Once I learned about the college courses I could take in high school, I always strived to take them to achieve more than just the basic courses, especially if it would allow me to take some burden off the shoulders of my family and loved ones by getting just a bit more ahead for college.
I originally had trouble getting a footing. I was scared to try the harder AP classes out of fear of failing or getting a bad score on the final test, but as soon as I hit senior year, I knew I had to try before it was too late.
I chose to do not only dual enrollment French, but also both AP calculus and AP chemistry at the same time that year, and in all honesty, I was so glad I did.
Although I was disappointed I couldn't get an A overall for AP calculus, I still was able to thrive in both chemistry and dual-enrollment French. I learned a lot from all three classes. From AP calculus, I learned the importance of not expecting to be perfect in all my classes, learning that I can still get a five regardless of thinking that I "only" got a B. I learned that as long as I studied just a bit harder, I could pass the final challenges despite the troubles I had along the way.
For AP chemistry and dual enrollment French, I learned how to take more opportunities before shutting them down. Even if something "seems" hard, often it may be one of the most rewarding experiences you could have, and I certainly learned that as I made so many new friends and passed both classes with relative ease, especially when I knew to study still, since the AP chemistry exam I especially needed a 5.
In the end I not only achieved 5's and an A for my two AP courses and my dual enrollment course, but I also learned how important being kind and working together as a group is, I wouldn't have made it through without my friends to help and cheer me on in AP calculus, and I learned how fulfilling it was to help others who may be struggling in AP chemistry as I was in AP calculus. Tutoring and being almost a "role model" brought me immense joy, and I certainly brought that forward as I went into my first year of college, even being able to help and study with a newly acquainted friend in our same psychology class.
Although I've been able to succeed academically, I wouldn't be lying when I talked about how hard it has been to endure the stress of both my academic and economic life, I constantly worry about my payments, and getting to medical school especially seems like a dream that I've lost out on due to not having enough money to make it through. Ever since my parents had died and I had been left with my step-mother, I've always wanted to be someone she wouldn't have to worry about, especially when my step-brother is struggling even more than I had to gather scholarships and support for college.
What I wish most is to be able to one day help others as they've helped me; the crushing guilt I feel when I spend even a little money has always been a burden over the years, and despite this, I hope that I can continue to shine despite my struggles.