Having mental health illnesses while being a full-time student and a part-time worker can be very challenging. Even though my mental illnesses are not curable, they are treatable. Every day I push harder and harder to do better for myself and everyone else around me. Many people my age suffer from the same illnesses as me like depression and anxiety. I know I am not alone in this, so I need to keep pushing and be strong for other people who may need a role model. Having these illnesses take a toll on my everyday life. At times it can become hard to even wake up in the morning, go to work right after school, eat dinner, focus on my school work, and just do normal daily things like brushing my teeth. I use my future as motivation to keep going. I want to pursue a career in elementary school education. Given the critical demand for teachers in the United States, we are in need of more teachers who are dedicated to taking on the task of developing young adolescents into kind, thoughtful, and hardworking people.
I am a straight A student, which means I spend a lot of time on school work, studying, and redoing things I need to even if I am exhausted. Even though I do not have much alone time because I am either at school, work, volunteering, or doing chores I still set aside alone time. Having more bad days than good, made me realize that I need to prioritize myself and even on my busiest days still make time for me. Even if it is as little as doing some self-care, writing, reading a book, cleaning my room, listening to music, or going on a walk I know this is what is good for my mental health. Before I realized this I would sit in my bed at night and listen to sad songs and I knew this made me worse, so I made a change.
My mental health affects my personal life though on a whole other level. My relationships with my family can be tough. I feel like it is hard for them to understand me. At times I feel like a burden and it makes me overthink everything. I lost almost all of my friends, and I always blamed my mental health. Sometimes it is hard to think about how I will live with depression forever, but I am learning to understand that I am more than just my mental illnesses. Having depression and anxiety is not just who I am. I am still a good, hardworking, and nice person. I wake up everyday, go to school, manage straight A's, take extra college classes while still in high school, go to work, and then come home, make myself dinner, and do homework. Even though it is very challenging, I can do it.