Before sharing my favorite Netflix series, you might want to grab a tissue box (or a few) and several snacks! I favor emotional and crime/thriller genres on Netflix, which makes 13 Reasons Why be my favorite Netflix series. 13 Reasons Why provides an insightful view to issues that teens (and really people of all ages) face. These issues include addiction, sexual assault/rape, suicide, and domestic violence. It is understandable why these issues make 13 Reasons Why a difficult series to watch without relating to at least one of the characters in the series. These issues have also made this series slightly controversial, considering it is an impactful series for teens to watch, not to mention for anyone who watches 13 Reasons Why. Now, truly why should you watch 13 Reasons Why? Once you begin watching, it will be impossible to take a break from it. After finishing just the first season, you will become more empathetic and an advocate for the issues presented in the series. You will develop a better understanding for the effects of the issues on each individual, as well how long lasting these issues can be for those suffering. By the time you reach the last season, you will be thinking the series cannot get more emotional or impactful than it already is, and that is where you will be proven wrong. Common current issues in the world today are presented in a way that all people can understand and feel empathy for. The last season ends with an event that was unexpected and heartbreaking, once again addressing a common issue. Like I previously asked, why should you TRULY watch 13 Reasons Why? You will relate to at least one character and feel the same pain that they feel throughout the series. Personally I connected to Jessica Davis and Clay Jensen in two very different ways. Not only this, but the twists and turns of each episode will draw you in from your seat to try and connect the dots. Once you think you figured out some aspects of the series, you will realize you were far off from correct and be surprised as to what the truth is. The issues presented and mentioned throughout the series is a very unique aspect to the series, as compared to other Netflix series and movies. Similarly, the insightful view into what caused the issues and how they impacted the characters will allow you to develop a sense for what people in the real world experience on a daily basis, as well as what you can do to better support them. The connections between yourself and specific characters in the series is not something to ignore; your experiences will soon become interconnected to the series as you continue to watch. Now grab those tissues and hit play!

While in my last year of elementary school, Taylor Swift's music truly helped me continue to use my strength to get through each and everyday, especially on my toughest days. Specifically her albums Speak Now, 1989, and Red were staples in what I listened to throughout the school day. Taylor Swift has not only impacted my life, but also the lives of so many throughout the world. While in elementary and middle school, it is important to mention that I had to "get through" school days because I have chronic pain and illnesses that once limited my ability to perform well in school and attend extracurriculars and sports. As many would view this as a weakness, I was able to use my chronic pain as fuel to challenge myself to get through the day and even have a job, as I have had for almost two years now. In continuation to my chronic illness and chronic pain, I participated in the FIRST Program at Cincinnati Children's Hospital, which lasted three weeks inpatient in 2021. Rather than a medication trial, the FIRST Program focused on consistent exercising through physical therapy and occupational therapy, as well as learning coping mechanisms from a psychologist. It is clear that anyone and everyone with chronic pain would be fearful of doing any type of exercise, considering any movement drastically worsens the pain. While sweating, crying, and struggling with each exercise everyday for weeks, I was allowed to choose what music we listened to. What did I choose? Taylor Swift! Some days we would only listen to one album, while others we would listen to a variety of albums (luckily my physical therapist is a Swiftie). Straying away from my personal experience with Taylor Swift's music, it is likely that all women who listen to Taylor Swift gain a strong empowerment from her talent, achievements, and influence in the world. The Eras Tour is a grand example of how so many women were excited and empowered by Taylor Swift's attitude regarding her world tour and preparation to show all. Woman empowerment is a strong trait retrieved from Taylor Swift's music and Eras Tour, especially through her influence and impact in the world. I was first introduced to the impact of Taylor Swift and her music by my mother, where we both would jam out to Taylor Swift songs in the car and at home; as well as while I was inpatient at the hospital. Furthering my interest in Taylor Swift's music and career was from my friend also named Taylor, who is now in her 30's and still a Swiftie. We both consider Taylor Swift to be a genre on its own in music and both attended a Taylor Swift concert several years ago. These experiences bonded us and made memories for us to cherish as long as we live. Taylor Swift has overall changed my attitude over life regarding my chronic pain and illnesses. Each and everyday I choose to fight my chronic pain and enjoy the treasures of everyday. Like everyone, I have my rough days that make me want to give up or doubt myself, but I will not let this stop me. On these rough days, I just pop in a Taylor Swift CD and sing along. Taylor Swift's music, influence, and empowerment has created memories that will last throughout my lifetime, as well as continue to empower and motivate me to continue to enjoy the days that I am given; rather than "getting through" them.

