It was March 2019 when life as I knew it changed instantly. Covid-19 has caused sickness and death to so many people. I knew no one who had died from this disease, but my world came to an extreme halt. I, the social butterfly, could not go to school. I was cast in my middle school play, Into the Woods. I had dance class three days a week and morning practices with my middle school hip-hop team. I had so much to look forward to, but not anymore.
And in the middle of it all, my dad's kidneys stopped working, and he had to start dialysis. All of this happening at once was highly challenging for me. My studio closed its doors during that time because the virus was unpredictable. No one knew what to expect. It was my second year taking dance classes. I was already feeling behind because I found dance later than everyone else my age. The isolation spun me into a depressive state.
Isolated at home with nothing to do and nowhere to go, I had to find a way to cope with the silence. So, I danced!!! I danced in my bedroom, on my back porch, and in my front yard. Dance has significantly impacted my life because it was the one thing I felt was still mine. The impact of dance has taught me that I am still free to be me and express myself no matter where I am or who is watching.
Soon, my studio started having online virtual dance classes. I learned that dance helped me work through my feelings. These life events and how I was coping helped me realize how important dance is to me. How I was feeling about my dad's illness and how I felt about not being able to go to school and socialize. I learned that I could channel all of my hurt, fears, and anxiety into my movements. Dance has allowed me to create a constant emotional outlet that helps me find comfort in times I cannot express through words. It is a tool that has helped me work through difficult times and life's celebrations.
Now, the world is back to normal; I've realized I want to do this for the rest of my life. I would love to share my love for dance with the world. There is so much I want to do. My dreams are to dance professionally and someday teach and choreograph. I want to connect with my community and with young dancers who look like me.
Being an African American dancer in my hometown, where my high school is only 7% African American, I struggle to see anyone who dances looked like me. But, I am reminded of a famous quote by Misty Copeland that says, "Know that you can start late, look different, be uncertain, and still succeed." This quote inspires me the most. Today, I encourage other dancers to follow their dreams no matter how dark things get. This quote is true for anyone who wants to pursue anything in life, not dance alone. In the future, I plan to continue to take any opportunities to influence others in my school, studio, and community. I plan to encourage others to be bold and have the courage to go after the things they desire and, more importantly, help someone along the way. In May 2021, my dad got a kidney transplant from a fellow officer in blue, and he's doing great. Today, I dance, and he is right there to support me.