I need to own a difficult truth: I was once codependent on marijuana. Many people minimize the severity of this, often viewing it as a natural, non-addictive substance. However, for me, it was a genuine addiction—a spiritual stronghold and a significant mental struggle. I view it as a form of self-confinement, the "shackles" of my own making. I feel perpetually held back by the very mechanism I once embraced for relief. My relationship with marijuana began around the age of eleven as a perceived coping mechanism. Living with ADHD, and with an aversion to pharmaceutical pills and their side effects, smoking provided an adjusted relief. It had help me manage sleep, navigate the intensity of my anger and interpersonal conflict, and offers a temporary escape from stress, heartache, and general pain. It was a constant, daily presence—a "partner" or a "contract" that I use to rely on. The deep conflict was that I genuinely wish to quit, yet I had felt held by this dependence. The fear surrounding this truth is especially acute because of the professional path I have chosen, where marijuana use is frowned upon. The subtle, yet persistent, smell on my clothing created an indirect embarrassment, though I strive to own my reality. I am my own hardest critic, and this issue had significantly contributed to me delaying my return to school. Despite this past daily struggle, I am simultaneously finding success and proving significant resilience. I have kept a strong 3.0 GPA in challenging subjects. This achievement is a true testament to an underlying strength that persists even as the core dependence lies dormant —it had become an ingrained hobby rather than a mere habit—I had begun to recognize it for what it was. I had a history of profound trauma: abuse, exploitation, depression, and anxiety. I have battled and overcome these demons, but marijuana is the one constant battle that continued to lurk. I recognize that the ultimate and proper source of dependence and strength should exist in a higher power—in God. This is my reality and my current fight. It is my truth, and I continue to pray for the strength to break this spiritual stronghold. My dependence was a powerful opponent, but it is one I am actively fighting. A crucial step in addressing this codependency is engaging with structured support, specifically through Marijuana Anonymous (MA). This resource is a free, accessible 12-Step program designed to aid individuals in recovery from marijuana addiction. It has allowed me to continue to take personal inventory, and when I am wrong, I promptly admit it. I admit I am powerless over marijuana; that my life was unmanageable. As I continue to admit this daily, I understand the obstacles that I once belonged to. My academic journey is nearing a critical transition point. I am close to completing my associate's degree, with only statistics and math left. The next major step is the exciting prospect of transferring to the NAU Yuma campus to begin my bachelor’s degree. This strategic move stands for more than just a change of location; it is an active effort to align myself with the right opportunities, environment, and network of people essential to achieving my long-term personal and professional goals and my forward momentum proves that the desire for a future free of these "shackles" is a powerful, sustaining force.

My journey into caregiving began long before I had children of my own, rooted in the foundational experiences of my youth. As the eldest granddaughter, a girl burdened with significant responsibility, I helped care for my younger cousins and an aunt who, despite being older, appeared physically younger and possessed a distinct understanding of the world. This unique situation provided invaluable in-house experience, teaching me not only to love but also to truly comprehend their needs and desires. Daily rituals formed the bedrock of our support. Mornings started with prayer, a deep connection to our faith, followed by assisting my great-grandmother with transfers and ensuring the house remained spotless. My aunt often preferred playing with us on the floor rather than being confined to her chair, knowing the importance of keeping our floors neat. Sundays brought the particular responsibility of disassembling her wheelchair for transport, a task I managed. These early experiences equipped me with a creative passion for assisting others, a skill that served me well in subsequent roles caring for strangers at various life stages. I learned to navigate diverse dietary restrictions, understand medication protocols, and grasp different coping mechanisms. The stories I encountered were often fascinating, adding immense value to my life and deepening my commitment to kindness—a kindness I wish to receive and for my family to experience, even in my absence. This desire for pure, selfless gestures, motivated by faith, led me to pursue a career in social work. Here, I aim to offer guidance toward self-sufficiency and be a continued presence for those in need. Caregiving has shaped me into the best version of myself, influencing my roles as a mother, a student, and a professional. It has determined how my actions can enhance the lives of others, create relationships, and broaden my understanding of a world where obstacles are consistently overcome. The Cariloop’s Caregiver Scholarship holds significance for me. It not only recognizes the invaluable role of caregivers but also motivates me to excel academically and as a sole care provider. This scholarship eases financial strain, enabling my daughter's orthodontics and securing vital work licenses, such as an Arizona Level One Fingerprint Clearance Card, to obtain quality work while I complete my degree. Ultimately, this support will enable me to consistently pursue my goals. I aim to show that dedicated effort can lead to powerful experiences, touching others through my writing and the journey of my life.

