I remember being a kid, and when my parents would have friends and family over and they would yell for one of us kids to come bring them a refill, I learned early on that if I was close enough, Mom would leave a little in her wine coolers that I could sip while I got their refills. The first time I got drunk, I was 13, and it was a party for my father and uncle. My cousin and I found the Jell-O shots in the refrigerator, and that was it. My cousin woke up sick with a headache, and I just wanted more.
In college, during my first attempt at higher education, there were instances where I would get drunk at a party and maybe do something crazy or embarrassing, but everyone does that in college, right? It wasn't until I fell into a deep depression, my grandparents had both died, I was living in College Station working at the university with no real friends or family near me, that my sick mind told me all I needed to do was move back home to Houston and I would be all better. That didn't exactly work out like that. Living in Houston with family members who also suffered from addictions of their own enabled my dependency to grow. It wasn't until I had been put out of several family members' homes, was living out of a hotel, and had actually had to spend a couple of nights sleeping outside, that I realized this was not the life God intended for me.
I found a women's detox (the only free women's detox in the state of Texas, which is supported ONLY through donations and other members of the program of Alcoholics Anonymous), and I was there for three weeks before I had to be hospitalized. My addiction had caused acute pancreatitis. I had two cysts on my pancreas, one was four inches, and it had caused my stomach to shrink. I went from 200 lbs. normally to 98 lbs. But I called SIR House, sober living homes for women, and they came and got me from the hospital. I stayed there for four months before they made me the assistant house manager, then a month later, I became the house manager. I managed a house of up to 14 other women at a time while working a job and saving to get myself to a point where I could be successful on my own. I moved out, yet I keep in contact with the ladies of the house and the board members. I have helped three other ladies work through the twelve steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, and I remain active in my home group, even though I have moved 30 minutes away. It's my way of keeping connected with the people who helped me to do what I was unable to do on my own.
My major is actually art. For me, my art is a way that I can escape into the colorful world of my imagination and let go of whatever I'm feeling, be it happy, angry, joyous, or free. And I'd like to use my art and just my testimony to let others know it is possible. I got sober at 36, returned to college at 38, and I'm still reaching goals beyond my own expectations of myself, and I want to help others to know they can do the same.