It is no doubt that technology has significantly impacted everyone, especially in regard to its constantly changing and adapting advancements. While underrepresented, wearable medical devices are a staple in the advances of technology. Wearable medical devices include pacemakers, ECG monitors, smartwatches, and blood pressure monitors. It is important to note that wearable medical devices have personally impacted my life, as well as my family. Close family members have been required to use glucose monitors for diabetes, monitor blood pressure for hypertension, and so on. These easily accessible medical devices prove to be beneficial for those with medical conditions that need to constantly and consistently be monitored. I personally have been impacted by the accessibility of TENS units. While managing my chronic abdominal pain at a young age, I was unable to find medicine that efficiently manages my pain to make me be able to function throughout the day, especially in getting through a full school day. Once I was introduced to a TENS unit, it was slightly frightening considering it uses electrical impulses; however, once I became used to the functions and feeling of it, I came to use it more and more often. A TENS unit became crucial in my time of pain before I got my diagnosis of the abdominal pain (left ilioinguinal nerve entrapment). With consideration of the impacts from wearable medical devices for myself and my family, there are also significant impacts towards all people in the world not only from wearable medical devices, but from medical devices in general. Wearable medical devices and medical devices in general help give patients with earlier diagnoses, improved prognoses, and better treatments. With the continuation of advancements in medical devices in the accessibility, availability, and efficiency, patients suffering from various medical conditions can gain quick relief. It can be supported that medications alone provide patients with significant relief and treatment, but there is a cause for concern of inefficiency after a certain amount of time or resistance to the medication. For instance, I have personally suffered from resistance to medication. As a result, I was sent back to square one, where I had to find another medicine with manageable side effects and that was efficient in managing my pain. While waiting for treatment, my TENS unit helped provide me with some relief. All in all, wearable medical devices have and continue to improve medical conditions in the world.

Tennis was an escape for me from stress and anxiety in my life until I was diagnosed with several chronic illnesses. These illnesses caused me to stop playing tennis, singing in choir, and even finishing a full day of school. Although it may seem that my chronic illnesses shaped me more than tennis, this is completely wrong; qualities from tennis shaped me to overcome and battle my daily pain. When playing tennis, I would often struggle to find the correct technique when serving; I would often curve my wrist at an angle, causing the tennis ball to move too far left off of the courts. Over time, this caused me to develop a strong sense of patience with consistent time practicing. While overcoming my chronic pain in the past few years, I almost always used patience to not get overwhelmed or upset by the slow process of functioning regularly again. This is similar to the determination and dedication tennis has shaped me into. With my struggles in tennis, I also developed a sense of determination to learn the correct forms and techniques, as well as being dedicated to staying after tennis practices and on the weekends to continue to learn and have self-growth while improving my tennis skills. Different from qualities gained from tennis, while I was in a tennis club, the great amount of support I was given by the tennis coaches was more than adequate to feel supported and committed to a sport, as well as accepting my struggles/weaknesses within it. It is very difficult for those without chronic pain to understand how challenging daily tasks can be for me, so finding a support group was a big challenge, even to this day. That being said, I can use patience to find those who try to understand and support me how they can, given the unique conditions. A limited support group was similar to when I struggled with frustration not learning the correct technique to serve a tennis ball, even after weeks of practice; although, I kept "practicing" and was able to get support when I needed it. As I had said, I had not played tennis for years, considering I struggled with daily tasks from my chronic illnesses. I am glad to say that this past year I have been able to play tennis again, relearning previous tennis techniques I once mastered. I used my brother's tennis racket to simply practice hitting a tennis ball up and down in the air, as well as using the tennis racket (without a tennis ball) to practice the forms and techniques I once struggled with. I am certainly not as skilled as I once was in a tennis club, although I am improving with the pain tolerance and energy I have. Tennis played a major role in shaping prominent qualities I constantly use, such as patience, determination, and dedication. I have also been significantly shaped by the amount of support I have been given, as well as how I managed to continue putting in effort with little support. Getting back into playing and learning tennis has brought nostalgia, as well as an even stronger desire to play and learn tennis to improve since I had last played. I will continue to play tennis and use/strengthen qualities that tennis has shaped me for my future.

Throughout my childhood, almost all I went through were challenges. Now, the keyword here is almost. I have moderate-severe chronic pain and illnesses that are constantly battling against me; every breath I take is a battle won. I have Visceral Hyperalgesia, Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder, and Generalized Insomnia, which I have had for about seven years when I was 10 (2016-present). Looking back to previous essays I have written, I have commonly mentioned my medical conditions, so just for refernece, I am not trying to get pity or sorrow, rather I am trying to give a perspective on how devastating and impacting this was, especially at such a young age and how it has contributed to who I am today. Before my chronic illnesses, I was able to play baseball, volleyball, and tennis, be in student council, and live my life without restrictions. Now, I do things at pain levels others wouldn't even consider moving at. Considering my abdomen is a main part of my medical conditions, everything I do affects the pain levels, creating waves of pain throughout the day; the pain never ends, but at least I get some moments of low pain levels (3/10-10/10). Once the pain began, I had no coping mechanisms, was unable to afford any therapy, and the many medicines I tried did not help me. Even multiple surgeries and nerve blocks (without anesthesia) only seemed to last temporarily. Although I was a child, I understood the financial costs it took from my parents, so I would be strong and hide the pain through my smiles, laughs, and "I'm okay". If you were to pity anything, please do not let it be me. Let it be the inability to afford proper care, let alone the healthcare to actually work for each individual. Throughout my life, I have been told I'm "so strong", "so mature for my age", and "so lucky to be better" than when I first got my diagnosis. Better? I'm not better. I'm not lucky. I worked hard to be disciplined and used school as a way for me to show off my skills, rather than sports and clubs that I used to do (less physical activity). From my medical and pain experience, I have learnt to become mature, disciplined, and strong-willed, but do not fool this for luck. Currently, I have even gotten to the point where I can shower standing up, walk up and down stairs, and even exercise some (cardio). This is a major achievement in my life, for I have not been able to do this again until 2022. Specifically, as a woman, I feel as if we are expected to be nice and be quiet, to smile through the pain and do it all over again tomorrow. Other than my chronic pain, this was another battle, constantly being told I'm fine and that I could never be capable of "man's work." This includes my desire to obtain a Bachelor's Degree in biomedical engineering, which I will continue to have even more issues with this later on. Moral of the story, my medical issues and pain are not defining factors for me, yet they contribute for me to work and get me stronger and more capable. This does not mean I don't have rough days (or rough parts of good days) but shows how I am strong-willed and prepared for any battle that comes my way. I will continue to carry this mindset with me through the dark alleys, twisted turns, and storms, as well as appreciate it through the rays of the sun that peaks through the clouds.

