Music and my family are everything to me. I probably wouldn't be here if it wasn't for them. I'm going to college to become a music teacher because I want to pass my love and passion on to other people! I can't wait to see where it takes me. So far I only have one song out, and it's kind of silly. I have serious songs in the works, but I wanted to start off with something simple to get the ball rolling. I thought since I love music AND making people laugh that I could do both! The song is called "Hot Nugget", and it was inspired by my little brother. He goes around the house saying "hotdog" and "I'm a chicken nugget", so I decided to make a song for us to jam out to in the car!

One of my favorite quotes is the quote that I used as my senior quote: "Trying to be someone else is a waste of the person you are."~Kurt Cobain. It stuck with me because I have always felt different than everyone else. I got made fun of a lot in school for being "weird". I never understood what was wrong with being "weird". Oh, you don't like me because I'm not exactly like everyone else? Okay that's boring. That's how I feel about it now, but as a young kid it really got to me. It was so hard for me to make friends because most people didn't have the same interests as me, and when I have interests, I take them seriously. I don't "kind of" like things. I am passionate about anything that I do and I do them with my whole heart and I think that scares people. Now that I'm more mature, I don't care if it scares people. I'll be unapologetically me, and the right people will love me for me.

I am a person with a heart bigger than my body. It can be a good thing, but it lead to me getting walked all over my whole life. It has affected me so much. I bottled my pain up because I wanted to be humble. I would always feel like I was a bother and apologized way too much. That caused me to stay away from my true self. I felt lonely in a room full of people because I didn't think anyone truly understood me. This me doesn't exist anymore because of an event that happened in the past couple of months. I had a friend that I trusted with everything in me. We told each other everything, I thought we had a forever bond. Our relationship started amazing, but the closer we got the more passive-aggressive she got towards me. I looked over it for a while, but then she started saying mean things directly to me. Sometimes she would even hit me hard but laugh it off like she was playing around. I tried to talk to her about it because I see the good in everyone, so I thought we could work it out. With people like that, you can't work things out. People that only think about themselves will do anything they need to get ahead or be better than the rest. Part of me wanted to leave this relationship, but the other part wanted to stay because her sister and I had bonded souls. Our relationship was ten times stronger than with her sister. (You're going to be closer to someone that doesn't bully you.) That's the reason I stayed, I didn't want my selfishness to ruin my relationship with my best friend for life. Eventually, I couldn't handle the manipulation anymore. She told people all of my secrets and even made a lot of stuff up. She told her best friend that I molested her, and her best friend is the same way as she is. (I wonder how many people think I'm a molester). That crossed the line for me. I was tired of dealing with the lies, abuse, and two-faced personality every single day. It was probably one of the hardest, but best things that I have had to do for myself so far. Sometimes the hardest things are the best things you can do for yourself. I should have left a long time ago. I won't hold a grudge because that's not healthy, but I learned a very valuable lesson. I need to keep an eye out for future relationships. Watch people's actions and see how genuine they are. Study them. Actions say more than words. That's a phrase that I've heard so many times but I never really soaked it in. I will never take people with good intentions for granted. They are so hard to find. If this sounds like something you are going through, I promise it gets better. Ditch the bad people no matter how hard it seems, and find the right ones. They are out there.

My brother actually inspired me to make this song. He is always running around the house saying "hotdog" and "I'm a chicken nugget", so I thought I would make a joke song for us to jam out to in the car. So far I feel like it has brought people joy, and that brings me joy. I love making people laugh. I know it's not really a real song, but I feel like it's creative and has the purpose of making people feel good. Laughter is the best medicine!

https://youtu.be/L_8Su4kx66o