I would say my song would be "Clean". I've had many ups and downs in my life. Most of my relationships are now just memories. I've struggled with addictions and mental illness. I've had this one relationship where this guy got me to try smoking and doing not-so-good stuff with him. It was always an off-and-on relationship. There was a point in my life when he constantly used me and my addiction had gone crazy to vaping that I had a breaking point. I felt like I couldn't tell people what was going on. I didn't want my parents to know my struggles. I didn't have anyone to talk to because either they didn't care or I was too scared. That reminds me of a line in the song "The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing." After that breaking point, I knew I needed to stop. I threw everything away, even him. ¨Ten months sober, I must admit Just because you're clean, don't mean you don't miss it. Ten months older, I won't give in now that I'm clean, I'm never gonna risk" It was a big step for me. Giving up things was addicted to was a struggle. Although I'm glad I did. Then I hit a downfall. I started getting sexually harassed online and they threatened to tell my parents and show them things about me. That was hard. I didn't know what to do or how to react. This kind of blackmail scared me. I had a breakdown and told my parents everything. "When I was drowning that's when I could finally breathe" I was in tears explaining to them everything I've been through. At that moment a feeling in my chest was different. I got the weight off my shoulders and that is how that line came into play. I was so scared of what my parents were going to think of me. I didn't know how it would affect there trust in me. They were so understanding. After all that had gone down, things got better. I recently just got a job as a CNA and will continue classes. I'm planning on moving away soon to a private college I got into. Things are going great. I learned that opening up and giving up things really make a difference on you. Now, ¨I think I'm finally clean¨.

What are my ideas? Here's what I've been going off my whole life. Relationships, building relationships. Whether it's your family, co-workers, church, or even your community. Try your best to be kind and have empathy. Not everyone is going to like you and there's going to be people you don't like. However, showing kindness can still impact them in a way. Have empathy. Put yourself in other people's shoes. you have no idea what going on in people's lives. We don't need to make it worse by being rude, instead, we can be kind and show them that we do care. This is a cruel world, but using kind words and a good mindset you can change people's perspective. Stay positive. Don't go into things by saying "I HAVE to do this" Go into things saying "I GET to do it". To be completely honest with you guys. I do not believe in the Big Bang. There's no proof nor enough evidence for me to believe it. There has to be a lot more to this universe than a big bang. I'm a Christian which means I do believe in the seven days of creation. Jesus was historically proven to be real. Everything Jesus did was real. I think we can believe in him saying that the seven days of creation are also real. I believe that in this society, everyone has a reason for everything. Everyone has a place, a passion, a purpose. It's how we work, it's how we thrive. You have to have a great mindset in how things work. Get to know people. reach out to your community. Talk to people. Learn ways of different things. See how other people see this world. I think our purpose in life is each other. Being there when someone needs it. See how to help the community. Learn ways of life. I think it's important we work on understanding it better because we live in this world every day. we connect with one another every day. We need to know how to mentally know how to work in this world. I think it's all based on your mindset towards things. You need to know how to work with one another. You need to know how to work for yourself. Most importantly you need to know how to work in this environment to know it better and live better too. Focus on your mindset.

What are my ideas? Here's what I've been going off my whole life. Relationships, building relationships. Whether it's your family, co-workers, church, or even your community. Try your best to be kind and have empathy. Not everyone is going to like you and there's going to be people you don't like. However, showing kindness can still impact them in a way. Have empathy. Put yourself in other people's shoes. you have no idea what going on in people's lives. We don't need to make it worse by being rude, instead, we can be kind and show them that we do care. This is a cruel world, but using kind words and a good mindset you can change people's perspective. Stay positive. Don't go into things by saying "I HAVE to do this" Go into things saying "I GET to do it". To be completely honest with you guys. I do not believe in the Big Bang. There's no proof nor enough evidence for me to believe it. There has to be a lot more to this universe than a big bang. I'm a Christian which means I do believe in the seven days of creation. Jesus was historically proven to be real. Everything Jesus did was real. I think we can believe in him saying that the seven days of creation are also real. I believe that in this society, everyone has a reason for everything. Everyone has a place, a passion, a purpose. It's how we work, it's how we thrive. You have to have a great mindset in how things work. Get to know people. reach out to your community. Talk to people. Learn ways of different things. See how other people see this world. I think our purpose in life is each other. Being there when someone needs it. See how to help the community. Learn ways of life. I think it's important we work on understanding it better because we live in this world every day. we connect with one another every day. We need to know how to mentally know how to work in this world. I think it's all based on your mindset towards things. You need to know how to work with one another. You need to know how to work for yourself. Most importantly you need to know how to work in this environment to know it better and live better too. Focus on your mindset.