My Barbie Dream House would be a camper so I could travel and go anywhere with it! Similar to Chick Hicks in the movie Cars, my Barbie camper would have a rounded body, primarily a pastel pink color with highlights of purple and grey chrome. The rims of the wheels would have heart and star shapes with purple and grey chrome. The paint would have glitter in it to shine through the day and night sky! There would be the option to place some car decals on the back of the camper, Disney-related. A pool would be under the camper that can move around to the side for a relaxing break from the long driving. As you open the sparkly pink door, the inside would have a cozy, comforting feel with nostalgia for my childhood playing with many different Barbies. The couch would be located on the side with a pink background and purple hearts, with pearls lining the sides. Walking through the small kitchen would be a bedazzled refrigerator and oven, with clear and heart-shaped rhinestones. The countertop would be a muted grey to allow there to be a minimal complementing contrast. The wallpaper would be interchangeable with the muted grey with some pink and purple glitter around it or a muted pastel blue for a more adventurous and bright feeling. The bedroom would then have a similar color scheme with pastel muted colors and a comforting nostalgic feeling, yet have fake flowers around the window sills to add nature into a calm place. Currently, my Barbie Dream camper is located in a tropical, warm, and beachy location to enjoy the nice summer sun with my family. This is my fabulous Barbie Dream House and some of its many features!

Constantly going from doctor to doctor and hospital to hospital for undiagnosed medical conditions completely wore me out to the point of constant stress and anxiety. With this constant discomfort, even somewhat still to this day, make it difficult to enjoy life for as it is, considering I have now been diagnosed with Visceral Hyperalgesia, Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder, Insomnia, etc. What do these medical words mean? Pain. They mean I am constantly in pain all the time, even when I’m smiling, even when I’m laughing. Taking this into consideration, hobbies and fun things for children (medical issues began at age 9-10) were no longer fun to me. I stopped loving the things I used to love. Except one: Disney. It was and is difficult for me to accept my medical conditions and move on, especially because I always know they’re there and the more fun things, such as running, dancing, and exercising hurt me. To understand more about having chronic pain: I do things at pain levels others wouldn’t even consider moving at. This is because if I don’t…I won’t have a life; at least the life I want. Surprisingly, Disney movies (specifically princess disney movies) have helped me get back into a growth mindset to achieve and do more. As I said before, activities such as running and exercising hurt my muscles, joints, and chronic pain areas more than the average person, so during exercises I watch Disney to keep my mind distracted from the pain; which I learnt these coping mechanisms from Cincinnati Children’s Hospital during the FIRST Program (three week program). A top favorite Disney movie of mine when I am going through a rough/pain day is definitely Tangled. I adore Rapunzel with her independence and sticking to her words, yet still relying and caring for her “mother” (Gothel) and Flynn Rider. I can’t forget to mention Pascal and his adorable personality that adds humor to the movie. To put this into perspective, I even have a Disney ring in the shape of Rapunzel’s tiara (from Etsy if anyone is curious, haha), which I wear all the time. This ring helps me release my anxiety when I’m at the store, school, etc. by moving it around and reminding me of my favorite parts of the movie. Taking all of this into consideration, anyone with chronic pain can agree how deteriorating it is to mental health; constant doctor visits, unable to do things you used to be able to, and more. Even though it may sound simple and maybe even silly, Disney positively impacts my life and mindset to help me achieve my goals to better my medical conditions. The simple Disney movies like Cinderella and Snow White bro my me nostalgia from my childhood, rather than thinking of my many doctor visits. Being in a crowded room and messing with my ring reminds me of my favorite songs and scenes in Tangled. These factors majorly contribute to my well-being, allowing me to be the best version of myself that I can be, without letting my medical issues define me or stop me.

