I want to be an educator so I can nurture children's personalities and tell them how amazing it is to follow your passion. I love devised theatre because there are no limits, the only limit is your own will. I draw people in because I love to make people feel heard, but I am hard to understand because I try to understand everyone. Throughout my childhood, I noticed how society has learned to thrive based on division. Division by race, opinion, age, gender, and so many other factors. When I began to study theatre, it made me realize what brought me the most joy; seeing people undivided.
When I began to work in productions, I noticed how the cooperative process of theatre made me feel comfortable and important. The technicians, actors, and directors all need each other for production. This is like how everyone on this earth brings something different to the table. What is different about society and theatrical companies, is that everyone in a company understands each person's role within the company.
Throughout history, we as Americans have struggled to reach understanding and have placed our preference on division. One way this division is ensured by the government is by using people's ethnic identities as general identities. America has placed so much importance on gender, race, and class identities that there is now practically a competition in our nation between people with different identities within these categories for currency. Different ethnic groups have advantages in this competition called privilege, however, this "competition" is not only a matter of privilege but also of making people believe if they work hard enough, then the competition will become easier. This is to say, if they work hard enough, they can climb the ladders of class. I believe that no human worth should be ita Some may say this would make me an "anti-maverick", but on the contrary, I find it more common nowadays to stumble across "every man for himself attitudes". Honestly, this worries me.
Although my views on how we as people should communicate are very certain about open communication and understanding, I have a hard time communicating and being understood in conversation. My personality is eager, I love to socialize when I can, I love anime and video games, and I love excitement. I try to be direct about my desires, but it always feels like I'm an alien communicating with humans who can't understand me. Most of my friends say I have a certain charismatic element about me, but charisma does not necessarily make you easy to understand.
Although my joys and ideas are simple, I believe this may be what makes them so complex. We as humans tend to overcomplicate things. When we do not understand something immediately, we create our theories or have our fears generated from these misunderstandings. Perhaps my personality is agreeable and lovely to be around, but simply difficult to view from other perspectives. In the past, I blamed being misunderstood on a possibly low intelligence, but I have always received good grades, performed well in seminars, and have been complimented on my intelligence. Now, I choose to focus on studying social situations with philosophical strategies.
In short, I understand I am not understood, but I still choose to understand others because I believe in societal understanding. Understand?