My love of art started when I was very young, I didn't even know how cruel the world was just yet, but I knew I loved art. I knew art was always going to be an escape, a beautiful world I can make and build around myself when the real world wasn't safe. I grew up between 3 households and way too many traumatizing encounters, many that made me hate myself. But something I could never hate was my art. For many years I would draw for myself, and in elementary school something shifted. I began to write and draw picture books for other people in my grade, to entertain them and to tell stories maybe they would want to understand better. Ever since then, I wanted more. I would push to write stories and draw my own books. Many were drafted, thrown away, lost. But my push didn't stop with some lost copies. I stopped writing in my middle school and my first 2 years of high school; I would draw but I refused to write. Words, I had learned, were variable. They were only important if the reader believed so, and who wanted to listen to a child who was ripped out of their safe space even when she was safe? No one, because no one listened. That changed the last 2 years of my high school career. I came back home after a long and tedious fight. I began to work while in school, and pushed harder than I ever had before. I became determined to become someone important, to make myself something with my art. In my last year of school I learned about many women who fought to be someone, just like I had, but one stuck with me. That woman was Frida Kahlo. A woman of so much pain and so much determination. Learning about her was fun and interesting, sure. But if you look, I mean /really/ look at the woman she was, you can see a brave young woman who went through many hardships and knew her worth, even if the man wasn't for her. She made herself into a beautiful, recognizable, and remembered female artist. She refused any other path and through the constant pain and torture, she bloomed, like a flower in early fall, and let her petals carry her history. She is an artist that will forever stick with me, and in a way, I can see myself in her shoes, just different situations. Her art is earth-shattering and genuine, she put on a show for no one. And personally, I strive to do the same.

I hope to make a difference with my art. I aspire to make big changes and bring light to subjects that get passed over and looked down upon. I want to make a change with my art and show people that it’s okay to not be okay, it’s okay to struggle, and it’s okay to be you no matter who you are. I want to open my own art gallery and be able to sell my own art to those who see it and feel my art. I chose my field of study because it’s always been a calling to me. Art was there when nothing and no one else was, so I knew from a young age it’s what I want to do with my life some way or another. Everyone has something that calls to them, and this is just what it is for me. I will always have a different love for art no matter when in my life it is. In the darkest moments I’ve had, and in the lightest moments I’ve had, I’ve always painted. I paint to capture what words or pictures can’t. I paint to show who I am, to show what I can do, and to show who I can be. Some people have music, some have digital arts, some have writing. But, I prefer physical arts, painting, taxidermy, and so much more. Some people say they’re touched by the Midas of what they are most skilled at. Personally, I feel as though I am touched by the Midas of physical creativity. I enjoy writing and even from a young age would write books, but it’s not my trade of choice. To change the world with art is all an artist aspires to do, I aspire to change the world. Art is meant to create reactions, make changes, make people wonder and thing. That’s all I aspire to do. My education will help me achieve many things I cannot teach myself, I started by myself, and now a little help can’t hurt what I’ve already made of myself. A degree in arts will be extremely helpful to get to the position I believe I will thrive in. I believe I can do anything I can put my mind to, so why can’t you? Art is something you have to believe in yourself to do, not just by chance but by working towards it.

I hope to make a difference with my art. I aspire to make big changes and bring light to subjects that get passed over and looked down upon. I want to make a change with my art and show people that it’s okay to not be okay, it’s okay to struggle, and it’s okay to be you no matter who you are. I want to open my own art gallery and be able to sell my own art to those who see it and feel my art. I chose my field of study because it’s always been a calling to me. Art was there when nothing and no one else was, so I knew from a young age it’s what I want to do with my life some way or another. Everyone has something that calls to them, and this is just what it is for me. I will always have a different love for art no matter when in my life it is. In the darkest moments I’ve had, and in the lightest moments I’ve had, I’ve always painted. I paint to capture what words or pictures can’t. I paint to show who I am, to show what I can do, and to show who I can be. Some people have music, some have digital arts, some have writing. But, I prefer physical arts, painting, taxidermy, and so much more. Some people say they’re touched by the Midas of what they are most skilled at. Personally, I feel as though I am touched by the Midas of physical creativity. I enjoy writing and even from a young age would write books, but it’s not my trade of choice. To change the world with art is all an artist aspires to do, I aspire to change the world. Art is meant to create reactions, make changes, make people wonder and thing. That’s all I aspire to do. My education will help me achieve many things I cannot teach myself, I started by myself, and now a little help can’t hurt what I’ve already made of myself. A degree in arts will be extremely helpful to get to the position I believe I will thrive in. All you have to do as an artist, is believe you can make and be the change you want to make on the world. I believe I can change or make anything I put my mind to, so why don’t you?

It’s hard to help someone in need depending on who you are, especially in today’s world. Personally, I’ve always found it easier than most. To find the good in the bad, the light in the dark, the use in the useless. I’ve always seen the best in people, and that didn’t just stop when I started my TikTok account. It was the prime of TikTok when I joined, and I wanted to make a difference, the underdog, the one who makes it in the end. I got popular late 2023, my videos started getting out more. I had my own little platform, my audience, my friends. I loved it, and I loved making sure everyone around me was okay even when I wasn’t. It was near the end of my prime when one of my audience members contacted me, their message was short but impactful. I felt like I made a difference in this individual’s life, a small but impactful one. The message said that they had been watching me for some time and were felt loved by how I referred to my viewers and defended them strongly. They said they felt seen for the first time in their life. That was something I had never heard before, and they seemed amazing. The more time I spent with them, the more I realized, they just needed a friend, someone to care when no one else did. And I was, I was there for them, I took care of them when I was struggling myself because they mattered, and they needed to know it! So many people struggle in life to find someone who cares, someone who’s with you through the good in bad, someone you honestly need. I was that person for that individual, and many after for my entire TikTok “career”. That’s something I would always go back to and makes me smile to this day, something I strive to do with my art and my future. If no one else is there, I have and will stand by your side as your loyal friend for the rest of my friends’ lives. That’s not something to replace, the feeling of them knowing I’m safe to depend on. To know that they know I will always be here, no matter what. Helping people in need is a special trait not many have, but I do. I’d help the world if only my shoulders were big enough.