Navigating life with my neurodiverse condition (which is autism), has brought a set of many different challenges and viewpoints that have deeply connected with my influence and decisions. From my sensory sensitivities to social interactions, it can be very overwhelming at times. Although, these difficulties have helped me foster resilience, empathy, and a better understanding of neurodiversity. Reflecting on what I've gone through in my life so far, I see the importance of spreading positivity and awareness about those who are neurodivergent. My willingness to give back to those who have to suffer because of their neurodivergence is backed up by my educational and professional aspirations.
Growing up, I did feel different from my peers and family. Social interaction was something that others knew how to do almost seamlessly, but took a lot of effort and energy for me. My sensitivity back then, was skyrocketing. I would get emotional very easily, so my sensory issues were affecting me in public. Despite all of that, I was still able to navigate throughout my life thanks to my family helping me out along the way. Over time drawing became something I started doing because it helped express my creativity and my thoughts, as well as being a way to share my perspective.
Dance is something that I've been doing for as long as I can remember. I just always loved how the body was able to work while dancing, such as making moves people didn't think would be possible. I started with just dancing to music freely while listening to music it gets me moving to the beat as the song goes on. Initially, I never set a choreography for specific songs. I was trying freestyle, but over time I wanted to try certain dance moves with songs so they could tell stories through my movement. I normally did it when I was at home, but when I turned 7 years old, I then wanted to express my love for dance with my peers at school. They didn't take it too well, as they didn't like the idea of me pretending to play instruments as I danced, and over time I stopped doing that for a while because they didn't like it, but I did because I thought it was authentic to do that while dancing. I major in Dance-Interest, and while I'm doing so I'm learning a lot from the dance classes I have taken so far.
Normally I wouldn't say I like working with others on choreography, but I didn't mind with the people that I have worked with so far. I never tried to show them how much I loved dance because the last time I tried showing that to my peers, they didn't take it too well. I enjoy dancing a lot, but I can never show it with a smile while I'm doing so. Working on my while trying to come up with a choreography takes a while but I don't mind that because I have fewer distractions. Ever since I was diagnosed with Autism, dancing was always something that I could go to because of my constant stimming. As well as being something that I can use to express myself so that I can be free of expectations. While I'm in dance classes, I often get frustrated with something I can't do right away so I would sit there and observe first before trying again. I would only keep to myself when it comes to something I don't think I can do because I don't believe people would believe what I would say about it.
When I dance I feel free from everything that's holding me back in my life, like as if they were never there in the first place like I could prove all of my doubters wrong and succeed. Some people have told me that my choice to pursue dance was unique because everyone else's career was usually the same such as business, marketing, and mathematics. And it shows that I want to do this, something different from what people usually choose. I know that I want to try to make a difference by showing people that dance doesn't have to be this one thing where I have to conform to certain genres. Because I think that's just boring, there's no creativity in it and that's what I want to bring to dance, is creativity.
Empathy is one of the emotions that I once had trouble feeling. I once discovered empathy when I started to help people with anything: school work, saying how they think, & cheering them on. Discovering this feeling made me feel like I was doing something good. I honestly couldn’t believe that I was starting to help people. Helping others was starting to become a strength for me.
I specifically discovered this back when I was in middle school. A lot of the other kids were very annoying. My Passion for helping others happened by accident. It was when I decided to help one of my friends out with a math assignment. And after a few more days of doing so, I finally understood how he felt about himself and math. I slowly started to help others to make them feel good about themselves.
Harnessing this emotion takes a lot of practice to see the good in people. It was a better way for me to connect with people who may have different viewpoints than me. I think I should tell them how and why they feel a certain way. And however they feel, I will respectfully tell them what they should do. I would try to give my best input on their situation.
Being a people person doesn’t mean you have to talk to people all the time. I just want to understand where some people may be coming from. I’m not gonna relate to everything someone tells me. Some People may not like my opinion on their situation, but I still may be brutally honest with them. So I may know how you feel or not based on how put it and your attitude.