For context, my grandfather had fought in the Vietnam War before leaving everything he knew in the pursuit of a better life for his family in the States. He was more than a relative, he was my inspiration, my emotional backbone, which made it all the more heart-wrenching when I discovered he was deathly ill from the rampant coronavirus.
I was terrified both for him and how it would affect me and my brother, my parents, my relatives, all of them. Despite considering myself an atheist, I prayed to God for Grandpa to be healthy again, or at least live to see my older brother graduate so he would die knowing his legacy was secure in our hands. My prayers went unanswered.
During the funeral, my brother tried his best to comfort me as I wept during the service, as I carried the coffin to the furnace, and as I said my final goodbyes. Afterward, I began thinking to myself, regardless of my academic achievements, I had not done enough, I could not be enough to live up to everything Grandfather suffered, and I had already failed both him and everyone.
Later, my brother graduated high school and was bound for Arizona State to pursue a career in pediatrics. He was on a path to extraordinary accomplishment whilst I felt I was not. Before he left, I finally talked to him about everything. He too was devastated by Grandpa’s death. However, he realized that after the war, and all the loss Grandpa experienced during then, all he wanted was for us to be happy with ourselves, and never experience the agony he did. That was why he cared, why he gave us so much, and why I now do all I can to uphold his dying wish, doing my absolute best in not just school, but everything I do, so both I and my family are proud of my life. My academic grades have improved, yes, but so has my determination to overcome any obstacle in the pursuit of a better, healthier life for, not just me, but everyone.
I will put that determination towards my future career in biomedical research to help people around the world through advancing medicine, ensuring that no one else has to experience such illness or heartbreak and that an excellent standard of health is more attainable to all. I also hope to show others the value of honesty, hard work, and perseverance, no matter the hardships you face.
To any others who face similar adversity, similar tragedy, similar agony, know this: You are never alone. There will always be your family who will aid you through any obstacles life throws at you. If not your blood family, then your found family, the people around you whom you hold closest. If you yet find yourself somehow seemingly alone in your fight, then reach out, and be more open and willing to accept not only different perspectives but the aid of others. There are 8 billion unique people on this Earth. It is a statistical guarantee that there will always be others who share your struggle, and those who are more than willing to support you. You just have to go out and find them. The odds you face may seem insurmountable, or implausible, but this universe is one of ever-expanding, infinite possibility. Therefore, especially with the aid of those by your side, and who share your adversity, nothing is impossible.