I have made it this far in life by a miracle because two years ago I lost the person that gave me a reason to live. My daughter was murdered at age 27 by her kid's father leaving 3 kids without parents. She was my first-born and only daughter so I felt like I went with her. There was a hole in my heart and I had to keep going even though I didn’t know where. I lived for her and now I had to live my life for me. Now my grandchildren were a part of my life instead of me living in theirs. So I needed to decide who I wanted to be. My 2 yr old grandbaby loved staying with grandma so I had to be grandma almost all the time so I worked on computers at home. I decided I needed to be my own boss and I needed to know how to manage my time and money so I could give my grandkids the time their mother couldn’t give them. So now I have a purpose. Now I know who I need to be. Financially its going to be hard but I believe I can expect scholarships and grants will help along the way.

When I lost Abby I lost a big part of myself. I also realized what an amazing woman she was. She made me look at myself and realize I wasnt who I wanted to be. Her children were used to family vacations, daily routines, following house rules and never doubting their mother's capabilities. That was not me. I lived day by day and let things fall into place. I couldnt just live on hope. If I wanted to get somewhere in life I needed to get myself there. If I want to be amazing like her I need to live and become amazing.

Generosity to me means having an open heart. If you have a open heart then you will have compassion to anyone or anything. One year my kids and I were going home after going to see my mom. It had been a hard week being a single mom. Well I forgot my wallet and was already at the pump. I was upset because I didn't know how I was going to get us home so I called my sister in tears. A man and woman in a Harley pulled up and as they were leaving he interrupted me and told me it was kinda late so maybe we should get home. I wanted to punch him in the face not understanding his gesture pointing to pump. I lean against the car and look straight at the pump and it read 20.00 prepaid. I couldn't even thank him because he left before I realized how wonderful his generosity was. So I believe generosity matters because any gesture can make someone's day and you not know it.