"But I don't want to!" I cried as my 8-year-old self was carried to the car. It was the early hours of the morning, and my mother was off to another manufacturing plant for work, going on without me. No matter how many times I begged, pleaded, or dealt unrealistic ultimatums that only a kid could conceive, the outcome remained the same. My mother left me with a familiar feeling of abandonment and loneliness, in the care of my grandmother. In the absence of my mother’s presence, the only things that grounded me were her promises and words of encouragement. Her reassurances, “You’ll be alright,” and “I’ll be back in no time,” served as a lifeline. Even in her absence, I felt her presence nearby, watching my every move. I was determined to excel in everything I did, hoping to make her proud and, with any luck, hasten her return. However, in my time of worry, one person, my grandmother, made it their goal to keep me distracted by giving me the gift of knowledge.
While my mother was away, my grandmother made sure to teach me not only about an individual’s obligation to their community but also expose me to the various ways an individual can ignite a movement for change. My grandmother took me along with her on her daily errands, which to a young me felt like field trips: attending monthly city council meetings, encouraging people to vote, and serving food at church. My grandmother wasn’t just your average grandmother; she was an active member of her church, the NAACP, the local government, and a two-time cancer survivor. From a very young age, I witnessed many of the issues that negatively affected my community: poverty, low voter representation, lack of opportunities, and more. Opportunities were scarce in our small rural town in Louisiana, so many gave up fighting for better because they felt powerless in comparison to the government. I began to internalize the simple things I could do to be a part of the change. My grandmother and I worked to help create opportunities and remind others that they had the power to turn their local government when it was election time. It was during these shared moments with my grandmother that I developed a passion for volunteering and service leadership. Those “field trips” made me forget my mother was even gone, as I was too focused on creating positive change throughout my community.
My mother was right. Not only was I alright, but I even began to anticipate when my mother would leave again and look forward to time spent with my grandmother. Now, as a teenager, I eagerly look forward to the "field trips" I take with the clubs I am involved with. My interest in volunteerism and service leadership has evolved into a passion– a hobby even. I spend most of my weekends participating in service events to contribute to positive change in my community. One particular service opportunity I'm grateful for is shadowing an ER department and ambulance service. This experience revealed the critical importance of healthcare to the community and how it's affected by political issues. I know I can't fix everything alone, but my decision to pursue a career in the medical field is my way of joining the movement to make our community better. As my grandmother did for me, I also aspire to make a broader impact. This time around I want to spread knowledge in the area of mental wellness, women and children's health through acts of service.
My grandmother has instilled important leadership and social qualities that have shaped me into a strong young woman who isn't afraid to try or fail. I’m grateful for the time we took advantage of together because I wouldn’t be the person I am without those shared moments.