In order to better understand the nature of our universe, we must first understand ourselves. To understand ourselves, physical and psychological aspects of the human brain and body must be examined, as well as disorders/diseases and treatments. Comprehending something large by beginning with a smaller portion is similar to learning Precalculus before Calculus; although skipping Precalculus is possible, this results in Calculus being more difficult and takes longer to completely understand. All of which connect to many medical occupations, specifically pertaining to psychology and chronic diseases. Although learning about the nature of our universe without understanding ourselves first may be possible, this may result in (multiple) misconceptions, errors, and incompletion. A complication to learning about the human body is whether there is a limit or not to how much knowledge is present. Being so, there may not be a limit to the knowledge of our universe, which is significant to highlight; although, this does not mean it is not understandable or unimportant to better learn and study. Major benefits to learning about the human body is the full potential (physically and mentally), any possible weaknesses, and knowing our ability to expand our knowledge on complex universal concepts. Entanglement Theory–made by Erwin Schrödinger–states everything is connected, therefore correlating all studies and aspects of the universe together. On Earth, everything is chemically connected. In organisms, everything is biologically/genetically connected. In the universe, everything is atomically connected. Another method to understanding this theory is imagining people on Earth as if flying. From a high perspective, all people are dots, cities become dots, the Earth becomes a dot, and eventually solar systems become a dot; clarifying that everything is a dot up high. Within, organisms are composed of cells, which are composed of organelles; overall being a dot within. This allows there to be one dot with infinite divisions and infinite information, that humans may use to gain a better comprehension of universal topics (as well as ourselves). This theory allows it to be considered that a base to universal knowledge is understanding specifically how everything is connected; micro to macro. Considering this information, there are many occupations to gain crucial, new information: physics, chemistry, and medicine. My contribution to universal understanding is to become an Emergency Medicine Physician. In the medical field, I will have the ability to gain knowledge concerning anatomy, psychology, physiology, and emergency medicine. Simultaneously, others will learn about topics regarding (atomic) physics, chemistry, astronomy, and sociology, along with many other universal topics. Taking all of this into account, we may learn about our universe by understanding ourselves to not cause complications/misconceptions. Also, we could use a different perspective in studies, such as using the Entanglement Theory for clarification. Then, occupations that are used to expand our universal knowledge (not limited) are essential to build on prior knowledge. This will overall better the understanding of our universe.

Are Disney movies for entertainment and fun, or have you noticed the indirect themes and central concepts? As it is now and has been for years, my favorite Disney character is Rapunzel; Tangled. Rapunzel’s independence/strength, curiosity and care to explore the world, and singing are what make her my favorite. Personally, I enjoy Rapunzel’s strength and independence because I am similar with the desire to be mentally strong and independent. In the movie Tangled, Rapunzel is stubborn and determined to “see the floating lights,” even when Gothel, her “mother,” brutally disagrees with her. Rather than listening to Gothel, Rapunzel follows her heart and leaves the tower; although, Flynn Rider goes with her to act as Rapunzel’s protection in case of anything to occur. Throughout the movie, strength and independence are characteristics shown through the actions and reactions of Rapunzel. More characteristics connected to Rapunzel is her care and curiosity of the world and those around her. Even while Flynn Rider attempts to frighten her at the Snuggly Duckling restaurant, Rapunzel uses her strength to get through the moment and sings, “We Have a Dream,” to understand that the people are not as scary and careless as they may appear to be. I am still working on trying to understand those around me in my society. I have empathy and sympathy, although unhealthy and unhelpful choices, reactions, and actions of others are what cause me to loose my care and love. Furthermore, a more fun and uplifting reason are all of the songs! Rapunzel’s vocal range is amazing, with the ability to sing higher-pitched notes easily. The way Flynn Rider, the men at the restaurant, and people in the town village sing along with joy and confidence is uplifting for the viewers watching the movie. This projects her natural talent and confidence. Rapunzel is my favorite Disney character for all of her various characteristics and amazing singing talent! To add as a side note, her companion Pascal is adorable and a great friend for Rapunzel! This is why Rapunzel is my favorite Disney character with the indirect themes and central ideas of each section.

For back to school, my best tip is to remember the purpose. On the rough days when you want to give up, are procrastinating, or are stressed out, remembering the purpose/why is what gives the activity value and creates more attraction to the topic (less distraction). For me personally, I have had a difficult year from taking classes that take all of my effort and critical thinking, so when I have a bad moment I think back to the purpose of why I am taking difficult classes. Doing so, puts value back into making me more productive and less distracted. Similarly, remembering the purpose works with occupations, hobbies, trying something new, etc. So during rough/boring moments during school or anything in general, remember why you are doing it to add value. (Instagram Handle: flowergirl13.7)

