I graduated high school in 2009, and enrolled at a local college. I attended school there for a year as a journalism major, and then I transferred to Louisiana State University to pursue a degree in advertising. Throughout my time in college, I performed in the LSU Tiger Marching Band, worked in Student Media Advertising as a sales executive, and held down two full time jobs doing any entry level work I could find.
After some time, I withdrew from school because the financial burden was too much to handle given the jobs available with a student's schedule. After withdrawing, I proceeded to find work as a carpenter, musician, salesman, chef and ultimately butcher. During this time, my relationships and friendships suffered greatly as I began to tie my self worth to my career success. I began to feel worthless. One day, my friend reached out to me for money, and I knew it was for drugs. I pleaded with him, but it was too late. He hung up the phone on me, and later that day he overdosed. I began to feel even worse, and my girlfriend was tired of my depression. She broke up with me, and I moved to New Orleans to live on the street and play my trumpet.
Over the last ten years, I have experienced many of the ups and downs life has to offer. I believe the best way forward for my wife and I is to continue my education and open new doors which will allow me to continue providing while pursuing fulfillment and peace of mind. More specifically, I intend to obtain a music teaching certificate.
Although I have held many positions, my work as a musician, booking agent and performing artist has always stood out to me as significant. Music, without being overly poetic, allows us an expression of self often denied in other circumstances. My goal is to be able to share with others the ability to express oneself musically, with the intention to share and create with others. One of my fondest memories of musical experience was playing in the street bands in New Orleans. I tattooed a semi colon on my wrist, a symbol for those struggling that I am a person willing to listen to their story. I cannot count the amount of times that tattoo has been recognized while performing on the street by locals, tourists, and musicians alike. Sometimes people just need an ear, or a hug, to find the strength to go about their day.
In 2019, I stumbled across a local community orchestra, and decided to volunteer my time and talents. Little did I know, the president and founder would later become my wife! Through our dates, I learned that she founded a nonprofit orchestra while dealing with tremendous grief and ptsd after witnessing two very personal deaths in her life: her younger brother and suicide of her previous fiancee'. She was able to create something beautiful, an organization for both ameteur and professional musicians to collaborate and perform free orchestral music performances for the community, out of something so bleak! I was uniquely touched that she wanted to create a welcome place for people to feel valued.
When 2020 hit, the possibility to support myself and my new wife as a performing musician came to an end. There were no public venues, no tourists to perform for, and my life crashed before my eyes again. I applied at the grocery store, and have worked hard to become a meat cutter. Every day, I began to dwell on the different outlook people had for me as a grocery store employee, compared to the way I was treated as a performing artist. It amazed me how much judgment others can pass based on their perception of your career! I began to realize that life is not about simply earning a paycheck. It is about respect, love, and caring for others and ourselves. This pandemic and the forced career change experience has lead me to the decision to return to school. I hope to finish my degree in order to inspire and educate others, through music, so that they may come through to a brighter future.