As an eighth grader, I wanted to take my own life. This statement holds such unbearable weight as I look back on my young teenage years. Like many other teenagers, I am no stranger to the stigma around mental illness in our society. Even after overcoming my suicidal thoughts, I struggled with depression, anxiety, eating disorders, and self-harm for several years, and I was terrified of admitting that I needed help. I grieve for our society, that we poison our children with toxic individualism. This rugged refusal to seek help devastates so many families, including my own. Still struggling with my own mental health at the age of sixteen, I talked one of my closest friends out of committing suicide. I am so grateful that my friend is still alive and thriving today, and this experience made me realize how grateful I am that I did not decide to take my own life at the tender age of thirteen. Both of us have a second chance at living – but, as Jake’s story shows, not everyone is so blessed. After helping my friend out of the same situation I once experienced, I realized that so many others suffer in silence. Roughly one in five teenagers struggle with clinical depression, and nearly a third struggle with anxiety. Even with these crippling statistics, our society still harbors the stigma that people with mental health issues are somehow unusual, pathetic, or asking for attention. So often, teenagers feel like there is no hope for their lives, even though we’ve barely experienced a sliver of truly living. Adolescence brings many difficulties, but it also nurtures the joy of meeting one’s first real friends, of discovering budding gifts and talents, of making one’s first life decisions, and of enjoying one’s last few years of childhood. I hope that through a career in psychology, I can help teenagers discover this joy and realize that there truly is hope for their lives. I’ve always been passionate about psychology, but my own mental health struggles and my motivation to help others intensify this passion. I’ve also discovered a passion for Music Therapy. I am double-majoring in Psychology and Music Therapy in the fall, eventually hoping to open a private therapy practice and earn my Board Certification in Music Therapy. I hope to specialize in teenagers' mental health because the suicide rate for teenagers has drastically increased over the past decade. Through my work, I hope to create a welcoming and non-judgemental platform for teenagers to feel safe and supported in asking for help. Once I've established a private practice, I hope to offer free counseling services to my community for lower-income families who might not be able (or willing) to provide mental health services for their children. I’ve seen the tragic effects suicide and mental illnesses have on my family and the families of my close friends. However, these experiences have inspired me to create real change, and I hope to help teenagers find joy in their adolescence, all while raising awareness for suicide prevention. I am honored simply to apply for this scholarship and to know about Jake's story, and if I receive the scholarship, I hope to use it to achieve the most possible good for other teenagers like him.

As an eighth grader, I wanted to take my own life. This statement holds such unbearable weight as I look back on my young teenage years. Like many other teenagers, I am no stranger to the stigma around mental illness in our society. Even after overcoming my suicidal thoughts, I struggled with depression, anxiety, eating disorders, and self-harm for several years, and I was terrified of admitting that I needed help. I grieve for our society, that we poison our children with toxic individualism. This rugged refusal to seek help devastates so many families, including my own. Still struggling with my own mental health at the age of sixteen, I talked one of my closest friends out of committing suicide. He was the same age that Mattie Wilmoth was when he died. I am so grateful that my friend is still alive and thriving today, and this experience made me realize how grateful I am that I did not decide to take my own life at the tender age of thirteen. Both of us have a second chance at living – but, as Mattie’s story shows, not everyone is so blessed. After helping my friend out of the same situation I once experienced, I realized that so many others suffer in silence. Roughly one in five teenagers struggle with clinical depression, and nearly a third struggle with anxiety. Even with these crippling statistics, our society still harbors the stigma that people with mental health issues are somehow unusual, pathetic, or asking for attention. So often, teenagers feel like there is no hope for their lives, even though we’ve barely experienced a sliver of truly living. Adolescence brings many difficulties, but it also nurtures the joy of meeting one’s first real friends, of discovering budding gifts and talents, of making one’s first life decisions, and of enjoying one’s last few years of childhood. I hope that through a career in psychology, I can help teenagers discover this joy and realize that there truly is hope for their lives. I’ve always been passionate about psychology, but my own mental health struggles and my motivation to help others intensify this passion. I’ve also discovered a passion for Music Therapy. I am double-majoring in Psychology and Music Therapy in the fall, eventually opening a private therapy practice and earning my Board Certification in Music Therapy. I hope to specialize in teenagers so that I can bring more awareness to their mental health and help break down the stigma surrounding it. Through my work, I hope to create a welcoming and non-judgemental platform for teenagers to feel safe and supported in asking for help. I’ve seen the tragic effects suicide and mental illnesses have on my family and the families of my close friends. However, I am amazed by how Mattie’s family has carried on his legacy, creating beautiful opportunities and championing mental health advocacy with the Mattie’s Way Memorial Scholarship. While their wounds and the wounds caused by mental health issues around our world will never fully heal, the beauty and real change that they’ve created from the worst of circumstances inspires me to do the same. I hope to help teenagers create beauty from their suffering, learn to embrace their emotional scars, and find joy in their adolescence, all while raising awareness for mental health issues through my career. I am honored simply to apply for this scholarship and to know about Mattie’s story, and if I receive the scholarship, I hope to use it to achieve the most possible good for other teenagers like him.