For approximately four to five years, I have been a main caregiver to a family member in immediate need. My grandfather, Charles/Chuck was diagnosed with early stage Alzheimer's in 2017; 83 years old. Alzheimer's is a cognitive disease affecting the brain with memory processes, therefore being a brain disorder. Brain atrophy began to show in the middle to late months in 2017, gradually becoming worse. My grandmother was there for him when I was at school, which may seem conflicting for why I care for him moreover than my grandmother. In order to understand, you must know that my grandfather is my best friend. Chuck was always cheerful and full of joy, which brought me enjoyment and laughter. We would play hidden items games, Trouble (dice board game - with marbles), and made many puzzles together. In 2018, his Alzheimer's became moderate-severe and was noticeable. Rather than forgetting about a doctor's appointment, my grandfather would forget tp brush his teeth, forget how to use kitchen utensils (knife, spoon, fork, etc.), and began to majorly lose muscle mass from forgetting how to walk. Often, I would be at my grandparent's house, assisting my grandfather with daily tasks and my grandmother with cleaning/laundry. Some daily tasks were more easy to reteach/manage, such as helping him sit down or read an analog clock. Others, such as walking up two stairs or using the correct kitchen utensils the correct way was more difficult to help him with. The worst part about being a witness to Alzheimer's is having your best friend, your grandfather, look at you but appears to look through you rather than at you. Chuck forgot me, he forgot who I am to him and all of the fun we once had before. It was as if all of his memories were washed away and could not be retrieved. My journey and identity was first disrupted from the mental exhaustion and sadness of who I've become, but I've learnt to accept who I am and what happened to him. Alzheimer's is an incontrollable disease that was no one's fault, rather it was the complex design of his genetics; it is what it is. My journey was as difficult as climbing a crumbly mountain; at any moment I could go crashing down, finding that rock bottom has a basement. As for my personal goals, they remained the same. Help my grandfather at the pace he is going and help my grandmother not slip off of the mountain. Near the middle of 2018, Chuck was placed into a nursing home because of his crippling Alzheimer's. At first, there was an age limit that you must be 18 to see a loved one, yet I am 16. My personal goal had been altered from helping my grandfather to simply just seeing how he is doing. Currently, Chuck is underweight and remains in a wheelchair in a nursing home. This does not stop me from writing him various cards and letters with family pictures and pictures of me for him to possibly feel more comfortable with. Some days, my grandfather is content and cheerful, others he is on edge and upset, and the rest of the days he is simply fading away in the quietness of the nursing home. At that moment, it felt like he was already passed away, as if more pain and sadness is from his caregivers and family than the disease itself. This is my caregiving experience with my grandfather, Charles/Chuck, and the impact it has made on me.

What do you think the worst feeling is? You may be thinking regret, loneliness, and/or general sadness/depression. To me, the worst feeling is knowing you tried your best and it still was not good enough. I am someone who suffers from severe chronic pain/illnesses (Visceral Hyperalgesia, Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder, Left Ilioinguinal Nerve Entrapment, Generalized Insomnia, Moderate-Severe Anxiety, Moderate-Severe Depression, etc.) that corrupt my day-to-day activities. Although physical pain is a major contributor to my difficulties, my mental health is what make the bad days even worse. Sometimes, physical pain is not the worst part about chronic pain, for I easily get mentally exhausted and anxious when I must do more than I should do in a given day. Doing more daily tasks/more difficult tasks bring more pain, which bring more anxiety and depression, which brings more insomnia. These events form a viscous cycle, making me lose interest in hobbies and activities that once brought me joy and happiness. For example, I do not play the guitar and piano as much as I once did before viscous cycles of my chronic illnesses. I would not sleep for days, feeling a level ten out of ten pain constantly in my abdomen and joints. I have strong values and beliefs to keep going, doing enough but not too much, and to be grateful/happy with what I have; not feeling pity and depression from what I do not have. Most friendships I once had with people did not continue because of my physical and mental health, yet with my given values and beliefs I try not to feel depressed from this. Rather I realize: I did not lose a friend, I just realized I never had one. With all of the pain I manage on each day, my career aspirations to become an Emergency Medicine Physician have not changed because I know what it feels like to need help and not receive any. This will allow me to have a true connection and bond with patients because I know what both, physical and mental pain feel like, especially together/hand-in-hand. My career aspirations have also not changed because I do not want too continually see a patient; I want the process to be a quick in and out of the hospital with my assistance. This correlates to the feeling of not being good enough at consistent monthly/weekly doctor appointments to view my progress, which is typically minimal. Success may move so minimally that it feels as if it is not happening at all. This usually causes me to return to short-term solutions to long-term problems, which do not overall help me with my values and career aspiration. In order to let out my mental pain, I write calligraphy in a notebook of mine. I have written original quotes such as, "Don't you think if I could, then I would?" and "Chronic pain is a shapeshifter. One minute it is the size of a fly in the palm of a bear, then next it's the bear. On those days, I play dead until the bear leaves me alone." Other unoriginal quotes I have written are, "I feel too much or not enough" and "Just because I am used to it, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt anymore." Coping strategies have assisted me with my managing my physical and mental health to better value my beliefs, relationships, and career aspirations. To end this essay, I would like to leave you with a thought: Just because you have felt pain, does NOT mean you may understand any type of chronic pain/illness.