Reflecting on my past shadowed by both physical and mental abuse has taught me deep lessons, the most significant being the transformative power of self-love and investment. While this reality shapes a part of my journey, it does not define my present journey. Today, I stand proud as my soul is free of depression, first-generation, second-year student at Arizona Western Community College, driven by a commitment to growth and service. My academic pursuits have instilled in me the principle of cultural humility. It's more than just knowing different cultures exist; it's about constantly learning and really looking inward at my own hidden biases and assumptions. It necessitates a conscious effort to actively listen to and center their lived experiences as African American survivors of domestic violence, it means making sure their stories are truly heard and understood, without my own opinions or assumptions getting in the way. Furthermore, my education has provided critical insights into the historical and ongoing trauma faced by the African American community. This deep-seated trauma significantly influences help-seeking behaviors, the degree of trust placed in societal systems, and the efficacy of various support mechanisms. Understanding this problem is relevant to providing meaningful assistance. To this end, I am committed to utilizing culturally relevant assessment tools and interventions. Asking questions such as "What are some of the traditional ways Black women in your family or community have coped with difficult situations?" These approaches acknowledge the inherent strengths and remarkable battles we have overcome within the African American community. This will also address the specific cultural factors that intricately shape the experience of domestic violence and the subsequent journey of recovery. Understanding this means recognizing how important family, community connections, and faith are in giving vital support. My commitment extends to actively advocating for and facilitating access to culturally specific resources within the community. This includes establishing connections with Black-led organizations that possess a deep understanding of the community's needs and have established trust. This also means connecting with churches and other faith groups, which are often key support systems, and making sure survivors can get mental health care that truly understands and respects their specific experiences as African American women. My social work training has really explained how important it is to understand systems theory. This way of thinking highlights the complicated ways different organizations, like the police, doctors, housing programs, and lawyers, work together (or often don't work well together) and how that affects survivors. Knowing how these systems operate (and where they fall short) is important for supporting our survivors through their challenges. Communicating clearly and with sensitivity is absolutely vital. I will be very aware of the nuances in language and the diverse ways people communicate within the African American community. Making sure what I say is clear, respectful of their culture, and truly understood will help me build stronger relationships and earn their trust. Being completely open and honest will be the foundation of how I interact with others. Earning trust is especially important considering the history of unfair treatment and oppression, which can make people wary of systems that are supposed to help. By being honest and open in everything I do, my goal is to build relationships based on respect and a shared understanding. Ultimately, my main aim is to help create fair and just results for African American women who have experienced domestic violence. This means making sure they get services that truly understand and respect their culture, are proven to work, meet their specific needs, and support their path to healing and freedom.

Hello, I am a woman who has been actively participating in individual, family, and group therapy, as well as psychological counseling, to address past life trauma. Without mental health support, I might have followed through with an exit plan, leaving behind my three children. Seeking help when feeling fearful, uncertain, and alone was the best decision I made for myself. Overcoming suicidal ideation is a real challenge that lingers in times of great fear. Knowing that I have a plan, and resources helps me look forward to brighter days and see my reality clearly. I am now a second-year, first-generation student with a desire to obtain my MSW. I started at Arizona Western College and plan to transfer to Northern Arizona University (NAU), where the celebration begins! Women’s experiences with mental health have profoundly shaped their beliefs, relationships, and career aspirations. These experiences have underscored the importance of understanding and addressing gender-specific challenges, leading to a greater emphasis on empathy, support, and open communication in various aspects of life. Influence on Beliefs and Relationships My mental health experiences have highlighted the necessity of recognizing and addressing unique stressors that I face. These stressors include balancing career and family responsibilities, societal expectations, and potential trauma. As a result, there has been a significant shift towards fostering more inclusive and supportive environments. In my relationships, this understanding has led to a greater emphasis on empathy and support. I have become more vocal about my mental health needs, encouraging open communication and mutual understanding. This shift has not only strengthened personal relationships but also promoted a culture of mental health awareness and acceptance. Moreover, the recognition of gender-specific mental health challenges has influenced societal beliefs. I now see a broader acknowledgment of the importance of mental health care tailored to women’s needs. This has led to increased advocacy for mental health resources and support systems that cater specifically to women, promoting a more inclusive approach to mental health care. Making a Positive Impact If I were to envision a career in mental health, my focus would be on making a positive impact through advocacy, research, and support. Here are some key areas where I would aim to contribute: Advocacy and Awareness: Promoting mental health awareness and reducing stigma through education and community outreach would be a primary goal. By raising awareness about mental health issues and the unique challenges women face, I would aim to create a more informed and supportive society. Research and Innovation: Contributing to research that explores the unique mental health needs of women and developing innovative treatment approaches would be another focus. This research would help identify effective interventions and support systems tailored to women’s needs, improving mental health outcomes. Support and Empowerment: Creating support networks and resources that empower women to seek help and build resilience would be essential. By providing accessible and effective mental health resources, I would aim to empower women to take control of their mental health and well-being. In addition to these specific areas, I would also strive to create a more inclusive and supportive environment within the mental health field. This would involve advocating for policies and practices that promote diversity and inclusion, ensuring that all individuals, regardless of gender, have access to the mental health care they need.

