Eventually, I sit down and look up to Mr. Brown. He looks at me with a wide smile.