For approximately four to five years, I have been a main caregiver to a family member in immediate need. My grandfather, Charles/Chuck was diagnosed with early stage Alzheimer's in 2017; 83 years old. Alzheimer's is a cognitive disease affecting the brain with memory processes, therefore being a brain disorder. Brain atrophy began to show in the middle to late months in 2017, gradually becoming worse. My grandmother was there for him when I was at school, which may seem conflicting for why I care for him moreover than my grandmother. In order to understand, you must know that my grandfather is my best friend. Chuck was always cheerful and full of joy, which brought me enjoyment and laughter. We would play hidden items games, Trouble (dice board game - with marbles), and made many puzzles together. In 2018, his Alzheimer's became moderate-severe and was noticeable. Rather than forgetting about a doctor's appointment, my grandfather would forget tp brush his teeth, forget how to use kitchen utensils (knife, spoon, fork, etc.), and began to majorly lose muscle mass from forgetting how to walk. Often, I would be at my grandparent's house, assisting my grandfather with daily tasks and my grandmother with cleaning/laundry. Some daily tasks were more easy to reteach/manage, such as helping him sit down or read an analog clock. Others, such as walking up two stairs or using the correct kitchen utensils the correct way was more difficult to help him with. The worst part about being a witness to Alzheimer's is having your best friend, your grandfather, look at you but appears to look through you rather than at you. Chuck forgot me, he forgot who I am to him and all of the fun we once had before. It was as if all of his memories were washed away and could not be retrieved. My journey and identity was first disrupted from the mental exhaustion and sadness of who I've become, but I've learnt to accept who I am and what happened to him. Alzheimer's is an incontrollable disease that was no one's fault, rather it was the complex design of his genetics; it is what it is. My journey was as difficult as climbing a crumbly mountain; at any moment I could go crashing down, finding that rock bottom has a basement. As for my personal goals, they remained the same. Help my grandfather at the pace he is going and help my grandmother not slip off of the mountain. Near the middle of 2018, Chuck was placed into a nursing home because of his crippling Alzheimer's. At first, there was an age limit that you must be 18 to see a loved one, yet I am 16. My personal goal had been altered from helping my grandfather to simply just seeing how he is doing. Currently, Chuck is underweight and remains in a wheelchair in a nursing home. This does not stop me from writing him various cards and letters with family pictures and pictures of me for him to possibly feel more comfortable with. Some days, my grandfather is content and cheerful, others he is on edge and upset, and the rest of the days he is simply fading away in the quietness of the nursing home. At that moment, it felt like he was already passed away, as if more pain and sadness is from his caregivers and family than the disease itself. This is my caregiving experience with my grandfather, Charles/Chuck, and the impact it has made on me.

My favorite scientific discovery is the discovery of DNA (Deoxyribonucleic Acid). This discovery began with Rosalind Franklin, who took x-ray diffraction images and made crystallographic calculations, yet was not admired for her work. In contrast, James Watson and Crick worked together with Maurice Wilkins to steal Franklin's work to make an accurate model of DNA. With doing so, all three men received a Nobel Peace Prize and Franklin did not, for she had died four years prior to the prize. Although the discovery of DNA is fascinating for scientific reasons, the overall process is more interesting with what people will do to gain power and individualism. Rosalind Franklin was unable to defend herself from her stolen work (or the men's "forgetfulness" to credit her), and gained little to no recognition for her hard work of calculations and images. The DNA discovery is interesting, yet infuriating for Rosalind Franklin. Women of all diversities deserve the right to be credited and not have their work stolen so men may act from laziness to discover scientific discoveries without consent/permission. "A woman must work harder than a man to be considered equal to him" - Megan Huntsman (me).

All types of medicine specialities are male-dominated with 64 percent to 36 percent. I am pursuing emergency medicine for those who need medical attention in a time of crisis. In such an urgent situation, systemic barriers are disregarded, for it is thought as one person saving another person’s life. Not one person saving a “black” or “white” person’s life and not one person saving a “gay” or “lesbian” person’s life; it is simply the instinct to assist those in need. I am specifically pursuing a degree in biochemistry to advance to medical school (through the MCAT). To put it simply for why I am pursuing this degree, I suffer with severe chronic pain and illnesses that restrict daily tasks other people would not have to think twice about doing. I struggle walking more than ten minutes, folding blankets, standing while taking a shower, etc. All of which attempt to stop me from achieving my dream of becoming an Emergency Medicine Physician, but only makes me more mentally strong to achieve my dreams. This not only allows me to feel the daily remarks about being “lazy” or “unimportant,” yet allows me to fully relate to those of other diversities to connect in a bond others would not be able to, allowing for a deeper connection and positivity to relate. Diversity is something that will occur regardless of the opinions of society. The only issue with diversity is the low acceptance rates to diverse cultures and people. Although positive reactions are difficult for many to accept in response to diversity, it is significant for the ones who are diverse. For instance, if someone is expressive of their sexuality, certain people (specifically those of other generations) may react with disgust or anger, therefore causing mental health issues to be more prominent in those who are diverse with more recent and newer diverse personalities and cultures. With the addition of unique qualities, there are imbalances with the major qualities of Americans. Equality and individualism/advancing to higher levels are two values that do not correlate with each other; contradiction. I am not on a mission to form an equal balance between male-dominated careers and women or of those with their own unique qualities. Rather, I am attempting to form a more specialized alliance with everyone. Diversity is possible without acceptance. Kindness connects diverse groups of people in a method to allow opinions to be valid, yet not disapproved or disgusted by others.

