Mental health has shaped who I am, and how I show up for the world. After the COVID-19 lockdown, my anxiety became so severe that even walking into school felt impossible. Alongside anxiety, I also struggled with periods of depression, feeling weighed down and unsure of how to move forward. Each day required patience, resilience, and self-reflection, but therapy and support helped me learn to understand my anxiety and depression instead of hiding from it. I began learning coping strategies, challenging myself to step outside my comfort zone, and finding my voice again. These experiences pushed me to grow, both academically and personally, and gave me deep empathy for others who struggle in silence.
Writing has been one of my most important tools throughout this journey. When I write in a diary or journal, I am able to put all my thoughts and worries onto paper, which allows me to live more fully in the present moment. Writing has helped me organize my emotions, process difficult experiences, and reflect on my personal growth. Revisiting old entries is also meaningful because it allows me to see how far I have come and provides a sense of nostalgia, preserving moments and emotions that shaped who I am today. Beyond journaling, I enjoy creative writing and poetry because they allow me to explore imagination while remaining grounded in real experiences. Stories give me the opportunity to step outside my own life, yet there is always a part of me reflected in the characters, emotions, or themes. Poetry, in particular resonates with me because, like music, it relies on rhythm and emotion rather than a strict structure, giving me space to let feelings flow freely.
Music has been another powerful outlet in my journey with mental health. Singing, or simply listening to music helps me express emotions I sometimes cannot put into words. It offers a sense of comfort, focus, and release, and it has been particularly helpful during moments of intense anxiety or depression. Music provides a way to be present, process emotions, and connect with others, making it an essential part of my recovery and personal growth.
Through these experiences, I have learned resilience, self-awareness, and the importance of support systems. I have remained committed to my education despite challenges with mental health, maintaining strong academic performance and exploring personal interests such as writing, music, and community service. Volunteering with Jewish Family and Children's Services, participating in mental health awareness events, and supporting peers has reinforced my belief that helping others emotionally is as important as meeting their physical needs.
Looking forward, I plan to continue managing my recovery by maintaining therapy, using creative outlets like writing and music, and staying connected to supportive communities. I have learned that recovery is an ongoing process, and building habits that prioritize mental and emotional well-being is essential for long-term health. I also hope to use my experiences to help others, especially children and teens, navigate their own mental health struggles. My goal is to pursue a career in psychology, specifically as a child therapist, so that I can provide the same compassion, tools, and guidance that helped me along my journey.
Ultimately, my experiences with anxiety, depression, and personal growth have prepared me to face the challenges of higher education and life beyond. By combining academic focus, creative expression, and a commitment to mental health, I aim to continue learning, healing, and supporting others. Writing, music, and service have not only helped me manage my recovery, but they have also shaped my purpose and will remain central to how I live, learn, and give back to my community.