“What do you know, you freaking monkey?!” The statement pierced deeper than any knife. What deepened the wound was that it came from my closest friend. Tears immediately welled up in my eyes, and it took all the energy I could muster to choke out, “What is wrong with you?” without bursting into tears. The person who had stood beside me since kindergarten now regarded me as some animal, all over a game of basketball. His cruel words echoed through my mind. Attending a Catholic, predominantly white institution as the only Black student in my grade, I heard countless remarks like this. As a child, I took pride in my Ethiopian heritage. Race was never an issue. But as I matured, my race became the basis for my degradation. Eventually, I lost my sense of self.
The end of elementary school marked a crossroads for my peers and me. The colorblind lenses of my childhood friends shattered and the difference in our skin color became clear as day. Racial targeting began as middle school progressed. Initially, I brushed off the racist mistreatment as nothing more than a running joke, but it began to seep into my mind. My inability to accept myself began in small ways, like wanting to spike my curly hair to match my classmates. It intensified into nights of endless crying because my skin made me feel so alienated from my peers. The pride I’d once felt in my heritage was engulfed in the shadow of conformism. The others became only more vile, with venomous slurs rolling off their tongue like acid searing my skin. Their hatred slowly infiltrated my psyche. When my self-image was at its lowest, a single visit to my high school’s club fair changed everything. There, I found the club that would help me reinvent myself.
Upon reading the poster for the Black Student Union, I realized the club was a community of students with similar backgrounds, and the thought of meeting people who could understand the struggles I faced electrified me. Discovering a club dedicated to Black empowerment was a shock, given my past experiences. But at the first meeting, I was welcomed with open arms. For the first time in years, I felt comfortable in my own skin. Sticking with the club was a no-brainer, and as time advanced, I yearned to discover more of my ancestors and the rich culture they passed down. As I learned more about the resilience of my forefathers, I began to feel pride where I had once felt shame. The Black Student Union instilled in me a level of racial identity that my younger self never could have fathomed.
Without struggle, there is no success. If I had never faced these hardships, I would still be indifferent about my heritage. These experiences have motivated me to pursue a legal career, intent on aiding minorities facing racial injustice. I have always been interested in the law, and incorporating my loathing for racial injustice into my legal career would allow me to meaningfully combat it by representing indigent defendants pro bono, many of whom are Black.
My experiences with racism destroyed my self image. By finding a community of people like me, I regained the sense of cultural pride I once lost. Now, I am determined to utilize my passion for the law and my hatred of bigotry to put an end to racial inequity in the criminal justice system.