Warning: This playlist is about to take you through your relationship with your first love. You are entering into an uncharted, yet thrilling environment which may have some twists and turns. Will it work out? That is for you to decide. Proceed with caution as you may not return to the person you once were before. Playlist: Down the Rabbit Hole of Love Artist: Respire (means "just breathe" in French) 1. Can't Take My Eyes off You by Frankie Valli 2. Don't Stop Me Now by Queen 3. Married Life by Michael Giacchino 4. We Need to Talk by Matt Maltese 5. First Love / Late Spring by Mitski 6. The Night We Met by Lord Huron 7. Vienna by Billy Joel You enter college anxious, enthralled, and captivated by the excitement of the new scenery. You fall in love with the campus, the social life, the people, but in the background you can faintly hear a siren warning you of the struggles you are about to face. However, you are happy and you are in love so you choose to ignore it. You choose to keep moving forward without looking back. You are euphoric. All aspects of your life are good. You feel like you are moving 100 miles an hour and that nothing can ruin the happiness you have found here. But then your schoolwork starts getting more challenging. You stop seeing your friends as much as your life begins to slow down. You feel like you are overwhelmed and slowly loosing air. You feel weak, you feel alone. You’ve hit your first low. You try to get out of this by acknowledging the problem. You try to fix it but you know that this might be your new reality. You accept defeat but keep trying to do well. You are now at your breaking point. One more push, one more assignment, one more added stressor, and you will loose it. You want to continue, you want this degree but you do not know how much more you can take. You take a deep breathe. You try to compose yourself, and you begin to think about all the other students who have been in the same situation. You try to remember that even though you might not have any family to relate to, you are not alone in this situation. You try to think back to the beginning of the year, when you were content. You want to go back, but you know thats not an option. However, you cannot help but think about the time before you felt like this. Before you had met your breaking point, before you had to keep pushing yourself even though you have lost your motivation. You take another deep breathe. You realize it is time to start fixing the problem. You try to slow down. You try to reassess your goal and reduce your high standards. You begin to realize that it is not all bad. That there are aspects of your life you enjoy and want to continue working towards pursuing. You are starting to find your purpose again.