Throughout my life I always felt different. Of course, everyone is uniquely different in some way, yet my difference was a hindrance. I never knew how to blend in with the crowd like my classmates or even with my family. For most of my life, I constantly felt unsettled, eccentric, even outright crazy. Despite this, I never suffered academically. I was adored by all my teachers, thought to be intelligent, considerate, and well-mannered, just often labeled “quiet” or “shy.” To be honest, I learned to be quiet to hide this unknown difference.
That is how it remained, until after a barrage of neuropsychological testing, I was diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder at sixteen years old. This information was brand new to me, coupled with emotions of fear and shock. However, a sentiment that I was not expecting was the feeling of solace. Through this diagnosis, I then knew that I was not alone and that there was not something wrong with me. The very thing that made me feel different is now something that I have in common with others. Like other autistic individuals, I often perceive and interpret the world in unique ways. This distinct perspective can enrich discussions, problem-solving, and creative endeavors in various situations. I have learned to adapt these skills at my university and continue to thrive academically. I strive to foster a more understanding campus environment for others who struggle with the same issues.
As I mature, I continue to be more self-aware. I am getting better at communicating my feelings, managing stress before it escalates, and working on social skills. I have made a few close friends since starting college and feel respected by peers at my internship. I am fulfilled academically and enthusiastic about my chosen career in marine biology. I have discovered new interests (playing guitar, attending live music shows) that stimulate me and foster self-expression. Since receiving my diagnosis in high school, I have realized that being neurodivergent is one of many characteristics that make me unique. I understand that I may continue to face obstacles but have the confidence and self-worth to overcome them. My outlook for the future is positive, and I cannot wait to experience what lies ahead.