“I didn’t want to die. Not yet; not when I hadn’t lived.” - Alex Michaelides, The Silent Patient. My favorite book is "The Silent Patient" written by Alex Michaelides. This quote represents the truth behind love, life lessons, and the social expectations. In equal importance, this quote shares insight with foreshadowing to suicide and crime written within the novel. "The Silent Patient" is a thriller novel written in the timeline of modern-day England. The novel includes murder, guilt, betrayal, twisted obsessions, and psychological aspects of treatment. Throughout this novel, the author creates feelings of suspense, confusion, and curiosity. Suspense is the main feeling in this novel, due to the unknown information that is only given at certain times, which leads into the feeling of being confused. Confusion is commonly interpreted as a negative emotion and stressful, yet Michaelides has a technique of constructing a base, or foundation to the storyline, which begins vague and broad, until pieces information are give. Most times, the information is interoperated in different ways, creating confusion and suspense all in one book. Curiosity is an addition to the feelings of suspense and confusion, which only additionally makes the novel better in the critical thinking of the reader with whether the murder was committed from a woman through psychological distress or by someone else. The narrative is by a psychologist named Theo Faber who desires to be part of the psychological treatment to a woman named Alicia Berenson, who is thought to have murdered her husband. Through all of the twists and turns, this novel is a book that I did not want to put down while reading and had a genuine emotion of shock and surprise once I finish reading "The Silent Patient." This is why this novel is my favorite novel/book!

Some people may say they achieved traveling around the world, rock-climbing, or even exercising. Now, for me? My achievements have been walking for four-seven minutes. Although this may seem minor and unimportant, walking for this long has been a major contribution to my bucket list achievement. For approximately nine-ten years I have been diagnosed with Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder, Left Ilioinguinal Nerve Entrapment, Insomnia, and Visceral Hyperalgesia. With all of these medical diagnoses, I have had difficulty doing activities others would not have to think twice about doing. Additionally, I do functions at pain levels other people would not even consider moving at, which brings me determination and confidence to be mentally strong. This is why walking for less than ten minutes is a major achievement for me. Other activities on my bucket list are to have the ability to perform daily functions such as folding/making my bed sheets, standing up while taking a shower, and getting through a full day of school. I also have activities such as expanding my knowledge of medical terminology, college-level courses, and human anatomy. Currently, I own a Netters Human Anatomy Book and Coloring Book, which I enjoy to take notes and learn more about the physiology and anatomy of humans. My bucket list contains actions of daily functions and the expanding of medical information. I have and will continue to be strong through everyday, especially the bad days because those are what matter most. This is my bucket list and what I have achieved so far!

My talents are songwriting, playing the guitar and piano, acting in theatre, and writing spoken word/poetry. In order to practice my talents, I make sure to spend a minimum of 20 minutes with at least one talent every day. I mostly practice songwriting, playing the piano, and writing spoken word/poetry. In addition to practicing, I have not practiced acting in theatre as much as I would love to, due to moderate-severe chronic abdominal pain. I have diagnoses of Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder, Entrapped Left Ilioinguinal Nerve, and Insomnia. Although I try to perform daily activities, it is quite difficult for me to continue pursuing daily activities such as walking, taking a shower, and getting through a day at school. I have difficulty doing activities other people would not have to think twice about, which results in disappointment. Disappointment may attempt to stop me doing my talents, but I am a fighter and will achieve my dreams. To accommodate my needs with having moderate-severe chronic pain, I use a chair when playing the piano, do not sing too much (because abdominal muscles are used with diaphragmatic breathing), and play smaller roles in theatre when I am physically able to do so. These accommodations truly allow my talent to bloom for all to see and hear. Even though chronic abdominal pain is a major contribution with my talents, I do not and will never allow my pain to physically and mentally break me. I will continuously fight for the talents I believe in and never give up for chronic pain to win. I will always practice and keep my skills/talents, especially on the bad days.

In order to practice bravery and living boldly, I simply show up. That's it. As I grew up, I never truly had a childhood that was full of physical activity and adventure, due to Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder, Insomnia, and a Left Ilioinguinal Entrapped Nerve. My physical function has decreased with doing daily functions, such as showering, walking long distances, and getting through a full day of school. In my level of pain, I function at levels other people would not consider moving at, which gives me the ability to have determination, patience, and mental strength. Some may say their practice of bravery is trying new hobbies every month, exercising, or even doing impressive tasks. In response to being at too many doctor appointments to count and being hospitalized (Three weeks), I do all that I am able to, especially when I feel I am unable to. Without my chronic pain and past, I would miss the bad/negative sections of my life, yet I would additionally miss the positive and hopeful aspects of my life. For me, showing up, doing what I need to get done, and never allowing anyone or anything to break my spirit is how I practice to live bravely and boldly. Some days I feel weakened and hopeless being in a constant rate of pain, yet I still get up in the morning. I still get through the bad days just to have another good day. I still try.