The experiences of women with mental health have profoundly shaped my goals, relationships, and understanding of the world. I have witnessed the strength, resilience, and vulnerability of women navigating mental health challenges, and their experiences have inspired me to become an advocate for mental health awareness and support. My mother's journey with depression has significantly impacted my life. I remember the quiet days when she would withdraw into herself, the sadness that would cloud her eyes, and the effort she put into maintaining a facade of normalcy. Watching her struggle taught me about the invisible nature of mental illness, the importance of seeking help, and the power of empathy and compassion. Her experience also instilled in me a deep desire to understand mental health and to break down the stigma surrounding it. I witnessed firsthand the challenges women face in accessing mental health care. My mother's journey was marked by obstacles, including limited resources, financial constraints, and a lack of understanding from healthcare providers. These experiences sparked my interest in social justice and advocacy, and I became determined to work towards creating a more equitable and accessible mental health system. My mother's resilience and her ability to overcome adversity have been a source of inspiration for me. Despite her struggles, she never gave up on herself or her dreams. She found ways to cope with her depression, to connect with others, and to build a meaningful life. Her example taught me the importance of self-care, resilience, and hope. My experiences with my mother have also shaped my understanding of the intersection of gender and mental health. Women are more likely than men to experience certain mental health conditions, such as depression and anxiety. They are also more likely to face stigma and discrimination when seeking help. This understanding has motivated me to advocate for gender-sensitive mental health care and to challenge harmful stereotypes about women's mental health. My mother's experience with depression has also influenced my relationships. I have learned the importance of open communication, empathy, and support in my relationships with friends and family. I have also become more mindful of the mental health needs of others and have made it a priority to create a safe and supportive environment for those around me. My experiences with my mother have shaped my goals in life. I am passionate about becoming a mental health professional and working to improve the lives of women who are struggling with mental illness. I am also committed to advocating for mental health awareness and breaking down the stigma surrounding mental health. In addition to my mother's experience, I have also been deeply impacted by the experiences of my female friends and colleagues with mental health. I have witnessed their strength, resilience, and vulnerability as they navigate their own challenges. Their experiences have taught me about the importance of community, support, and self-compassion. I have learned that mental health is a complex issue with no easy answers. It is influenced by a variety of factors, including genetics, environment, and social factors. I have also learned that mental health is not something to be ashamed of. It is a normal and natural part of the human experience. The experiences of women with mental health have shaped my goals, relationships, and understanding of the world in profound ways. I am grateful for the opportunity to learn from their experiences and to be inspired by their resilience and strength. I am committed to using my voice and my platform to advocate for mental health awareness and support, and to create a more compassionate and inclusive world for all.

This semester, I embarked on a transformative journey through Parent Effectiveness Training (P.E.T.), which honed my parenting skills beyond what I previously considered proficient. The six-step "no-lose" method was pivotal, allowing me to pinpoint and articulate conflicts, and fostering active listening to better support my children and collaboratively find optimal solutions. The distinction between "You-Messages" and "I-Messages" became clear, a revelation that came just as my sister gained custody of my nephew. To support her, I've shared P.E.T. materials and workbooks, taking pride in being her go-to for guidance and resources as she navigates motherhood. It's heartwarming to see my nephew thrive under the care of a parent who's mastering the art of reliability. This support has significantly eased my sister's stress, especially amidst ongoing legal matters, showcasing her ability to forge a positive path for herself and her son. Our video calls often include discussions on the benefits of engaging hobbies, which can uplift one's spirits and fill a day with purpose, even outside of work or school. My research into California's support systems led to connections with food banks, the LIHEAP program, and holiday services like the Salvation Army and local toy drives. Additionally, I found a state-funded program that helped repair her car, ensuring it was roadworthy and insured. Before this, I advised her to explore the McKinney-Vento Act, which offers rights and services to those experiencing homelessness—a game-changing resource that opened doors to further assistance. My commitment to aiding those in need remains steadfast, whether they actively seek my help or are unaware of my presence. I'm dedicated to being a pillar of support, sharing knowledge, and empowering others on their life's journey.

Indeed, my past experiences have significantly influenced my career aspirations to delve into the field of social work. During some of the most challenging times in my life, when surrender seemed like the only option, I found myself contemplating actions that would have imposed a heavy burden on my mother and others involved in my life. In those moments, I looked at my children and reassured myself that no one else could provide for them the way I could. Even though I lacked a concrete plan or motivation to continue existing, my children always served as a stark reminder of reality. They compelled me to be strong when weakness seemed like the only option. I was relieved when a trusted individual broke down barriers and confided in me about their therapy sessions, which were significantly improving their life. This prompted me to research therapists in my area and check if my insurance would cover the costs. I was given the option of group or one-on-one sessions. At that time, my pride prevented me from being open and honest with myself, so I opted for individual sessions. During the first session, I was guarded. Despite assurances that they were not passing judgment, I was hesitant to open up and confront the reality I was facing. However, over time, I became more comfortable and started making better plans for myself under their guidance. I began to understand that I was not alone in this journey. I accepted that needing mental support would not result in my children being taken away from me, and that it was okay to set this example for them. I appreciated becoming self-reliant and not entirely depending on others to fix my reality. I did not disclose my struggles to my family but found faith and consistency in it. I became aware of my triggers and learned how to manage them. I was able to establish healthy boundaries in family, business, and personal social relationships. Establishing a rapport with someone who genuinely had my best interests at heart was both impressive and rare. I now see the light that has been shed and know that trained professionals are here to support me. The ability of a person to let me talk through my reality without interrupting my train of thought, adding their bias, or making the conversation about themselves is a skill I am learning to acquire. I aspire to guide others towards a better understanding of themselves. I want to passionately learn about you and help you gain personal clarity and self-worth. I want you to know that everything can and will be accomplished if you make a plan and stay consistent. Your life will be what you make it. I am a testament to this reality! Mental health is a grave concern, and many of us often feel isolated, lacking sufficient resources and consistent, genuine support. Be sure to check in on your friends, colleagues, and peers. Stay alert to any signs that may be evident, and don't hesitate to ask if someone is okay. This simple question could potentially save a life - it saved mine.

