Throughout high school, I had always had what I considered a normal teenage life. I went to school, had a job, had a good and supportive friend group, all typical teenagers things. I was proud of the life that I had built for myself, the independence I had gained, and who I was becoming. This all changed, however, in February of 2025. It was then that I was sexually assaulted, and my whole life seemingly went up in flames. The assault took such a toll on my mental health that I had to drop out of school and take classes online, causing me to lose a lot of my friends. It also came with a large decline in my academic success. I went from a straight A student to being satisfied with Bs and Cs. I felt alone and isolated. I turned to drugs and alcohol to ease my mental pain, and shut down almost entirely.
After talking the situation through with my parents, I gained the courage to come forward about the situation to law enforcement. This was not easy, and required me to relive the situation over and over again for the sake of testifying in court and giving a witness statement. It took months of counseling before I felt comfortable with myself again. I decided that by letting the situation have power over both my life and my decisions, I was letting the men who hurt me win. That is what flipped the switch in me.
I continued to go to counseling, which gave me strength to make the hard choice, to become who I was before the assault. I gave up my substance abuse, which was extremely difficult at first but so very worth it in the end. I gained the courage to return to school in person for my senior year, and put in more effort to return my grades to what they had been before. I gained friendships that helped me regain my confidence, and most importantly, I found my voice.
Through these mentally trying times, I was able to use my pain to help others. I learned of multiple girls my age that had been hurt by the same two men, but like me were too afraid to come forward. Through discussion and group therapy, I was able to help them gain their voices as well, and come forward to law enforcement about the situation. I still struggle to this day with mental health. I tend to look back on the assault and blame myself for being in that situation. I still constantly battle the desire to return to substance abuse, and concentration has been difficult.
Through counseling, discussion with parents and with my support group, I have been able to battle all of this. I know that if I continue to do all I can to combat the dark thoughts, I can come closer to being the person I used to be, and maybe someday I can become someone even better. I plan to use this trial as a growth opportunity. I take pride in the fact that I can use my struggles to help other women going through the same thing, which gives me hope for the future. I have hope for who I am becoming, and what I will accomplish in the future, and I belive that with the proper resources, I can become the strong willed woman I know I can be.