Anxiety used to be a very drastic issue in my life, I wouldn't want anyone to have this kind of anxiety that I had to endure in the past. Although the Anxiety I had was very bad, the experience has ultimately made me stronger. In the midst of this Anxiety I had, I felt hopeless, and that sorrow eventually led to Depression, but I didn't sit down and let it overtake me in a snare, I wanted to fight it, I wanted to overcome it.
This Anxiety came upon me very suddenly, but the main influence of the intense worry was the fear of death. It was uncontrollable, I had no power over it. The feeling was like sharp, piercing beams upon my chest, and it was present regardless of whether or not I was ill, such a feeling made it difficult to breathe at times, and the thoughts clouded my mind enough where I felt like I wasn't actually in the world, even though I could see with my eyes. Insomnia was also something that came right along with it. Every day and every night was a burden and I had no comfort or anything to relieve me from that grievous, tedious pain.
It became very bad, to the point where I would shed tears uncontrollably, although I tried to stop myself from crying, I had no might within myself to do so. I was very mentally weak, and my broken and drained spirit weakened my bones, therefore I was also physically weak. Even small words or certain phrases caused my Anxiousness to rise, and I avoided every situation to avoid a spark of worry. It was uncomfortable and unbearable, the feeling upon my chest was not at all pleasant. This is what I now perceive as a low estate in my life, where I would either get up stronger or sit in the dust just to be covered with more dust.
I was met with an adversary named Anxiety, and it wanted to take me down and make me a prisoner, but I did not give in to it, I wanted to overcome this adversary and prevail. The adversary set up a large wall that I couldn't pass by, but I desired to break it to pieces. I eventually began to read The Bible, and the words within the books contained in this Book brought joyfulness to my soul and revived my mind as I started to seek to understand it and apply what was written in it to my life. This adversary began to depart from me as I did this, as I changed the way I conducted myself; the way I viewed the world, and the way I thought of myself. Over the course of time, I developed more care for myself and others, became more focused, ambitious and persistent; I became stronger, enough to cause that adversary to flee, for the snares and weapons of Anxiety didn't have that hold on my mind anymore.
I now understand that this experience was like a trial for me to be shaped into who I must be, and I give all praises to The Most High God, who created all things, in the name of his Only Begotten Son, who is called Christ, for putting me through this to reform my mind, amend my ways and overcome my fear.
Now I won't be Anxious about the future, I will instead move obstacles out of my pathway, for I understand that I must sustain myself to be undefeated, and pursuing my chosen career will indeed help me with that.