In assembling a team to confront a new supernatural menace threatening the peace of our community, I've chosen Robin Buckley, who made her debut in the third season. Robin's courage in embracing her identity as a lesbian, including her past crush on Tammy Thompson, is inspiring. Her representation as a member of the LGBTQ community, living with love rather than fear, is truly commendable. Robin's quick wit and resourcefulness are invaluable assets. Her insight into complex matters, like the Russian code incident, showcases her intelligence. Not only can she twist her tongue around Russian, but she's also fluent in Spanish, Italian, French, and even Pig Latin—a language my cousins and I mistakenly thought we'd invented, only to be humorously corrected by our grandmother. Joining Robin is Mike Wheeler. While he lacks superpowers, his exemplary leadership and unwavering loyalty are rare and precious traits. His dedication to his friends and ability to foster strong bonds within his circle are the hallmarks of a true leader. Completing this formidable trio is Eleven. Her telekinetic abilities are the superpowers I've always desired. Eleven's empathy and resolve are qualities I deeply admire, mirroring my own determination to turn dreams into reality. Her protective instincts not only shield her friends from the dangers of the Upside Down but also exemplify genuine leadership. Leadership manifests in various forms—it's not about being the loudest or most assertive. It's about making choices for the collective benefit, standing up for justice, and supporting others in their time of need. This is the essence and the lineup of my squad as we prepare to face new supernatural challenges.

Currently, I'm facing a conflict of interest. As the fall semester approaches, the idea of interrupting my academic journey fills me with apprehension. The dilemma arises as my son is set to start kindergarten part-time, and it's uncertain whether his Individualized Education Program (IEP) will provide him with transportation. This new challenge means I may have to take all my classes online or attend night classes. Since I'm an early riser, I suspect that night classes might not be the most effective. The need to stay alert in the evening would necessitate a significant change in my routine. Waking up feeling lethargic could make learning and remembering information challenging during night classes. As the day unfolds, I tend to become restless. My day typically begins at five in the morning with tasks such as checking emails, completing coursework or homework, and seeking and applying for scholarships. These activities could potentially hinder my ability to focus and excel in night classes. Nevertheless, I am willing to adapt and give it a shot. After all, the only way to determine what works best for me is to try it out. I'm diligently searching on Care.com for a trustworthy nanny for my son and my home. However, even when I find a suitable candidate, the question of how to pay for their services remains. The world is not aligning with me, and I'm on the verge of a setback. I find it unfair that I must be gainfully employed to qualify for childcare in my county. As a full-time student with more than one child with special needs, I should be eligible for some assistance. It seems unjust that I can't juggle a full-time job while pursuing my educational goals. I fear that I might fail in this endeavor. I yearn to stay focused, especially now that I've rediscovered my passion. Sometimes, I cry because I regret not taking my education seriously when I was younger. Motherhood feels never-ending, and I wonder when I'll finally have the opportunity to chase my dreams. I thought this was my time, but my moment might not fully arrive until my youngest was in first grade. I may have to postpone this goal once again. I pray that I remain eager to return to school and don't get trapped in a cycle of dead-end jobs while waiting for my time. I fear returning to full-time work will consume me, and it might be years before I can tackle a significant challenge like pursuing higher education. I'm not okay with returning to work because I need to pursue my change now. While I know I'm never too old, getting caught in a cycle of uncertainty could disrupt my mental state. If I can't achieve my long-term goal of obtaining my master's at ASU, I at least want to complete my associate degree at Arizona Western College. I worry that my aspirations are too high, with a slim chance of achieving them without adequate family support within commuting distance and bearing all the responsibilities. I don't want to overwhelm myself and burden myself by trying to be a supermom. This will help alleviate the depression I feel I'm about to face. I will pray for all the angels to align and continue to guide my steps, leading with faith and not by sight. This funding will keep me chasing my dreams and make them my reality.

I've come to appreciate the vital role of positive mental health in my everyday life, independent of external assistance. This understanding emerged after adopting various coping strategies, which lessened my prior reliance on distant relatives and friends for emotional support. Unlike professionals trained to manage such issues, I've realized that not all those I trusted were ready or capable of bearing the burden I placed on them. With a clear mind, I can accomplish more tasks on my agenda. Now energized, I actively engage in numerous activities with my children. We relish our time at the trampoline park, savor bike rides in the park, and utilize our valid Arizona fishing license. We're also invited to join friends for boating trips at Lake Havasu. Our library cards enable us to participate in events on their schedule, such as the story time series, chess and coffee, Dot Art involving the application of fabric paint in dots or lines, and Briny Bingo. This game quizzes our knowledge about letters, animals, food, and other fascinating subjects. I treasure the time I now possess, and my children are delighted that I'm keen to partake in these activities. When my mental state is positive, I am more inventive and self-sufficient, confidently charting my course. I aim to be a robust example and leader, capable of independently achieving objectives. I show my daughter the inner strength we all have, even though she has seen my battles with domestic violence, the quest for acceptance, body shaming, and other adverse experiences. Uncovering the light within has been a therapeutic journey, enhancing my self-esteem. To preserve my mental health, I engage in seminars, watch TEDx talks, and revisit hobbies that bring me happiness. It's easy to lose sight of oneself and one's passions when grappling with mental health issues. However, coming full circle has enabled me to immerse myself in DIY projects, create vision boards, partake in personal activities, and be mindful of my diet, sleep, and the positive energy I radiate to others through my smile and communication. I'm dedicated to raising awareness about this frequently neglected issue and advocating for the ongoing recognition of positive mental health reinforcement. Good mental health facilitates invaluable dialogues and energy exchanges that everyone should experience. I take pride in proactively maintaining my mental health in a positive state. My willingness to share stems from recognizing the significance of my mental well-being and its potential impact on those around me.

