As a young child, I was diagnosed with ADHD, OCD, and several types of anxiety, including specific phobias, separation and social anxiety. These conditions are largely invisible, lurking in the shadows, ready to jump out in moments of weakness. Every time I think I have overcome one of these challenges, and become complacent about taking care of myself, I am hit with an overwhelming reminder of why it is so important to prioritize my mental health. I have seen this time and time again. Anxiety doesn't strike when everything is going well - it attacks when I am already weak from a lack of self-care.
My family has a history of mental health challenges. Close family members have long struggled with anxiety and depression. Other extended family members battle addictions, bipolar disorder, and thoughts of suicide. Within this atmosphere, I learned the importance of taking care of my mental health. I know that I am more susceptible to these mental health challenges because of my family history with these conditions. This knowledge makes me more determined to prioritize my mental wellness. I do not want to fall into the trap of addiction or depression. I have witnessed firsthand the crushing impact of these conditions, not just on individuals, but also on their relationships, and prospects for the rest of their lives. I do not want to live that way. I want to end the vicious cycle. This determination fuels me to persevere in maintaining my mental health, in spite of challenges.
I am constantly seeking to bring balance into my life, through time for reflection, journaling, exercise, healthy habits, socializing, and doing things that I enjoy, even while busy with college, a job, and many other pressing worries. Taking time for self care - doing a relaxing art project, taking a long, hot shower, walking my dog, or spending time with a friend - these are the things that keep me sane and give me the strength to combat the other challenges in my life. I know that it is important to do the things that bring me joy so that I can find balance and peace with my mental health.
The biggest lesson I have learned from my own mental health conditions and the mental health challenges of my close family members is the importance of getting help. Anxiety and depression may seem insignificant to some people, because the terms are used to vaguely in our society. However, these and other mental health conditions are serious concerns. And there is absolutely no shame in needing help. Seeking help shows courage, and demonstrates that you prioritize your mental health more than the potential judgement of others. I have seen a counselor off-and-on for most of my life. I take medication to help manage my ADHD. Although I was reluctant to try medication at first, I am so glad I tried. It has made a world of difference, making it easier for me to function on a daily basis. I realized that the benefits of the medication outweighed the fears I had about being judged for not being able to manage my conditions on my own.
I now make it a priority to speak up about my mental health challenges, sharing my story to inspire others to get help. I work in aftercare at a public elementary school, where I daily encounter kids who, like me, struggle with learning disabilities and mental health challenges like ADHD and anxiety. So many of these kids come from families that do not understand the validity of these challenges, or see them as real concerns. With my personal experience of mental health challenges and the challenges I have witnessed in my family, I cannot ignore these situations. I stand up against bullying, taking time to discuss the extra challenges these kids face so that other children can grow in empathy. I have disclosed my own struggles both to co-workers and some of the children, helping create a culture where we can talk openly about mental health, and work together to create a positive, supportive environment for everyone. Furthermore, my mental health struggles have given me a wealth of knowledge and experience I can share with the kids I encounter every day. I am thankful that I now have the ability to help walk these kids through their anxieties and fears, or help them find strategies to navigate other conditions. My personal mental health journey has helped inspire me to pursue a career in Elementary Education, so I can create a positive, nurturing classroom environment where kids can learn how to be their best selves, and be accepted for who they are. I am also open about my mental health challenges among my peers. I want to create a culture around me where others can feel comfortable coming forward with their own challenges, so we can mutually help one another. I share my struggles, and my victories, with my peers. I discuss mental health strategies with my friends, and talk them through personal difficulties they are facing. I advocate for others, and even gave a speech to my community college class sharing my personal testimony and knowledge to increase awareness of invisible disabilities. I strive to destigmatize mental health conditions, showing others that an individual with mental health challenges can be successful, and can make a difference for others.
My mental health has been an uphill battle, but I am proud of how far I have come. A younger me would hardly recognize the girl who can now prioritize herself, and speak up for herself and others. In spite of the challenges, I am thankful for the opportunity which my mental health struggles have given me to grow in empathy and understanding for others. I will keep fighting, keep pursuing my education, and keep using my experience to help others. My invisible challenges are part of who I am, but they do not dictate my life; they make me stronger.