My name is Megan Huntsman and I hope to pursue a career of science and mathematics, specifically in Emergency Medicine. As I grew up, I never truly had a childhood that was full of physical activity, due to Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder, Insomnia, and a Left Ilioinguinal Entrapped Nerve. My physical function has decreased with doing daily functions, such as showering, walking long distances, and getting through a full day of school. In my level of pain, I function at levels other people would not consider moving at, which gives me the ability to have determination, patience, and mental strength. In result of chronic pain, I enjoy studying human anatomy, geometry/calculus, and molecular cellular biology after school in my free time. I have a Netters Human Anatomy book and coloring book that I enjoy to study when I have the free time to do so! In similarity, I additionally enjoy mathematics, specifically being calculus and geometry. Solving problems, word problems, and using critical thinking appeal to me because I am able to feel pride and confidence afterwards and for tests/quizzes. In an academic perspective, I am currently pursuing online Purdue University college courses in Biology, Calculus, Chemistry, and more. Similarly, I am in all honors classes at Decatur Central High School. This incudes Spanish II! I have achieved A+ (4.0) Honor Roll and awards during my school life, which give me a feeling of achievement and motivation to continue doing well for myself, as well as others. Emergency Medicine is enjoyable to me because of the swift problem-solving (critical thinking) and under-pressure situations. While being hospitalized and constantly in a doctors office, I would enjoy to handle severe and acute medical issues, rather than chronic conditions, such as what I have to manage. Sciences similar to biochemistry and biomedical sciences are significant and meaningful to me, for scientific innovations form a better and more useful environment and life for everyone! Principles of Mathematics have provided a clear way of moving throughout the journey of life. For instance, algebraic formulas and rules allowed the Scientific Revolution to take place, geometry has allowed construction and inventions to be correctly made, and calculated statistics provided all types of information to be clearly stated and viewed to all. All of which, prove for the principles of mathematics to truly make valuable and major contributions in all types of mathematics and in general. In simple words, the principles of mathematics is an excellent method for me to grow in my future to become an Emergency Medicine Physician. Specifically, both mathematics and science prove to be useful in my career choice, as well as for my enjoy in critical thinking. Within mathematics in general, there have been major contributions have been achieved that I hope to achieve as well, especially being someone wo may relate to the physical and mental pain behind the mask of chronic pain. Being able to relate to patients provide an excellent patient-to-doctor relationship that is more than only healthcare.

My name is Megan Huntsman and I hope to pursue a career of science, specifically in Emergency Medicine. As I grew up, I never truly had a childhood that was full of physical activity, due to Hypermobility Spectrum Disorder, Insomnia, and a Left Ilioinguinal Entrapped Nerve. My physical function has decreased with doing daily functions, such as showering, walking long distances, and getting through a full day of school. In my level of pain, I function at levels other people would not consider moving at, which gives me the ability to have determination, patience, and mental strength. In result of chronic pain, I enjoy studying human anatomy, physiology, and molecular cellular biology after school in my free time. I have a Netters Human Anatomy book and coloring book that I enjoy to study when I have the free time to do so! In similarity, I additionally enjoy mathematics, specifically being calculus and geometry. Solving problems, word problems, and using critical thinking appeal to me because I am able to feel pride and confidence afterwards and for tests/quizzes. In an academic perspective, I am currently pursuing online Purdue University college courses in Biology, Calculus, Chemistry, and more. Similarly, I am in all honors classes at Decatur Central High School. This incudes Spanish II! I have achieved A+ (4.0) Honor Roll and awards during my school life, which give me a feeling of achievement and motivation to continue doing well for myself, as well as others. Emergency Medicine is enjoyable to me because of the swift problem-solving (critical thinking) and under-pressure situations. While being hospitalized and constantly in a doctor's office, I would enjoy to handle moderate-severe acute medical issues, rather than chronic conditions, such as what I have to manage. Sciences similar to biochemistry and biomedical sciences are significant and meaningful to me, for scientific innovations form a better and more useful environment and life for everyone! From a feminine perspective, women have made major notable contributions to the scientific and medical world today. For instance, Rosalind Franklin made a contribution towards the radiologic photographs of DNA (Deoxyribonucleic Acid). In the technological world, Girls Who Code is an organization that provide coding skills and lessons to women/girls who enjoy learning about technological coding and innovations. Personally, I admire female doctors who deserve more admiration and respect than they receive. At Cincinnati Children's Hospital, in the FIRST Program, a psychologist who works to mentally/emotionally help others has contributed to my life and deserves the respect for it. Pain management, anxiety, and coping mechanisms are only a few methods to how a woman has positively impacts one's life. In simple words, STEM is an excellent method for women and for me to grow in my future to become an Emergency Medicine Physician. Specifically, science and mathematics prove to be useful in my career choice, as well as for my enjoy in critical thinking. Within STEM and science in general, females have made major contributions that I hope to achieve as well, especially being someone who may relate to the physical and mental pain behind the mask of chronic pain. Being able to relate to patients provide an excellent patient-to-doctor relationship that is more than only healthcare. This is all about me!