I confessed to being caught in a cycle of depression following the birth of my second child. The initial phase was postpartum depression, a mood disorder that affects mothers after childbirth. This is typically a short-term disorder, and indeed, it was for me. However, it also served as a gateway to more profound depression, such as Persistent Depressive Disorder (PDD), often referred to as “high-functioning depression.” From an outsider’s perspective, individuals with this type of depression appear to function normally. In reality, however, the symptoms impacted my daily life and had long-lasting effects. Despite feeling vulnerable, I was still perceived as functioning well by those who didn’t inquire further, maintaining my social productivity. This experience illuminated my resilience. Regardless of the labels others might apply to me, I refuse to be defined or overwhelmed by their words. I live authentically, understanding that my efforts will shape the outcomes of my current and future circumstances. I will remain strong, whether someone checks on me or not, knowing that no obstacle is insurmountable. My newfound understanding is that people will judge a book by its cover, never delving into the pages to comprehend that these pages are torn, damp, and have weathered sorrow. I am the embodiment of an experience I didn’t fully understand. I became a statistic and transformed it. I live, learn, and love.

Tobey Maguire’s portrayal of our cherished hero has left a lasting impression on me through the years. His portrayal wasn’t just about his charming smile but how he brought depth to the villains. His affection for Mary Jane felt authentic. The design of his suit was impressive, and I think his Spiderman costume was fantastic. His dedication to protecting Spiderman’s identity was unwavering, despite the villains knowing who he was and their relentless pursuit. His relationship with his aunt felt incredibly real and heartfelt, mirroring the bond I shared with my grandmother. The ingenious ways he kept his Spiderman alter-ego from Mary Jane, like the iconic upside-down kiss, were brilliant. Maguire truly shone in his role, and he relished it. The fact that this movie was produced in Los Angeles, California, adds to its appeal. Maguire was the perfect fit for Spiderman in the first and second films. The Marvel Comics film series’ soundtrack, especially the song “My Nutmeg Phantasy (Morello Mix)” by Macy Gray featuring Angie Stone and Mos Def, had an uplifting vibe that I adore. The contributions of Macy Gray, Lonnie Marshall, Keith Ciancia, Tom Ralls, Finn Hammer, and Darryl Swann to the soundtrack were instrumental in creating its elevated atmosphere.

In my early years, I was prone to making hasty decisions fueled by adrenaline and emotions I didn't fully understand. My perception of the future was nebulous; I never considered the prospect of having children or how my choices would affect my ability to offer a stable life. I lived by the motto, "I can sleep when I die." In 2019, I lacked consistent employment or the necessary education to embark on a career. After much prayer, I sought a job that offered stability beyond the temporary work I was used to. I managed to secure an interview and moved on to the onboarding phase. However, HR informed me that my employment depended on one individual's decision. The meeting with him reinforced my faith—I had the opportunity to explain my past. After our conversation, he permitted me to continue training under the stipulation that I address my criminal record within six months or at least start the process and keep him informed. The persistent shadow of my past errors took me aback. Despite having paid fines and served time, I was unaware that my record remained readily available to employers and educational institutions. It was a harsh lesson in the enduring impact of one's actions—how these incidents become public records even after serving one's sentence. I embarked on a journey to rectify the legal issues from my youth, obtaining the necessary documents from the relevant states. Driven by self-acquired wisdom and steadfast determination, I corrected my previous errors. During my time at the hospital, I amassed a substantial collection of personal and professional endorsements to supplement the paperwork required for my application. My goal was clear: obtain a Level One Fingerprint Clearance Card while maintaining consistent employment. I understood that the absence of this particular card would impose restrictions on my career and educational opportunities—restrictions I refused to accept. My goal was to ensure a future filled with boundless possibilities. This task was among the most challenging I had ever faced. Despite the demanding period, the results of my efforts were lasting and gratifying. The experience highlighted my unquenched desire for knowledge, sparking a passion for self-improvement, embracing a life free from fear, and acknowledging my aspiration to pursue further education to overcome obstacles. As I find myself in 2024, I take pride in my quiet achievements. I am journeying along my chosen path, having seized a second chance to surpass my previous self.

Embarking on an academic journey as a non-traditional student and a mother of three, I stand at the precipice of change for myself and my family. My eldest child, a beacon of ambition, is navigating the path of early high school graduation, a testament to the resilience and determination that courses through our veins. I am a testament to survival, a beacon of hope for those who have faced doubt and adversity. My journey has been one of faith, a guiding light for the watchful eyes of my children, and a reassurance to my mother, whose legacy I carry forward with pride and purpose. I am the embodiment of courage over fear. My aspirations in social work are deeply rooted in personal experience. As someone who has navigated the complexities of the legal system, I understand the invaluable role of a Crime Victim Advocate. There was a time when I, too, was lost in the labyrinth of rights and options, mentally shaken and in dire need of guidance. At no cost, the court’s provision of a victim advocate was a beacon of insight and information. This experience illuminated my path and instilled in me a profound gratitude for the helping hand that reached out to me in my darkest hour. The question guiding my pursuit is: How do we, advocates, forge a bond with those unaware of their need for support? It is this very question that fuels my desire for the scholarship. I have traversed the same rugged terrain that many others find themselves in, and it is my calling to illuminate their path, to help them grasp the full extent of their rights and the possibilities that lie ahead. My commitment to social work is born from a place of empathy and understanding. I have witnessed firsthand the challenges within the California Child Protective Services system, as my nephew was once trapped within its confines. Participating in the kinship program and discovering resources previously unknown to me has galvanized my resolve to be an agent of change in the lives of others. I stand before you, a candidate for this scholarship, not merely as an individual seeking aid but as a symbol of hope and transformation. My experiences have taught me valuable lessons and equipped me with the empathy and understanding necessary to be the pillar of strength and the comforting shoulder for those in need. Choosing the path of social work is a decision that resonates with the core of my being. It is a calling that transcends the personal and touches the lives of countless individuals. My journey is one of empowerment, not only for myself but for every life that I may feel along the way. With this spirit, I seek to embark on a career that is not just a profession but a promise—a promise to be part of the change in someone’s reality, the voice for the voiceless, and the hope for the hopeless. In this pursuit, I am not just a student or a mother; I am a warrior for justice, an advocate for the vulnerable, and a champion for change.