I've been the new kid a few times in my life. The first time I was a new kid was when I went to homeschooling after being bullied to 4th grade as a kid. My ¨new kid¨ homeschool experience was pretty great. It was a fresh start. I made great friends and attended extracurriculars. I made friends in the band. I made friends on the YMCA girl's basketball team. I even made friends by participating in theatre. I enjoyed fresh starts. Honestly, it was great being homeschooled because some of your classmates would have the same scenario as you because of why you went to homeschooling. For most of us, it was bullying. A couple of years later my dad got a new job offer and we moved to a new state. They decided to put me back in public school again. At first, it was nice. I knew one kid. He used to live in the same town as me and moved to the same town a little before we did and I was happy to see him again. When I first started 5th grade I thought everything was ok at first. Everyone was kind and friendly and showed me around. Everything here seemed different, or so I thought. Over time I learned people can be very mean. They made fun of my dad for being overweight. They called me ¨mole face¨. They even told me that I'd end up like my dad. Those words really hurt me. But I fought threw those people for years. When I was in 7th grade I got punched in the hallway by one of the girls who had bullied me. It's hard because my dad told me I got bullied for having a big heart but I think it was because of my looks. Once 8th grade hit I started sports and they would yell at me to move fatty. My family decided I needed a new chance. There was another high school 2 towns over. So we applied and I was the new student again. Honestly, it was a pretty similar experience. Don't get me wrong the teachers and staff were amazing. I have one good friend here and she has stayed true to me and has been there. Although my sister got popular and decided to make fun of me, now my senior year we've been closer than ever. In sophomore year I dated one of her friends and a picture of us hugging got posted and we were made fun of, causing him to leave me and never talk again. Sadly there are mean people out there but I will always stay kind. I stayed true to god and turned the other cheek. I have great friendships with a classmate, my church, and my sister. My future goals are music and business. I often play music for my church and my passion is floral design. I'd like to own my own business and a program for special education kids who need time to just breathe. I´m autistic myself and that was a reason I got bullied so I'd love to help be there for other kids who need a breather. Bullying impacted me to never stop showing kindness and to have empathy.

I guess the fear factor was what people saw of me. I never really got to socialize and participate in events due to my dad's health. I would have to help him walk, to the point he was in a wheelchair. At that time he was 600lbs. Some of my classmates made fun of me because #1 I was special ed and #2 they told me I'd end up like my dad. Being special ed was hard. I never thought I'd make it to college. I recently got accepted to a private university (D2) with a scholarship to learn business and finance and I'm horrible at math but want to take this big step to live a successful future with a big education. I've discovered a passion for caring for people and floral. Being a florist I get to care for families lost and families celebrations. I get to see people buy flowers for dates and occasions and I just love seeing the smiles on their faces when they receive the flower arrangements. I want to get to the point of owning my own floral shop. To be honest it's hard choosing a career path. I've thought about being a BCN. Which is a bariatric certified nurse. They help people with weight loss surgery to help them get better. My dad went through that and it changed his life to the point that he's currently in a walker and will be able to walk again after he lost 300 lbs from that surgery. He had one of the worst cases. I often helped him get around and I've felt the experience and would love to help other families too, if I get that chance. Another huge part of my life is christianity. I love helping my church. One of the most common things I love to there is my passion for worship. At a young age my father started teaching me guitar when i turned 11. I took guitar lessons for the longest time. I kind of stopped playing when we moved. A couple years after we moved my dad deciided to teach me how to play bass. I loved it. it was easy and fun and put a new spin in my life. I played for a really big church camp. We called ourselves The Amazing Avoscottos. My brothers name was scott. he lead the band. We all wore green bandans and had so much fun. Then covid hit sadly. That didnt stop me from contiuning to play the bass. when covid hit we moved our church services outside. we then played outside for worship and it was kinda fun. My dad couldnt play on worship team at the time because of his health so my brother scott stepped in and acted as a mentor to me (hes not my real brother). We then were sitting in church one sunday and he annouced he was moving. That was very hard on me. He was my only close person i could talk to and enjoy music. it was rough. he got me back into guitar and my dads health improved and my dad came back. I started playing guitar for months alone til my dad was ready. that helped get me better. My dad stepped in and everything was good. I started doing Jail ministry as i turned 18. I now play electric guitar and im a main guitarist on the team. music helps me escape my fears and worries along with god of course.