Two parents raised me, yet I relate to the kids who grew up without a father. He worked damn near 24/7 and when he was home he was emotionally unavailable and nonverbal for the most part; he couldn't sit still and embrace us he'd pace all around the house for tedious tasks than father us. My mother stressfully having to do the work of two parents would constantly feel on the brink of an episode. I doubt My father has seen the tantrums and rage my mom would let out due to his emotional absence. As children raised in a dysfunctional household would do, my older sister herself would then develop self-esteem issues. harmful body images, a knack for Vocal Resistance, and in her later years dependence on substances. I watched and analyzed how we'd react to various stimuli and decide if their behavior was justifiable; it was never horribly wrong but wrong due to confusion in themselves and their experiences and issues I wasn't aware of. My grandmother Had upwards of 8 kids with an abusive man, Developing a sense of sleep deprivation and as well trauma that was also passed down. The same can be said about my father except he wasn't an alcoholic but rather just like him Neglectful. In the later portion of my spring semester in Highschool around 2022, I got an urgent call from my fathers stating shamefully that my brother was taken out of school early by my mom due to him confessing to his principal he had suicidal tendencies. For context, my brother suddenly in his transition from 5th grade to 6th grade developed anxiety one too dramatic to be faked; he would cry, and turn pale on his way to school and would spend most of his time asking to be sent to any office that would allow him to stay. He didn't last long and finished 6th grade in a virtual academy; due to the circumstances the school sent an ambulance to our home to take him to be tested and all other types of trauma-inducing stunts due to his statement. We would argue stressfully whether it was a good idea to the point where one of the paramedics stepped in and told us that the kids in the psych wards are on another level and my brother witnessing it would most likely not help with his issues so we called and said we'd take him ourselves as a trick to not take him in we enrolled him in therapy as well as the previously stated virtual academy supporting as much as we could until he was ready to return to school which he is now in 2023. I carried the weight and sucked up stress to balance out the family dynamic seemingly because we tend to trigger each other. Due to not being able to stress out towards my brother, my mom would target me and my sister. which I was okay with since she has problems with her heart and it was better venting than holding on to it. That's my experience with mental illness and how it's been in my family as if it were genetically encrypted and how with that challenge I was able not only excel in my life but create support for my sibling.