My warm and inviting smile reflects my sincere desire to listen to your stories and assist you in finding constructive solutions or resources you may seek. This trait is a personal commitment and the core of my passion for social work. My journey begins at the grassroots level, where I aim to forge meaningful connections with those who feel marginalized or out of place. My own experiences have taught me the value of humility and resourcefulness. Whether it was seeking food or rental assistance, behavioral assessments for my children, or therapy for myself, I have learned to embrace the support systems available. Utilizing these resources supported my family and allowed me to establish connections that would have otherwise been out of reach. The assistance I received came with a list of resources, which, whether immediately needed or not, became a safety net I knew was there for me. In times of vulnerability, I found solace and support in these services, and they, in turn, empowered me. My ability to attract people stems not from a desire to delve into their hardships but to share in the joy of their triumphs. My smile is an invitation—a beacon of hope and curiosity. It's a smile that says I care, that I'm here to help, and that I am committed to being a catalyst for positive change in the lives of children, women, and men alike. This intrinsic motivation, coupled with the knowledge and skills I have acquired, will drive my professional aspirations. As a social worker, I envision myself as a provider of aid and a partner in the journey towards empowerment and self-sufficiency. My approach is one of compassion and empathy, recognizing that each individual's story is unique and deserving of attention. In this role, I will strive to be a source of encouragement and a growth facilitator. I believe that by working together, we can overcome obstacles and build a stronger, more inclusive community. My commitment to social work is unwavering, and I am eager to contribute to the field with my heart and expertise. Through active listening, genuine engagement, and a steadfast dedication to service, I will endeavor to make a lasting impact on the lives of those I serve. This is my pledge as a social worker, and it is with this spirit that I will pursue my career goals. Thank you for this opportunity to showcase my qualifications.

This opportunity is authentic because I had lost faith in myself. My faith now guides me on my current path. I am a survivor of both physical and mental abuse. Nine years ago, according to my faith, I made a commitment for all the right reasons. I experienced life, learned, loved, gave birth, struggled, and even contemplated ending my life, all under the umbrella of my vows. In my quest to understand my partner, I began comprehending what it means to be broken, complete, and unified. As the woman of my house, traditionally led by the man, I sought to learn new positive things, even though it meant facing some darkness. Setting up a new home in Colorado and finding a traditional church was thrilling. During this time, I was enduring abuse from my now ex-husband, which I hid from my family and friends, isolating myself and not seeking help. We were homeless, living on E. Colfax Avenue, and I was using The Gathering Place, a day center for women, transgender individuals, and their children. My faith was rejuvenated here. I saw women confronting their realities and overcoming their circumstances. I could look for work, wash my clothes for free, and was given a meal ticket and a safe space with counselors available if needed. Fast forward eight months, and we had saved enough to live in Thorton, CO. The walls, I assumed, were the safest, but they held more horror stories than one could imagine. The physical abuse became unbearable; we conceived amidst the chaos, and the state of CO issued a restraining order between my then-husband and me. Who would have thought? My faith was in constant turmoil as I hoped for a change in my marriage. I didn’t understand the signs of depression until therapy revealed that I am a high-functioning individual with depression. What a reality check! It was June 2017, and I had to inform him that our child would soon be born. I prayed he could witness this beautiful moment of childbirth—my faith. I found my prayers to be soothing and redirecting. Despite the protective order, I didn’t want him to miss this chance to create a lasting memory. Throughout my pregnancy, I regained faith, not in the hope that things would improve, but in the desire to seek change when I realized I was in a harmful situation that could jeopardize my reality if I didn’t understand that looking back could turn me into a pillar of salt. I won’t let him consume me, but he will teach me a lesson. I will protect my children, provide for them, and lead through faith, not sight.

