Mental health is not just a conversation topic for me—it’s a lived experience that has touched every part of who I am: my goals, my relationships, and how I see the world. As a young Black woman growing up in a world that often misunderstands both my identity and my emotions, I’ve had to fight to be seen, heard, and understood—not just by others, but by myself. My mental health journey is deeply tied to my family, my faith, and the pain of losing my eldest brother to suicide. That loss changed everything.
My brother was the protector, the firstborn out of eight siblings. He was the one who showed me how to be strong, even when life wasn’t fair. His death shattered something inside me. The silence that followed wasn’t just about grief—it was about shame, confusion, and questions that had no easy answers. I remember sitting in my room, holding onto a photo of him, asking God why. I couldn’t understand how someone so loved could feel so alone. And I started to wonder: How many others are walking around smiling while silently falling apart?
That was the first time I truly understood the depth of mental health—not as a diagnosis, but as a hidden pain. I didn’t have the words back then to explain what I was feeling. I just knew I was sad, tired, and angry all at once. But as time passed, I started to learn how to name my emotions. I realized I wasn’t weak for struggling. I was human. And in that realization, something powerful was born: the desire to help others who felt like I did, especially in the Black community where mental health is still too often ignored or misunderstood.
In Black households, we’re taught to “pray it away,” to “be strong,” and to keep family business private. But I’ve learned that true strength is being honest about your pain. It’s sitting with your feelings instead of running from them. I started journaling, going to counseling, and speaking up in safe spaces. I shared how grief and anxiety impacted my daily life—how sometimes I felt like I had to be everything for everyone and had no room to breathe for myself. And slowly, healing began.
This journey didn’t just change how I saw myself—it shifted my entire world. I became more compassionate, more aware of what people might be carrying silently. I stopped assuming that everyone who smiles is okay. I started listening more closely, asking, “How are you, really?” Because I knew what it felt like to hide pain behind a mask. That understanding has changed my relationships. I’ve grown closer to my family, especially my younger siblings. I’ve taken on the role of big sister with more intentionality—caring not just for their physical needs, but for their hearts and minds. I remind them it’s okay to feel, to cry, and to ask for help. I want them to know they don’t have to carry the weight of the world alone.
My mental health journey also shaped my dreams. I’ve always loved technology—something about solving problems, building systems, and learning how computers think excites me. I plan to major in computer science at an HBCU, because I want to be surrounded by people who look like me, who understand where I come from, and who are also striving for greatness. But even deeper than that, my goal is to become a civil rights attorney one day. I want to use my voice, my story, and my education to fight for those who’ve been silenced by systems that were never built to protect them.
The two paths—tech and justice—might seem different, but for me, they’re connected. I see technology as a tool for empowerment, especially in Black communities. I want to build platforms that promote mental health awareness, provide access to resources, and uplift voices that are too often left out of the conversation. I dream of starting a nonprofit one day that combines mentorship, legal support, and mental health education for young Black girls. I want them to see themselves as worthy, powerful, and limitless—because too many of us are told otherwise.
Faith has also played a huge role in my healing. There were moments when I felt completely alone, like no one could understand the depth of my pain. But in those moments, I turned to God. Not just for answers, but for strength. I learned that walking with the Lord doesn’t mean life will be easy—it means you’ll have someone to hold onto when the world gets heavy. My faith helped me see that my story isn’t over. It’s just beginning. And every tear I’ve cried has watered the seeds of purpose inside me.
I now look at the world with different eyes. I no longer see just problems—I see people. I see potential. I see pain, yes, but also resilience. I’ve met others who’ve struggled, who’ve lost, who’ve broken down—and I’ve watched them rise. That inspires me every day. I want to be someone who creates space for others to heal. Someone who turns pain into purpose.
Mental health is not just a chapter in my story—it’s a foundation. It has taught me empathy, courage, and the importance of being real. It’s why I want to fight for justice, speak truth to power, and build a future where no one feels invisible. Because I know what it’s like to feel alone in a crowded room. And I never want another Black girl to feel like her voice doesn’t matter.
My name is Laila, and I’ve walked through the storm. But I’m still here. And I’m turning my scars into strength—not just for me, but for everyone who comes after me.