In pursuing support, one often encounters many challenges that can weigh heavily internally and externally. These challenges become particularly pronounced when individuals confront the societal stigma or personal distress of seeking help. As a mother of three, I am faced with a poignant dilemma: the reluctance to impose upon my child, who is still savoring the bliss of a carefree existence devoid of parental duties. As a woman who values self-reliance, the mere thought of requesting assistance is fraught with hesitation. The internal struggle is real; reaching out for help can erode my self-esteem and cast a shadow of doubt over my ability to solve problems independently. Yet, the financial burdens of childcare loom large, adding to the already complex role of being a student parent. Despite my full-time student status, I find myself ineligible for childcare assistance, whether part-time or full-time. In my locality, the Department of Economic Security (DES) stipulates gainful employment as a condition for childcare support—an unjust requirement. Striving to balance a full-time job would inevitably undermine my academic endeavors, hindering my ability to engage deeply with the course content. This predicament is further exacerbated by my limited availability, dictated by my preschool-aged child's schedule, which only spans three hours of school, including the bus commute. Residing a mere twenty minutes from my campus, I am among the nearly two-fifths African American college students who are also parents. Moreover, as a First-Generation College Student and a single mother of three, I navigate this educational odyssey with the added complexity of low-income status, complicating my journey toward a degree. Having left behind the familial and friendly support network I once cherished, I embarked on this new academic venture with steadfast determination. As a full-time student, I harbored expectations that support services would be readily accessible for both my children and me. However, life's unpredictability is akin to cradling a carton of eggs—delicate and precarious. I sometimes teeter on the edge—will I glide gracefully or falter? The uncertainty is intimidating, but I embrace it with resolve, aspiring to emerge from this experience intact and transformed. I've woven the complexities of seeking support with the resilience of a single mother pursuing higher education. The journey is fraught with obstacles, yet it is also a testament to the human spirit's capacity to persevere and thrive amidst adversity. The quest for support is not merely a reflection of need but a courageous step towards self-improvement and empowerment. The scholarship presents an opportunity to alleviate some of the financial burdens. With this assistance, I could engage a dedicated young professional eager to support a family's childcare needs. This would afford me additional time, easing the pressure of racing through traffic to adhere to strict pick-up schedules and avoiding the stress of potential reports filed for tardiness. Furthermore, it would enable me to be present and avail myself of the tutoring support necessary to achieve and sustain a minimum 3.0 GPA. Ultimately, this scholarship could be instrumental in providing the support my children and I need.

Embarking on my journey in social work education, I am cultivating a suite of skills that will serve as the foundation for my budding professional life. With a keen focus on the nuanced layers of social work—micro, mezzo, and macro—I am gaining a holistic understanding that will enable me to navigate the multifaceted landscape of this noble profession. This deep dive into the complexities of social work will empower me to embody the principle that every individual can effectuate change, and it is incumbent upon each of us to endeavor to do so. Volunteerism, often woven into the fabric of our academic curriculum, is not merely a box to be checked. It is a vital component of our educational tapestry, offering rich, transformative experiences that enhance our grasp of social work and facilitate personal growth. From the outset of my collegiate experience, I have meticulously chronicled my involvement in various student activities. Whether leading a committee, orchestrating Social Work Week, or presenting to peers and community members, these roles are instrumental in expanding my repertoire of skills and experiences. They are also critical for introspection and for crafting a robust résumé. I maintain a dynamic record of my engagements, a practice I plan to perpetuate beyond graduation to track my evolving leadership journey and achievements. Research is a cornerstone of academic and professional development. Pursuing inquiry into areas that ignite my passion augments my knowledge and enhances my marketability. Whether collaborating with faculty or venturing independently, research endeavors can culminate in publications that set my résumé apart in the competitive arenas of employment and higher education. Awareness of campus events and speakers is crucial, as these opportunities are ripe for active participation and learning. Beyond the university, I explore what the broader community offers, such as service councils that address local challenges through workshops and seminars. Professional development workshops on pertinent topics like "Trauma-Informed Care" or "Mandated Reporting" are often available at nearby agencies. Should financial barriers present, I seek assistance from the hosting organization or my educational institution. Engaging with professional bodies, such as the National Association of Social Workers, enriches my academic and networking experiences, linking me with diverse agencies and colleges. In the current era of networking, being a social work student places me amid a vibrant community of professionals. Every encounter is an opportunity to establish meaningful connections that will prove invaluable as I navigate the job market or apply to graduate programs. I actively engage with colleagues and alums, absorbing their wisdom and leveraging their experiences to enhance my educational journey and future career in social work. These interactions broadened my understanding of the field and helped me build a network supporting my professional aspirations.

Embarking on an educational journey after a fifteen-year hiatus as a mother to three vibrant souls presents a mosaic of challenges and triumphs. It's akin to the early days of nurturing a family—both require an immense capacity for adjustment and adaptation. Instructors' teaching styles and methodologies are as varied as the children I raise, necessitating a delicate balance as I navigate four or more classes. Time management, a skill I once believed I had mastered, has taken on new dimensions. My schedule is no longer solely my own; it intertwines with the intricate timetables of my children's lives. This dance, with time, has taught me to embrace flexibility and anticipate the unexpected hiccups that life invariably throws our way. Yet, amidst these hurdles, I've discovered an ally in modern technology. Attending classes virtually has been a beacon of convenience, allowing me to weave my academic pursuits into the fabric of family life. While I acknowledge the irreplaceable value of physical presence in a classroom setting, the virtual alternative has been a lifeline when attending in person was not feasible. Returning to the study of general subjects has been a strenuous journey. The saying 'use it or lose it' proves accurate, especially regarding my once-favored subject, English. My hiatus from academic pursuits had diminished my skills, underscoring the obstacle I had unwittingly created for myself by distancing from those who persisted in their academic studies. I am thrilled to have had the opportunity to return to school. There was a time when I doubted myself, but as I advanced on my educational path, that inner spark has been reignited. It glows fervently, guiding the way for my children as I endeavor to be the supermom I aspire to be. Nevertheless, this journey is not solely mine. My children are my co-travelers; they witness each obstacle I encounter and each barrier I dismantle. Together, we are packing this experience with memories and lessons that transcend textbooks and classrooms. For my daughter, this adventure underscores a powerful message: there is always a contingency plan that does not forsake your foremost aspirations—your dream to attain and culminate in higher education. This pursuit is more than an academic endeavor; it's a testament to resilience and determination. It's about demonstrating to my children that pursuing knowledge remains an invincible force regardless of life's detours. It's about instilling in them the belief that education is an ever-accessible path that can lead to fulfilling their ultimate dreams.

First and foremost, witnessing family violence can lead to severe emotional trauma for children. The constant exposure to aggression, fear, and conflict within the family unit can create an environment of chronic stress, leading to anxiety, depression, and behavioral problems. These children may struggle with establishing healthy relationships, as they may replicate the aggressive behaviors they have witnessed or become withdrawn and isolated. Exposing children to this type of environment will affect a child's cognitive development. Exposure to family violence has been linked to difficulties in concentration, impaired academic performance, and a higher likelihood of engaging in risky behaviors. The trauma experienced at home may hinder the normal development of their cognitive abilities, affecting their overall potential and future opportunities. Family violence can also have detrimental effects on children's physical health. The lack of sleep and stress associated with living in a violent environment may compromise their immune systems, making them more susceptible to illnesses. Our future children may adopt unhealthy coping mechanisms, such as substance abuse, to numb the emotional pain they experience. I feel like addressing family violence is not only crucial for the immediate safety of the victims but is also essential in breaking the cycle of intergenerational trauma. By understanding the negative issues that can arise from children being exposed to family violence, society can better advocate for the protection and well-being of these vulnerable individuals, ensuring they can grow and thrive in environments free from violence and fear. Why do I want to help? Because I can be unbiased. Having emerged from the same vulnerable cycle, I understand the nuances—the tangled emotions, the fragile hopes, and the desperate need for someone to believe in you. I’ve faced my own reality head-on, wrestled with demons, and emerged stronger. Now, it’s my turn to extend a hand to others—to guide them toward the light, even when darkness threatens to engulf them. I know change begins with recognition. It’s that pivotal moment when an individual realizes that their circumstances are not set in stone—that they can break free from the chains that bind them. As a micro social worker, I want to be there during that moment of revelation. I want to listen, truly listen, to their stories—the raw narratives etched into their hearts. I want to validate their pain, acknowledge their resilience, and ignite the spark of possibility. I understand that assistance need not be grandiose; sometimes, it’s a gentle nudge in the right direction. It’s helping someone access resources, untangle bureaucratic knots, or simply offering a warm cup of tea during a chilly night. It’s about empowering individuals to take charge of their lives—to recognize that they hold the pen, and their story is still being written. In these initial stages of my micro social work journey, I choose to focus on the vulnerable—the ones who often slip through the cracks. I’ll stand beside them, not as a savior, but as a fellow traveler. Together, we’ll navigate the labyrinth of services, policies, and emotions. We’ll celebrate small victories—the first job interview, the safe haven found, the moment when hope flickers back to life. Micro social work isn’t about grand gestures; it’s about the quiet revolution—the ripple effect that begins with one person’s unwavering commitment. So, here I am, ready to be that committed presence. My nephew’s journey taught me that change is possible, even when the odds seem insurmountable. And if I can be a catalyst for change in someone else’s life, then my purpose is fulfilled. In every exchange, I aim to be the gentle push guiding someone to a more luminous future."

I am resilient for noticing and changing my domestic relationship. I have over come five years of functional depression, and raising my three children. Being able to be a survivor, and being able to learn and teach my children that the power comes from within to notice and change any situation. I am happy to say that I have completed three years of counseling sessions! Learning about me, my triggers, cause and effects of my actions, where to give and place my energy, learning that I am not too old to set and accomplish my goals, or to even dreams, and to decipher my needs in my life. With my new found mental state of mind, and the curiosity that flows through my blood I have been able to create a plan, become focused, and embrace the positive change that has occurred within. I have been able to acknowledge the things in my life that have no real true meaning and that may be detrimental to myself and my children. I have become consistent with myself, I understand that beauty is deeper than the physical element. Learning to defend myself in a positive manner, actually thinking before I speak, and understanding my reality and how life can be taken away. Uplifting and encouraging others is my new motivation. I enjoy being that person who seeks out to ask you how your day is, or how may I help you. I understand what it feels like to be left alone, seeking and keeping some type of faith, the urge to cry when all I want to do is laugh. No one knowing or understanding my reality, secrets of abuse, to be intimidated, afraid, no desire to be productive in society. I was her. I dislike with a passion to notice that someone may be fearful of their own reality and have suicidal thoughts. To feel as if no one genuinely cares about your situation without them making the conversation about them. I need to be that shoulder, inspiration, the one to create a smile on their face. As I am on my new journey, I will be seeking to inspire people to seek mental health, become confident, and connect with other like minded people. I want to be a speaker of not only knowledge, but experience for those I come across. Informing all that giving yourself a second chance is what we all need, and not validation for those who don’t even know the true reality of your life. Building relationships with others who have been in the same situation, and who now has the support they desire, and need. I want to show people that the best you, starts with forgiveness within ourselves, a dream, and a team to keep you focused on your new reality. Making others understand that they don’t have to be a stigma. With all the knowledge I am gaining, I want to start off by giving speeches to incoming high school students at the local schools. Next, navigating my way to our local Y.M..C.A., and Boys and Girls Club targeting our young adult youth. Allowing them to seek inspiration, gain a different sense of direction, and leading them to others who have a new found reality, although they may have felt alone, and undetermined at one point in life. I am her, the one one to inspire and influence, and help you hold yourself accountable when you didn’t even feel the need to be. Understanding that all life has is ups and down. We need to be dedicated and determined to be up and loved.